Sunday, July 25th, 2004
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5:32 am
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im back miss me? i still love you all
current mood:  crushed
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Wednesday, July 7th, 2004
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5:19 am
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i have another journal so yeah ttyl bye im me at drkmeth on aim if u wanna know what it is
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Saturday, June 19th, 2004
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3:26 pm - why?
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why do you people care about?? i'll just die and you all will for get i know u will nothing is good so im leaveing *sigh* life sucks here the only good thing is that im talkin to dan again god i miss him
current mood: crushed
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Saturday, June 5th, 2004
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10:31 pm
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just something about cutting my skin makes me so happy and stress free
current mood:  predatory
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8:24 pm
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well the only person i wanna talk to is at a car show and is stayin at travis so guess what i won't be able to talk to him gagfkdng i hate this im going to bed again cause u all suck ass
current mood: depressed
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Thursday, June 3rd, 2004
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9:33 pm
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i can say one one word damien *drools*
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Tuesday, June 1st, 2004
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9:21 am - I miss you
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I miss you, after today 1 and a half days of school left and im sad just depressed ugh JUST LEAVE ME ALONE
current mood:  angry
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Thursday, May 27th, 2004
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10:30 am - never been kissed
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ok im back and well i had to take an excel test can u say EASY lol well back to me math was ok mr p was getting me angery so was miss winke and now im in computer and austin isn't here hmm probably in ISS well i miss talkin to him and lets see i wish charlie would ask me out i really like him and he makes me happy ugh im such a slut but yeah actually im not so HA i miss thomas too ugh i see him next block tho which is good i have to tell him my dream. i wish someone will text me but as u might not know i got my phone taken away and next time mrs hodge sees it out im gonna get suspended well i don't care i hate her anyway
current mood:  disappointed
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9:21 am - If tomorrow comes and im not ready i won't do anything
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Well yesterday i was in a good mood i was bounceing off the walls but today im kinda down. i went to the art show last night and saw my pineapple it was umm interesting.i also saw gabby there and cassie YAY and then i left and just drove around and then when i got home and it was interesting. i got home and played a lil dead red revolver and went upstairs online to talk to charlie. god i love him and well i wanted to cheer him up then i was talkin to my other friend aaron and yeah i was talkin to natalie and aimee but mostly aaron and charlie. then i went to sleep and guess what time i woke up 7:30 HAHA school starts in 5 minutes which sucks so i ended up asking my brother for a ride and thank god he gave me one he is great i love him too well he is my brother i got to school at 8 g2g bye
current mood:  artistic
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Tuesday, May 25th, 2004
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9:21 am - i wish
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i wish i could tell you how i feel but i can't its hard to go through every day looking at ur face know u like someone else it hurts me to much all i want to do is cry i can't even sit by u anymore cause of what happened im not mad at u just pissed at my self that i cry myself to sleep every night
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Wednesday, May 19th, 2004
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9:34 am
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in the land of dirt and plaster
lies an army of a thousand nowhere kids
losing ground and falling faster
into a life that no one should have to live
we are the people that you hate
we are the bastards that you created (the fucking bastards that you created)
a generation with no place
a generation of all your sons and daughters
behind the fake family image
behind the smile of a thousand moms and dads
inside the cage that we've been given
i see an image of the future that we don't have
[chorus]
and what did you expect ... a perfect child
raised by tv sets ... abandoned every mile
we never get respect ... never a fair trial
no one gives a shit ... as long as we smile
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Monday, May 17th, 2004
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10:15 am - Today
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Today is MOnday and im in computer and austin thinks hes a walrus LOL it sucks soo im bored and i don't feel good and yeah i love you all
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Thursday, May 13th, 2004
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10:03 am - School work
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lol austin just saved my ass WHOA scary i love austin *hugs him* ok yeah so i spent a long time at dinner cause of Rantis was over *drools* he is soo fine WHOGA college guys rock lol anywho i wanted hiks shirt but nooo he wanted it but hey hes hott anyway and well yes im bored and i have my band -d12 in my head damn the government DAMN THEM ALL
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9:43 am - A truely death
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Hey tim likes me... but he won't go out with me *tear* oh well whenever hes ready im here lol
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Tuesday, May 11th, 2004
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10:26 am
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10:20 am - Tears won't seal the pain....
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I was sick this weekend and i just don't know why everyone thinks im ignoreing them awe austins so cute omg JOSH IS COMING BACK YAY me soo fucking happy well peace out a town yeah yeah shorty got down low and said come and get me
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Friday, May 7th, 2004
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8:01 pm - Smile empty soul - sillhouettes
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silhouettes above the cradle hold me down
they won't let me go the wrong way
my mother taught me all the fables, told me how
in the end all the sinners have to pay
but...
i don't wanna live like my mother
i don't wanna let fear rule my life
and i don't wanna live like my father
i don't wanna give up before i die
he worked so hard his bones are breaking
he wore them down but long ago he lost the feeling
his good intentions leave me shaking, show me how
i don't ever want to end up like he did
and...
[chorus]
when i have kids
i won't put any chains on their wrists, i won't
i'll tell them this
there's nothing in this world that you can't be
if you want it enough
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Monday, May 3rd, 2004
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10:59 pm - flesh into gear - CKY
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I can't expect you to see
me when i'm not around
and my voice is destroyed
by confinement of sound
i'm a human machine
laced with hidden disease
if the future looks bleak
then you're connected to me
flesh into gear
myself appears dissected and pretentious
a simple sound a heavy sigh
you'll win the whole world over
you'll live in fear of being someone that you didn't want to
i realize your insecurities will get the best of you
a traitor's embrace
how foolish how wrong
contained in one place
anxiety spawns
unopened reowned
what's needed upscaled
digested inhaled
unwilling unwound
flesh into gear
myself appears dissected and pretentious
a simple sound a heavy sigh
you'll win the whole world over
you'll live in fear of being someone that you didn't want to
i realize your insecurities will get the best of you
[repeat]
current mood:  crazy
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10:13 am - bottom of a bottle - Smile Empty Soul
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Been scared and lonely
I've asked myself
Is something wrong with you
My girlfriend told me
I need some time alone to deal with issues
Something makes me carry on
It's difficult to understand
What I always wanna find
I do it for the drunk
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle
You always call me
And ask me how I make it throught the day
I'm always fallin
I guess it's just god's way of
Making me big
Something makes me carry on
It's difficult to understand
What I always wanna find
I do it for the drunk
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle
I do it for the drunk
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle
And I,
I wonder why I try
And I,
Wonder why I bother
And I,
I wonder why I cry
Why I,
I go through all this trouble
I do it for the drunk
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle
I do it for the drunk
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle
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9:24 am - Fuck life
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well just to let you all know my consuler wants me to go to mooseheart and thats gay so im pissed so KISS MY ASS
current mood: angry
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