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wow its been eons since i've updated.. i switched to LJ but i got that reviewing job soo i am going to try to update a little more often if i can..
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[20 Nov 2003|12:28pm] |
I've moved with the west wind once again, and i now move to a home in which i hope to reside...
www.livejournal.com/users/anaylzeher
Feel free to bother me, or ask me for a code if you would like i have plenty..
Bye
"Remember the days when i was so eager to satsify you"
-Remember the days(shit on the radio) Nelly Faturao (sp?)
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| Away Message your life |
[17 Nov 2003|06:33pm] |
Dont you wish you could put your life on an away message? I mean today out of all days is one of my draggiest.. i dont think thats a word.. but i feel as if i am being draged by a car while my body is lifelessly hitting the ground, and i am still alive.. thats how it feels for me.. November is going to be a sad month for me i can feel it.. I dont know whats gotten over me... I am thinking about going to see Gothika that comes out this friday i think, i should go with a bunch of my friends who look older than 12, note: i am not 12, but some dude asked me if i was 11, and i said no, i am 12, inside joke, but seriously i am a high school sophmore not a 6th grader (6th graders are 12 right?)so i dont have to show ID when comming in or i can ask my moms... I am in the living room, its cold.. and i am now walking up staires, i am still walking.. i y am still walking... now i am in my bedroom.. i have wireless which alows me to be online all the time, anytime, i am now taking off my clothes close your eyes please..u can open your eyes now, i have to put my hair in a bun...bun completed now i am watching "the N" but i am about to change the channel to "HEY ARNOLD" i am gonna stop writting now, because i am boring myself and this less than amusing diary.. and my fans
all three of them
"What you are doing is screwing things up things inside my head you should know better you never listened to a word i said, punching your pillow riving(?) in a naked sweat"
-Marron 5 "Harder to Breathe"
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[16 Nov 2003|10:32pm] |
Really Random Conversations
#1
AintLifeJuicE: JOE!!
Joelle325: whats up my little homie
AintLifeJuicE: snezzing
Joelle325: awww...catching a little cold are we?
AintLifeJuicE: i dunno, i think i stiill have my cold
Joelle325: well get rid of it quick
AintLifeJuicE: *throws her cold out the window*
Joelle325: yes!
Joelle325: now close the window quick so that it doesnt come back in
AintLifeJuicE: ok
AintLifeJuicE: *runs over to window and closes it*
AintLifeJuicE: Aachoo
Joelle325: no!
AintLifeJuicE: i know
AintLifeJuicE: it came bacl
AintLifeJuicE: or maybe it gave me an away kiss
AintLifeJuicE: cause i usally snezze more than once
Joelle325: awww
AintLifeJuicE: someone told me "I am a grown ass man i wash my own drawers"
Joelle325: lmao
Joelle325: thats funny
AintLifeJuicE: a freshman
AintLifeJuicE: cause i told him "Dude shut up!"
Joelle325: im used to hearing "i'm a grown ass man, i've got hair on my balls"
AintLifeJuicE: ok..
Joelle325: did you finish krista's project?
AintLifeJuicE: yes
Joelle325: yay!
Joelle325: what was it about? sped told me but i was drunk
AintLifeJuicE: Ignatius
Joelle325: yeah, no...you lost me
AintLifeJuicE: oh well the catholic reformation
Joelle325: ohhh ho hoo
#2
AintLifeJuicE: Alex say something stupid like u always do'
AintLifeJuicE: i need it for something
randomthought26: something stupid like you always do
AintLifeJuicE: i hate u, its supossed to be funny
AintLifeJuicE: i need a random conversation for my journal
randomthought26: ok
AintLifeJuicE: i got my friend Joey. now i need a pampered jewish dude
randomthought26: ya know, you can go to jail for driving too slow?
randomthought26: theyll put you in there with killers and rapists...
randomthought26: and your in there for driving too slow
AintLifeJuicE: i heard that somewhere before
AintLifeJuicE: thats not funny
AintLifeJuicE: thats cornball
randomthought26: chris rock
AintLifeJuicE: nevermind.. you suck at this
randomthought26: everybodies always like "no gays in the military" im like, if they wanna fight let em fight cuz i aint fighting...
AintLifeJuicE: no
randomthought26: i dont care if i see a russian tank rolling down penn ave, call me a faggot
randomthought26: ill be the faggot with 2 legs
AintLifeJuicE: no
randomthought26: and people get so homophobic that gays cant fight in the military or get married, whos got it better than that? cant get shot at and cant get bitched at by a wife
AintLifeJuicE: u ever wonder why fat white guys always wear beaters and it has crap on it?
AintLifeJuicE: What the fuck was that?
randomthought26: no, im not often around fat white guys wearing only beaters...
AintLifeJuicE: but u see them on tv
AintLifeJuicE: and i was at pinara bread
randomthought26: well everything on tv is true right? look at SNL...
AintLifeJuicE: and this white guy walks in with a beater and brown crap on his shirt
AintLifeJuicE: and he was wipping his hands from his ruben on his shirt
randomthought26: white people are so degraded...
AintLifeJuicE: and he had socks with open-toe slippers on
AintLifeJuicE: you dont count though
AintLifeJuicE: your Jewish
randomthought26: yea
randomthought26: broke ass white people are so degraded
randomthought26: livin in a trailer park
AintLifeJuicE: yes they are
randomthought26: fuckin theyre sisters...
randomthought26: eating mayo sandwiches...
AintLifeJuicE: lol
randomthought26: you know your a redneck if you mow your lawn and find a car...
AintLifeJuicE: that was cornball
randomthought26: my nieghbors are city rednecks...im 5min off riesterstown road and they have a couch on theyre front porch, sit outside with shotguns, drinkin whiskey with about 7 trucks
AintLifeJuicE: lol
AintLifeJuicE: what street
AintLifeJuicE: u might live near me
randomthought26: pegram ave, near where the target and metro is
AintLifeJuicE: your a little further down
randomthought26: where are you?
randomthought26: near the giant porcelain cow?
randomthought26: or the other way?
AintLifeJuicE: umm near the papa johns
randomthought26: ooo
AintLifeJuicE: thats my favorite papa johns but theres a scary white dude in there
randomthought26: is he fat, broke, and wears a dirty wife beater?
AintLifeJuicE: i dont know
AintLifeJuicE: hes like our age
AintLifeJuicE: but he's like scary
AintLifeJuicE: i thik he likes me
AintLifeJuicE: because everytime i go in there he gets all happy and shit
randomthought26: haha
AintLifeJuicE: shut up
AintLifeJuicE: i can only date, black, jewish, or indian guys
AintLifeJuicE: aint that something
randomthought26: haha
AintLifeJuicE: thats not funny
randomthought26: HAHA
randomthought26: HAHA
AintLifeJuicE: ok...
AintLifeJuicE: wanna hear something funny
randomthought26: suure
AintLifeJuicE: i read ur livejournal
AintLifeJuicE: u have no fucking life
AintLifeJuicE: "I hate my cynial teacher lifes a bitch"
AintLifeJuicE: what the hell is thaf
AintLifeJuicE: *that?
randomthought26: haha
randomthought26: at least i dont stage funny convos like u...
AintLifeJuicE: ok are u smoking crack
AintLifeJuicE: have u read my blurty yet
randomthought26: no
AintLifeJuicE: i am about to buy a an LJ
AintLifeJuicE: alright then
AintLifeJuicE: would u want me to come to pikesville?
randomthought26: i dont care
AintLifeJuicE: i am deciding..
randomthought26: plenty of jewish and black guys...
AintLifeJuicE: fuck off
AintLifeJuicE: but then i'd be in your face like all the time
AintLifeJuicE: how come u were gonna go to Woodlawn
AintLifeJuicE: u dont live near the area
randomthought26: pre engineearing
AintLifeJuicE: oh yea the program is really good at woodlawn
AintLifeJuicE: a whole bunch of scary smart white/black/punk kids
randomthought26: yea
AintLifeJuicE: and our classes are Hard
randomthought26: thats why i didnt go
AintLifeJuicE: very hard
randomthought26: the kids
randomthought26: i dont have a problems with classes...its kids
AintLifeJuicE: they take pre-calc this yr
AintLifeJuicE: some of them are cool
AintLifeJuicE: but see i wouldn't want u to hang with me.. i am trying to find "the funk"
AintLifeJuicE: whatever the hell that is
randomthought26: ...
AintLifeJuicE: i dont know either
AintLifeJuicE: the white kids who go to woodlawn
randomthought26: id be like...1 of 4 white kids...
AintLifeJuicE: are either like Pikesville white, Catonsiville white, or like woodlawn white
AintLifeJuicE: no there are A lot of white kids at woodlawn
AintLifeJuicE: but its like a diffrent type of white
randomthought26: yea, but i also thought it would be hard to find a gf, cuz i like white girls
randomthought26: and japs
randomthought26: some japs arent so bad
randomthought26: like jap-lite
AintLifeJuicE: there are japanize, chiniese, pakastainan, iranin
AintLifeJuicE: all types of races
AintLifeJuicE: u dont like black girls
randomthought26: i like asians..but theyre either really hot, or really ugly
AintLifeJuicE: ok...
AintLifeJuicE: but you dont like black girls
randomthought26: not really
AintLifeJuicE: damn Alex my heart is crushed, and i thought i had a chance.. :'(
randomthought26: i mean
randomthought26: as far as girlfriends
AintLifeJuicE: i know
randomthought26: if your that desperate...
randomthought26: haha
AintLifeJuicE: lol
AintLifeJuicE: i was joking..
AintLifeJuicE: did u know someone thought we were going out in 7th grade?
AintLifeJuicE: Takia
AintLifeJuicE: When she told me i was like
randomthought26: psh
AintLifeJuicE: ewwww
AintLifeJuicE: i could do better
AintLifeJuicE: dont you think?
AintLifeJuicE: Who is Inommi4h
AintLifeJuicE: ok... so u tell Daniel to IM me and ask "who is this"
randomthought26: why?
AintLifeJuicE: why what?
randomthought26: nvm
AintLifeJuicE: your confusing me
AintLifeJuicE: :-Pguess what?
AintLifeJuicE: your in my journal now
randomthought26: u like women
randomthought26: o, or that
AintLifeJuicE: why would I like women?
#3 some random person IMed me
insomni4h: whos this?
AintLifeJuicE: i dunno whose this?
insomni4h: this is daniel
insomni4h: do you seriously not know who you are?
AintLifeJuicE: no.. life just flows that way
AintLifeJuicE: what Daniel are you?
insomni4h: lemme think
insomni4h: *censored*
AintLifeJuicE: oh
AintLifeJuicE: hi
insomni4h: you still haven't told me who this is
AintLifeJuicE: a small person inside your head
AintLifeJuicE: *censored*
insomni4h: right
insomni4h: the small person in my head is name james
insomni4h: so that can't be right
AintLifeJuicE: oh
AintLifeJuicE: sorry damn
AintLifeJuicE: ...
insomni4h: oh *censored* from.. sudbrook?
AintLifeJuicE: yea
insomni4h: oh heey
AintLifeJuicE: hi
insomni4h: how have you been doing?
AintLifeJuicE: good you?
insomni4h: can't complain
insomni4h: where do you go to school now?
AintLifeJuicE: Woodlawn You?
insomni4h: catonsville
AintLifeJuicE: cool
insomni4h: is woodlawn that great?
AintLifeJuicE: i might transfer
insomni4h: that bad?
AintLifeJuicE: to PHS Olive told me to transfer to CHS but its not neaer me
AintLifeJuicE: no..
AintLifeJuicE: i mean its really cool
AintLifeJuicE: but i dont like the people
AintLifeJuicE: just 1 ?.. how'd u get my screen name
insomni4h: i've had it lingering in my list for a long time
insomni4h: i think you gave it to me
AintLifeJuicE: oh..
AintLifeJuicE: i prob did
AintLifeJuicE: lol
insomni4h: wait.. if you go to woodlawn
insomni4h: why would pikesville
insomni4h: be closer?
AintLifeJuicE: cause i live in pikesville
insomni4h: wouldn't you be zoned for pikesville high then?
AintLifeJuicE: nope.. they messed it up for where i live
insomni4h: damn
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[16 Nov 2003|09:02am] |
its sunday, its the sabath, well yesterday was really the sabaath i think i am spelling that right, i have to go to chrurch, soon. but i dont want to go to sunday school class because they are all candy assed (ass isn't a bad word, Jesus rode on an ass) and they arent like into the things i am, they arent dark i guess. dark meaning deep.. i guess thats cool though because not everyone is like that.. You ever wonder why the good old cartoons come on in the morning on boomerang, or WB, r something? Papa smurf is Hot.. yes he is, What the hell are Mighty Beanz, i mean they make more crap for kids that they dont need thats gonna wind up on the floor, and i am going to wind up tripping over it.. then cursing at it because i tripped over it, then throwing it, then looking on the floor to find it, then... yelling at the little brat who left it there. namely my little cousins...
"L is for the way you look at me, O is for the only one i see"
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| Damn |
[15 Nov 2003|11:54am] |
lying on the pearly white colored carpet with the clicking of the fireplace in the backround, with rock blazing on my laptop, yea thats what i am doing, nothing, nothing at all, which usually isnt a problem, but when your mum gives u a deadline in which your room is suppossed to be clean, you'd be like damn, But i am just going to sit here till my Dad, comes home and then maybe i'll clean it, or maybe i'll stare it and wiggle my nose and it will magicly clean itself. I was talking to a friend of mine today, and she talked about her relationship with her new boyfriend, and i am up here thinking, damn, but that was about it. just damn, not like damn, i wish i was in a relationship, like damn i feel bad for her, or like damn, i need a car, damn, but i dont know, am i just that weird? i am thinking of entering this contest for writing in New York, but i dont think i am all that good. so i am just debating within my head, either to do the thing, or not.. what do you think?....akward pause... ok but seriously i was going to write a poem like most of my poems they hit the beat of the city, its my inspiration, i live in an area, with a lot of trees, and houses, and not to mention bad ass kids, but thats everywhere, i need to be in a place with diversity, not just some jewish people that way and black people the other.. but any way, i think i want to be able to write in the city all the time, its such a great inspiration to see all walks of life, going about everyday life and its nothing new about it, for all of those who cant see me right now, i am puzzled, i am not sure if i want to do the contest because to put it quite frankly i am not all that talented in the arts of writing, and I dont feel like being rejected 'cause the judges didnt like my writing.. I am about to buy a livejournal soon, because i feel more comfortable with that, but who knows what the future or my wallet holds for me, at this moment it holds 50.00 i am broke, and i need a job anyone wanna hire me?
"Well its easy when you dont know better/You think its sleazy/Then put it in a short letter/We keep warm /But theres just something wrong when you/Just feel like youre the hardest button/To button/I had opinions /That didnt matter/I had a brain /That felt like pancake batter/I got a backyard /With nothing in it/Except a stick /A dog and /A box with something in it"
-White Stripes- Hardest Button to Button
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i made my own icon, above.. nice eh?
" I've been lying to keep you from this pain"
-Fefe dobson
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| I am not going to be you |
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"Save me from the nothing i've become..." "I am dying again.. "
I am stuck in the bed with a cold, and i have a monolouge due tomorrow i hate to use this word but Life at this moment is a bitch.. but on the brighter side of this darkness enthrilled inside my dormant room is that i get to see my best friend who i've havent seen since 4 years ago, which is really cool, I am kind of upset i dont get to go to the syphony with my mom, because i am sick.. sorry BSO i cant go outside and play with you today or tonight rather.. So sitting in bed with a tray that is almost as big as my body, with Linkin Park playing in the backround punching keys into a laptop named Elizabeth, i need a new one shes about 1yr old, watching "A walk to remember" well i am not really watching it the pictures are moving in the backround while my head is pointed straight looking at the box titiled Event: on blurty.com, i've been thinking that i let my father down more and more often, its goten to the point where i stare into the abyss of night, when everyones sleeping and look out thinking "How have i hurt my father today" i know my dad loves me and mom, but i feel as if, if i screw up one more time, he wont talk to me anymore he will alienate me from himself.. I am sick but he doesnt want me to miss school today.. i heard him talking to my mother this morning, as i was half asleep and half awake, he said that i shouldn't miss school because i was sick blassy blah, but the thing is, being a bass players daughter isn't easy, my dad wasnt me to lead the life he did, he wants me to go to college, he doesnt want me to end up flying over the world doing things i love, so he hesititant to teach me how to properly play the bass, he doesnt want me to end up like him.. Dad, i am sorry i hurt you, i am sorry i caused you to yell and scream, i am sorry i caused you to curse, i am sorry..
"Tired of being what you want me to be, feeling so faithless, lost under the surface.....All i want to do is be more like me and be less like you"
-Linkin Park (numb)
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Since both of these awesome chicks have both featured me.. i guess its my turn to say something about them, they are really awesome girls.. enough said.. and my two closet friends in this inferno of woodlawn
on my sick bed head against pillow, typing on this toshiba laptop, and watching hey arnold, arent you happy for me? i honeslty have nothing to say but "I AM PUMPED WITH MEDICINE" yea meaning anything i say here that sounds cynical, today, of course, can be dismissed sept the top paragraph..
Random song on BET
"we gonna rush the back door, and let them, the owner already pissed cause we late but all our clothes gotta coordinate" --Stand up Ludacris
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| Its been a while |
[12 Nov 2003|04:25pm] |
i am ill today, thus i did not attend school *cries in agnoy* no i am find.. i didnt wanna go to school anyway but i feel like shit, so do not bother me please
Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The
Alone.
"When I wake up alone, the shades are still
drawn on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my
face."
The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness,
melancholy, and patience. It is governed by
the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword,
or Unrequited Love.
As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a
hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so
much love to give, but thing just never seem to
work out the way you want them to. In life,
you can be very optomistic, even when things
are gray and nothing works out to your
expectations.
What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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You're Most Like The Season Winter ...
You're often depicted as the cold, distant season.
But you're incredibly intelligent, mature and
Independant. You have an air of power around
you - and that can sometimes scare people off.
You're complex, and get hurt easily - so you
rarely let people in if you can help it. You
can be somewhat of a loner, but just as easily
you could be the leader of many. You Tend to be
negative, and hard to relate to, but you give
off a relaxed image despite being insecure -
and secretly many people long to be like you,
not knowing how deep the Winter season really
is.
Well done... You're the most inspirational of
seasons :)
?? Which Season Are You ??
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You are Jasmine from Aladdin!
What Disney Princess are you?
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you are the "you're so dumb" happy bunny.
you are brutal in your words and enjoy putting
others down.
which happy bunny are you?
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Congratulations!! You're a smart sophisticated and
beautiful martini!!
What Drink Are You?
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You are Daria from Daria. You are full of sadness
and everything bad. You love to read, and you
are very smart. However, you are cool to
others. Even though you are so smart and quiet,
you seem cool to others. You get mad at others
quickly, but you only show it in your face. You
are very anti-social, but you do have a couple
of friends one or two. You are pretty
depressed. You have very little happiness in
you. You are very different from others. You
make the school seem much better because you
are not the exact same as the other girls. You
are not very religious, however. Actually, you
are not religious at all. Most likely, you are
going to die of cancer - sorry for that. Good
luck desperate person!
What Cartoon Are You?
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"Its been a while..since i've gone and fucked things up just like i'd always would"
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[10 Nov 2003|02:41pm] |
Nihilist Bear
Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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For the sake of Joey.. i am updating, and its about 2:41, my mom is not here its monday damnit i cant do anything.. and that is not fucking cool...
Joey: matt sooo can not type!!!
Matt: Its because its Monday, and i am freezing my ass off
yea man...
ok, i should leave because my mommy is prob outside.
Matt
"I've got a lovley bunch of cocconuts...deedly deedly.. there they are a standing in the road.. big ones...small ones..some as big as your head"
-Unknown Genuis
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| Selfishness and Foolish Pride |
[08 Nov 2003|09:30am] |
I didn't feel like writing anything here yesterday.. it was a slow day, so i just went out with my older brother... he loves me :) its a long story because, we never really got along. hes my half brother.. so its like we look alike but we never really talked, if we passed each other on the street we'd be like hi, that would be it, and i used to cry over that crap. but as i grew older it was like, i dont have a brother.. so, enough about that.. i have to leave soon to hook up someones network and all so i might not update, later today.... oh i am most forgot
1st period.. Fuck (slept)
2nd Period.. Fuck (slept)
3rd period.. Fuck (wrote)
4th period..Fuck (1/2 slept)
5th period..Fuck (ms. G, not so fuck)
6th period... fuck (didnt go)
7th period...WHAT THE FUCK!!!! (stupid ass pep ralley)
I found my pillar CD this morning, i was soo happy
Pillar is a christian rock band.. AWESOME CHRISTIAN ROCK BAND
Goodmorning man in the fish tank!
(i havent had starbucks yet.. so i am gonna be like this till 12:00)
-Matt
"I was wasted embraced it but faced it With you inside my heart you replaced it Can't believe you have erased it"
-Pillar (Further from myself)
That song is directed to GOD!
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| I compare you to kiss by a rose on the gray |
[06 Nov 2003|09:24pm] |
I am sitting on my bed.. i don't really feel like doing anything.. my mom is listing to seal's song "kiss from a rose" its a pretty desent song... I honeslty feel as if i am alone, hence the title of my journal, I am alone, in this abyss of nothingness.. surrounded by fake smiles, facades covering ugly faces.. and the only thing that we can turn to is darkness. and hope to not be suucombed by it, to hope that we will not yeild into being cold and distant.. Speaking of cold and distant i need a boyfriend.. yea.. i do, but mind you, i'll only feel this way till saterday.. i am like that, i dont stay longing for something very long.. although there is this one guy.. but we will nevermind him.. he's prob got about 2 girlfriends by now, so i am just going to be hidden behind a large tree in his mind, i doubt he thinks about me, as i do him.. so i see no reason to think about someone, when i can be thinking about something else right? I am a milk junkie, seriously, i have fallen into a trap by the milk in my fridge, it looks so good i must have it... eww i am lusting over milk what the hell is wrong with me? Everyone is saying that i am growing up.. but i dont see it, i still do the stupid crap i did when i was 10.. maybe because i am 10, but not mentaly and physically, just like sillyish... sillyish is not a word. I am starting to make up crap now.. i should leave
Matt
"But did you know, That when it snows, My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen."
-Seal "Kiss from a Rose"
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| Another Day, another problem |
[06 Nov 2003|05:35pm] |
Life what can i say, something i really cant shy away from.. i was so close to falling asleep in international bussiness this morning.. i dont even wanna talk about the rest of the day at the moment i am watching finding nemo in the basement.. with my little cousin.. i am sitting on a half way comfortable couch half way meaning u can easily fall asleep on it, but so uncomfortable that it takes you 2 mins to relax, i am now like deciding between this internship from Johns Hopkins University, for engineering.. i dont want to take it honeslty, but like everyone wants me to do it, they never allow me to do what i want.. i dont understand do you? i am just gonna surf around the net today, because i am all but unhappy..
"D-D-Die another day...Die another Day"
-Madonna "Die another day soundtrack"
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| Mysterious Woman |
[05 Nov 2003|08:05pm] |
Took, a few quizzes something ironic came up.... i am Mysterious!!!! yay! i think.. any way here they are
What kind of kiss
You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.
What kind of kiss are you?
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What kind of beautiful Woman
You are the mystery woman
Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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Yea i am mysterious.. but what about the kiss thing.. i've never been kissed so what does that mean?
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| My spirt is sleeping somewhere cold, until you find it there and me |
[05 Nov 2003|04:29pm] |
I went to sleep 1st period, 2nd period i wasnt mentally there... honeslty i wasnt... 3rd period, ah french grammer the epitamey of my dispair. 4th period.. as of now i deem myself as the laziess person in the world, because I dont feel like doing anything 5th period.. what did i do 5th period? basicly today was one of those days, where your like "When is it going to be 2:15?!" I missed my Joe today she wasnt here, so i was sad :( that sad face was for you.... I was reading her diary during lunch... Joe you are an awesome person, i wish you could realize how much personality you own, not to mention your beauty, your intelligence, you are inspiring.. and i dont usually say this to people but i think you are AWESOME and if you were stranded (which i doubt you will be) i would make u come live with me, and i would help you get back on your feet.. why? cause damnit we are twins...
Its raining
I love rain, rain is so much of a clensing for me.. and it also alows me to sleep (does hethcliff laugh) I am currently listing to Evancance "Going under" i think sometimes we all feel that we are falling forever in like a bottomless, void, four walled room.. that four walled room would be my bedroom consisting of over 10,000 books a television 2 computers a laptop, DSL wireless unit, a desk, a bed, a chair, another chair, a heater, a mirror/closet, and a dresser... i think thats all the stuff in my room.. its painted baby blue its too damn cheery, thats why i am not in here a lot, as you can read from previous issues that i am never really in my room unless i am sick or dont wanna do chores.. lol... only you can understand.. i like saying random things like that.. i am so random.. i think... i am going to go to Hottopic and buy some pants soon.. Save me from the nothing i've become.. save me... please..
as i look around my room, looking for some thought to magicaly pop inside of my head to right it here, i have none thus i leave you with this note... peace
lol
Matt
p.S. Joey you are Awesome
"Maybe i'll wake up for once, not tormented daily, defeated by you.. just one night i'd think i'd reach the bottom"
-Evanasance "Going under"
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| Why are we retarded? is it because of our lust for non-intelligence.. Heaven only knows |
[05 Nov 2003|11:45am] |
Monkey and I are in school right now, and we are completly bored out of our minds, besides the fact that our dear friend Joey is not here, we have completly lost our minds and sanity, she is the only one who can regain that said sanity which i highly doubt we have ever had.. So high school is supposssed to be the best times of our lifes?! Dude! that is soooo wrong, high school doesnt start until your car, then you are offically a high school student. But for those of us *cough* monkey *cough* who dont get cars, and like to pick monky noses we have to deal with what we got and mouch off all of our friends.. People that is not me saying that.. Monkey and her retarded butt said that.. tra la la la la
Joey? where the hell are you <--monkey added the hell, shes been coropted by the system of woodlawn, she said shit the other day... its to late for her to be saved.. but theres something we can do....*pause*......damn we cant save her.. shes lost in the infreno of Woodlawns hallways and byways
Damn the bell just rang.. I dont wanna go to Chemistry... Life smells like monkey ass(note) i have never smelled that before.. and its prob Jordan
"If you free them, they will start revoultion and babylon cannot defeat them"
K-OS "Heaven only knows"
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| "I am leaving today..leaving it...to change" |
[04 Nov 2003|04:43pm] |
tommrow Joey and I are skipping Geometry to spend the day in Krista classroom, no-one likes M.Reaves class its annoying as hell, and he cannot control his class he better give me a damn "B." ok I am done talking about school, at this moment i am on the carpet downstaires in the sitting room which has a lack of furniture because we're buying some new.. white carpet listening to Christina Aguliera, wearing xoxo low cut jeans and a tank top from wet seal (why that information was disclosed i dont know) I dont think i could ever fall in love... i dont know, cause i'd look at other guys and go damn he's hott, whats my problem Joey?! is it because i am incapable of loving someone? i know commitment problems. thats exactly why i enjoy being single, besides the fact that no-one wants to go out with me anyway, because they no i dont play, and i am not very good looking.. but i mean i go to the mall and i see a hot guy then i would feel bad because i wouldnt't be thinking about that signifcant other... is that wrong? I get my car soon, and I go to driving school also.. i really cant wait, because I myself enjoy freedom.. freedom is like a ticket (billet for all my french scholars) that your parents wave in your face and its your choice if you want to accept that offer. I feel as if i have been lost inside a house of mirrors and the only way to get out, is through the door in which i dont have a key.. but wait just one second, i will have that key soon enough.. that key is called mental and physical independance, mentally in terms of not having to rely on your mother for advice.. you know what i mean? how i went from skipping math to clothes to
commitment to independance is beyond me... well all out there in virtual land.... love and peace
Matt
"Put your hands on my waist line put your skin up against mine, ....hang a please dont disturb sign"
-Christina Aguliera "Get mine Get yours"
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[03 Nov 2003|07:05pm] |
i took some more quizzes because i am bored
Take the What Fruit Are You? test by Ellen!
being the dork that i am you know the salior moon television shows? I used to be a HUGE fan of salior moon.. HuGE HUGE fan... i was 12 leave me alone
 See what Care Bear you are.
ok, i am listing to "Im lovin it" *note* i dont usually listen to Justin Timberlake *end of note* and so the dude says dime, i've heard that coment used towards me, what does that mean? is it something bad? if you know please leave a comment, 'cause i am special ( i am suppossed to know these words, i am black)
continuation of quizzes
"i dont wear jerry curls cause i am not from the west no disrespect to the west tru indeed i am rockin to the east the east is the sea" -The Fugees "Nappy Heads remix"
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| I'll just move the crowd for now |
[03 Nov 2003|05:35pm] |
Today i mostly like skipped every period, i went to my cousins room and just stayed their for first second, period we had a fire drill, third my teacher wasnt there so we didnt do anything, forth, we had to take pictures so basicly it was a free period, Lunch went to the LIB, and talked to Monkey, then sixth period, its a magnet class (smart kids) and they all went on a feild trip so the three of us not in the magnet class got to go somewere else, because the teacher was sick so i went back to my cousins class, and stayed there till 7th period.. which is when i actually have her class... So now i am home, i dont like fried Chicken so i didn't eat, i had some french fries.. cleant the kitchen up, and now i am upstaires on the office floor on my laptop, back against an office chair listing to K-OS and being mesermized by his words, and his meanings. If you ever listen to some hip-hop it some sort of meaning that, has made an impact, and has made a diffrence in someones life.. I usually dont write in a journal that much.. but, for those who are just starting reading my rantings, i am very very poetic and radical.. sometimes miltant, so i start controversy.. i try not to but it just happens :( i am sorry lol. Well today has been pretty good.. and i dont have anything bad to say about the world... "You can change the world your a superstar" K-OS 1990? (superstar part zero)
"Heaven only knows, 'cause i dont understand, wont you tell me please what's the master plan, been so many days sitting on a cloud, heaven only knows (only God knows) so i'll just move the crowd for now "
-K-OS "Heaven only knows"
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