Sinthetic Tears

5:10pm: first day of skool
my day was actually prety good.. suprisingly.. the only class about today i am questioning is my fuckin algebra 2/ trig class.. My teacher is cool and all but she seems like a goddamned bitch.... but its all good.. Patrick might go to TrapT with me amy shannon and mabe Aaron, missing childrens webguy.. so yeah.. Annie is very sleepppy.. and I wanna talk to patrick.. I havent talked to him since last night, and we really didnt talk much.. :-/ i didnt get to go to Jno so i didnt get to see patrick.. hmm.. I'll survive.. Shannon is making me a CD its gunna kick ass ;-) hehe. I love my gizmo to death.. hehe.. yeah. well i'm talkin to jamie now.. hes pretty cool.. lol imma go now. laterZ

6:40pm: i juss woke up.. and i'm talkin to my boy... its the first time i talked to him all day.. i missed him.. tomorrowi get to see him.. i dontknow if my mom is going to let me go to Jno.. i hope so.. i want to be able to chill with patrick... and plus shannon will be goin to jno with me.... i really dont know what to say.. i went shopping today.. i got like a fishnetshirt, 2 tanktops.. a longsleve black and wite shirt.. and 4 pairs of jeans.. so i dunno.. lol.. i'mma go now. i love patrick a lot.. i dunno what i would do with out him!

10:44pm: I love patrick..
today my mom called and woke me up from being at shannons.. then me and shannon got ready.. then we went back to her oral surgen.. then her mommie dropped both of us off at my house.. we chilled around watched Lilo and stitch.. went on line to see if my Patrick was on.. he wasnt.. so we called Jason and he brought me the Endo cd... and he brought over the new lilo and stitch movie so we watched that.. it was grreat! then tony and his lil bitch ivee stoped by to pick up his damn movies.. god.. lol i'm glad i dont have to have anything to do with that bastard anymore.. then Philip mike and ant stopped by.. how fun.. hehe... Well now i'm talkin to my patrick and my shannon bear is away.. :'( i love patrick soo much i dont want people breaking us apart.. i guess thats my biggest fear now.. i dont know how much time i'mma get to spend with him on sunday.. hopefully we get to chill before jno... so theres not a lot of people around.. but im not sure... hmm.. i'mma get off line soon so i can go to bed and try to escape my headache and my parennts... i'm sick of them.. Hehe.. Well I love p atrick like all you guys know.. and i'm not obsessed with him.. i'm juss kind of getting attached to him.. even tho thats one thing i am majorly scared of right now.. but its happened.. but i dont think he'd break my heart.. at least i hope not.. i'd be crushed.. okay LaterZ <3 I LOVE PATRICK!!

10:30pm: :'(
lade da de da.. i'm sitting over at shannons house.. i just got off the phone with patrick.. i love him so much.. i dunno i havent felt this way about a person in a while.. it feels weird.. but good.... yeah.. i know its weird but deal with me.. Yeah.. I miss him soo much right now.. :'( :'( yeah.. but me and shannon have had a good night so far even tho i have a hXc head ache.. hmm.. hmm.. hmm... yeah.. hmm.. lol.. Grimlin fell asleep on my shoulder.. she is soo cute.. *yes you guys it is a lizard.. well actually a bearded dragon named after me** yeah.. people will probably start shit between me and patrick.. but i really dont care.. i mean.. if shannon and david have made it 6 weeks in to boot camp.. then me and patrick can make this work.. and i'm willing.. and hes willing cuz he loves me.. Its weird for someone to say that they love me.. it seems almost unreal.. .. hmm.. Well i'mma get off of shannons computer.. soon.. hmm.. alls i gotta say that the song "perfect" by simple plan is so awesome.. patrick told me to d/l it earlier.. and i did... hmm... :'( well.. yeah. i'mma go before i start crying.. :'( :'( :'( oh yeah.. I LOVE PATRICK!

4:15pm: HmmmMmmmMmMM i cannot wait for Jno to come.. i get to see Patrick again.. :) hehe.. thats all i am really looking forward to because school starts in like 6 days.. then its back to that and probably no time for anyone :'( I talked to my good ol buddy chaos last night.. and i dunno.. he had me doing an algebra equation... and i cannot remember how do to algebra.. which is kind of bad because i am going in to algebra 2.. :-/ hmm... well the one thing i amscared of is happening.. but he says he wont hurt me.. so i am going to trust him this time... and hopefully i dont get hurt! cuz i love patrick......

8:46pm: dude.. well today has been some bullshit.. yesterday my lil puffer fish got eaten by a seagull.. those damn bastards.. me and jenny went to the beach and got fried.. always fun.. but like 15 minutes ago i got off the phone with patrick.. dude.. i'm falling in love with him.. i'm not trying to :-/ i dont want to get hurt again.. even tho i think he is the last person who would try to hurt me... :-/ i dunno.. he does livekind of far tho... hmm... this sucks.. well i'm all lobsterfied.. so i'mma go back to talkin to patrick........ help!

2:48pm: *yawn* yesterday was Lunatic Luau.. I had fun.. 'visible didnt show up, but thats okay.. tony came.. eventho i wasnt suppose to see him yesterday, i still chilled with him... some guy called my house i dont know who he is.. i feel liek shit.. i'm bruised and sunburned.. I went and sat in OLHS for almost 3 goddamned hours yesterday to get my schedule changed... but they were being slow so i was like fuckit and i left.. when i got to lunatic luau yesterday i met up with lil randy.. and then i found jason.. so i chilled with himm... Construkt, Endo, RA, Motograter, Sevendust, and KoRn were all awesome.. all the other ones kind of sucked... BADLY! yes,and that does include chevelle.. I'm hella tired andsore but i've been sick all morning so i'm not motavated to do anything today... mabe i should really go take a shower saying that it is almost 3:00 and I told my Mohawk guy to come over after work, and fuck if i know what time he gets off... :-P lol.. So mabe i should go.. but i dunno.... Tiredness........ Tiredness............ Tiredness........... Tiredness............ Tiredness.............

9:42pm: oomblah
well,,, nuffin has really went on today..b esides i fell and hurt myhead..Steel doors arent good for the dome people! hehe. Well.. I am goin over to INF cuz they juss love me like that.. hehe.. well.. Thursday is Lunatic Luau.. I cant wait.
my feelings suck.. Some days i'm juss the happiest person alive.. but other times i just want to die.. I guess thats why i'm considered bipolar.. I really do hate myself.. ALOT and i mean i guess it helps when people tell me i'm pretty and shit.. but i juss wonder if they're lying.. or i'f they're just laughing inside.. beause thats what it seems like.. but i dont know.. people juss i guess need to tell me the truth and end all of thefucking drama around me.. I cant handle this shit no more.. i'm bout to die cuz of all of it..

2:17pm: blah..
Last night was 311.. and the night before that was twiztid... twiztid kicked fuckin ass even tho i cannot remember half of their set.. alls i remember is during 2nd hand smoke the crowd fell and i was on the bottom.. and i was with invisible and pinky in the crowd.. damn.. invisible acted like super man. i was like damn :0) so needless to say i ended up goin crowd surfin to get outta the crowd even tho i dont remember it.. and then me and invisible went out side.. hehe.. but R.o.c.... i wasnt feelin his set. i ended up falling damn near asleep.. but wolfpac and society one were awesome.... I havent got a lot of sleep lately.. i'm sore.. im tired.. and I dunno how i actually feel... I know thats juss wat invisible wants to hear.. but i'm sorry :0(.. But Nick came over yesterday and he was like "hey we got 5 xtra tickets to 311.. yall should come.." so we all loaded up in to Giraffes car and headed up to 311.. needless to say they sucked.. and the juggalos there had fun throwing me on the ground.. .. but i'm not complaining.. i got to chill with invisible.. got to meet Bret and C4.. i was like damn straight.. lol.. Well, i'm out.

12:20pm: RoaR
Haha, tomorrow is twiztid. I finally get to meet X and Bret.... Its goign to be the shit.. I cannot wait. :-D Plus if tony is right.. I get to meet Twiztid.. even tho i juss really want to chill with my true killaz.. yesterday me and chaos got in a huge fight :-X it was horrible :'( hehe.. But now its all gravey.. heeh.... Today i am putting matt and philips hair up.. it should be great.. and i hope i get to see chaos again.. cuz i miss him like crazy.. But he just signed on line. so i guess that makes up for it.. hehe... Well.. yah i'm out MMFWJNCL