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    Monday, October 27th, 2003
    5:26 pm
    Yeah..I probably won't be writing in this one as much as I used to

    I will write most of my fucking shit in my other journal..

    Theres a link at the bottom of this page..if you really care

    Yeah..Fuck off..I'm pissed off..

    Current Mood: angry
    Sunday, October 26th, 2003
    6:17 pm
    Stole from Sarah's GJ..
    1. Name:Krystal
    2. Nicknames:Wicked K and the rest I shall not answer
    3. Nationality: German and probable some others..
    4. Feet size: 8 1/2 to 9
    5. Do you have a crush: my girlfriend, SHannon
    6. Age you act: 3241982348
    7. Where Do You Live: shitty town in Connecticut
    8. Where you want to live: anywhere but here
    9. Birthplace: somewhere in Connecticut
    10. Favorite Salad Dressing: Ranch and French
    11. Ever gone skinny dipping: nope
    12. What are you watching?: cheese
    13. Last person you talked to: Hannah
    14. Favorite movie:I dont know..havent seen too many cause I'm deprived
    15. Favorite Book: dont know.
    16. Favorite Type of music: punk..techno..other stuff
    17. Favorite types of cars: I DONT FUCKING KNOW
    18. Favorite Actor/Actress: Johnny Depp and Angelina Jolie..both so Sexy
    19. Favorite Saying: Fuck You?
    20. Favorite Fast Food: stuff
    21. Favorite Ice Cream: Chocolate and Cookie Dough
    22. Favorite Alcoholic Drink: Sloe Gin and Vodka
    23. When Do You Go To Sleep: when I want
    24. Most Embarrassing Moment: stuff
    25. Stupidest Person you know: me
    26. Craziest Person you know: me..Hannah
    27. Favorite holiday: Halloween
    28. Favorite Food: stuff
    29. Favorite Song: "gypsy rose lee" -Distillers
    30. Favorite Television Show(s): simpsons, that 70s show, will and grace
    31. Favorite Radio Station: the radio should DIE!!
    32. Favorite junk food: your mom
    33. Favorite color hair: black with red highlights..thats how i want mine..
    34. Favorite color(s): black..red..purple
    35. Favorite shoes: those ones
    36. Favorite video game: bubble bobble!
    37. Favorite animal: canada geese..and moose

    Section 2: THE FUTURE:

    1. School: can die
    2. Where You Want To Live: with my friends somewhere
    3. How Many Kids You Want: i want to adopt like 2 or 3
    4. What Kind Of Job You Want: probably be a bum on the streets..
    6. Dress color for your wedding: black and hot pink
    7. Bridesmaids dresses: black and red silk stuff
    8. Song in your head: this ishalloween from nightmare before christmas!! haha

    Section 3: HAVE YOU EVER:

    1. Been In Jail: no
    2. Done Drugs: yes and I regret it
    3. Run Away From Home: almost
    4. Hit A Girl: yep
    5. Lied: yep
    6. Stolen Anything: yep
    7. Broken Anything: Yep
    8. Cheated On A Test: Yep
    9. Cheated On A Boy/Girlfriend: hell no
    10. Gotten Drunk: yep
    11. Been With Two Boys At Once: two of my friends?..andy and mike..scott??
    12. Been In The Hospital: only to see relatives
    13. Let a friend cry on your shoulder: yep
    14. Fell asleep in the shower/bath: in the bath
    15. Gone to Church: only a few times
    16. Never slept during a night: yep
    17. Been on a hike: yep i love hiking
    18. Been to a camp: no
    19. Sat in a restaurant w/o ordering: I don't think so
    20. Seen someone die: No
    21. Try to lick your elbow?: yep, but it didnt work
    22. Didn't wash your hair for a week: probably
    23. Broken something valuable: i dont thnk so
    24. Knew you were in love: Yep.. <3 Shannon <3
    25. Streaked the streets: no..but maybe some day
    26. Screamed at someone for no reason: ::sighs:: yes
    27. Said I love you and meant it: of course..all the time to Shannon
    28. Been hurt by a boy you loved: Yep
    29. Stayed up till 4 am on the phone: almost

    Section 4: WHICH IS BETTER:

    1. Coke Or Pepsi: pepsi
    2. Cats Or Dogs: cats
    3. Dvd's or VHS: Dvd
    4. Deaf Or Blind: Deaf
    5. Pools Or Hot Tubs: Pools
    6. Television Or Radio: TV
    7. Cds Or mp3's: CD's
    8. Apples or oranges: Apples
    9. Gap or Old Navy: They both should DIE!
    10. Tortoises or Turtles: Turtles


    1. Took A Shower: yesterday
    2. Cried: couple hours ago
    3. Watched a Disney movie: couple weeks ago..LION KING!!
    4. Given/gotten a hug: eh probably couple days ago
    5. Been to the movies: couple weeks ago
    6. Had a disease: me

    Section 6: WHAT IS:

    1. Your Fondest memory Of This year: making Hannah call Shannon to ask her out for me
    2. Your Most Prized Possession: My stuffed animal kittie shannon got me
    3. The Thing That Makes You The Happiest: Shannon
    4. Your Favorite Food For Breakfast: french toast
    5. Your Favorite Food For Dinner: chicken
    6. Your Favorite Slow Song: i don't know..
    7. Ideal Boyfriend: boys are icky


    1. Bill Clinton: should explode
    2. Love at First sight: it can happen
    4. Teenage smoking: its stupid
    5. Pot: stupid too..yes I know I've done it..but I regret it
    6. Eating disorders: thought I had one before
    7. Rap: eew
    8. Marilyn Manson: AAWWW!
    9. Premarital sex: eh
    10. Suicide: think about it a lot..but I'm slowly getting better
    11. Drinking: only done it a few times
    12. Life: sucks
    13. Death: ...no comment
    14. God: no comment again


    1. What are your favorite forms of jewelry/accessories: Bracelets!!
    2. Have you ever liked someone too young for you?: no..
    3. Do you think you have multiple personalities?: yep
    4. Ever walked in on someone changing or showering: probably
    5. What is the first thing you say on the phone?: Hello
    6. What are you wearing?: why do you care, you fucking pervert!?!?!
    7. What did you do yesterday?: talked to Shannon online
    8. Who was your last crush?: Before I started going out with Shannon it was Andy I guess

    Current Mood: okay
    Current Music: me?
    9:08 am
    I got ANOTHER new journal last nite!


    Its a GJ and the URL for it is http://greatestjournal.com/users/wicked_k


    I'll probably just write the same shit I write in here in there..I don't know

    I can't figure out how to do anything on here cause I'm dumb

    But its easier on there..

    yeah and I made my own BRODY icon on there..but I'll just keep this icon for this journal..

    Current Mood: awake
    Current Music: me talking to my cat
    Saturday, October 25th, 2003
    7:02 pm
    I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away
    I'm so bored..

    I've watch 3 hours of The Addam's Family..so far..I'm still watching it!!!

    And and tomorrow The Nightmare Before Christmas is gonna be on!! :-D


    I better not be doing community service crap when it comes on..or somethings going down..

    Ehh..I'll just record it on tape so I can watch it again and again and again!

    That works..

    Ugh..I really miss Shannon....a lot..

    OOO..I get an extra hour of sleep tonight for this daylight savings shit..



    Current Mood: lonely
    Current Music: THE ADDAMS FAMILY.
    10:29 am
    Your Inner Lesbian is Virginia Woolf
    Moody, depressed, tempermental, brilliant.
    Virginia Woolf is a lesbian to be reckoned
    with. Most likely you have a love for
    literature. Writing is your passion, well,
    that and women. Never let anything keep you
    from your deepest desires. You can make many
    people happy, just don't forget about your own
    happiness along the way.

    Who Is your Inner lesbo?
    brought to you by Quizilla
    10:04 am

    I don't know..

    I've been think about suicide the last couple of days..

    I really don't know what to do..

    I can't handle this stress and all this shit that I go through everyday..

    It's too much for me..

    Where would I go if I left this fucking place??

    What would happen?

    Would anyone even care?

    I don't know..

    Current Mood: depressed
    Current Music: "Doll Parts" --Hole
    9:58 am
    More Fucking Hole Lyrics Bitch...
    Violet Lyrics

    (Print the Lyrics)

    And the sky was made of amethyst
    and all the stars are just like little fish
    you should learn when to go
    you should learn how to say no

    might last a day yeah
    mine is forever
    might last a day, yeah
    well mine is forever

    when they get what they want they never want it again
    when they get what they want they never want it again

    go on, take everything, take everything i want you to
    go on, take everything take everything take everything i want you to

    And the sky was all violet I want it again, but more violent, more violent
    and i'm the one with no soul
    one above and one below

    go on, take everything take everything i want you to
    go on, take everything take everything i want you to

    i told you from the start just how this would end
    when i get what i want i never want it again

    go on, take everything take everyting i want you to
    go on, take everything, take everything i want you to
    go on, take everything, take everything i want you to
    go on, take everything, take everything i want you to
    go on take everything take everything take everything take everything

    Current Mood: sad
    Current Music: "Violet" --Hole
    9:52 am

    Doll Parts Lyrics

    (Print the Lyrics)

    I am doll eyes
    Doll mouth, doll legs
    I am doll arms, big veins, dog bait
    Yeah, they really want you, they really want you, they really do
    Yeah, they really want you, they really want you, but I do too
    I want to be the girl with the most cake
    I love him so much it just turns to hate
    I fake it so real, I am beyond fake
    And someday, you will ache like I ache
    Someday, you will ache like I ache

    I am doll parts
    Bad skin, doll heart
    It stands for knife
    For the rest of my life
    Yeah, they really want you, they really want you, they really do
    Yeah, they really want you, they really want you, but I do, too
    I want to be the girl with the most cake
    He only loves those things because he loves to see them break
    I fake it so real, I am beyond fake
    And someday, you will ache like I ache
    Someday you will ache like I ache

    Current Mood: sad
    Current Music: "Doll Parts" --Hole
    Friday, October 24th, 2003
    9:12 pm
    Hannahs mom has small lips?

    I just got back from eating at an Indian restaurant..

    It was ok..

    I prefer Japanese..

    I got tickets for Dropkick Murphys and Casualties..?


    I cried lots today..


    Who cares??

    Not me..

    Everyday at lunch..I start to feel physically sick..I think of stuff...and for the last couple of days, I've been crying at lunch..


    So fuck off..

    Current Mood: gloomy
    Current Music: I said fuck off..
    Thursday, October 23rd, 2003
    8:01 pm

    I don't know..

    Why do I write in this piece of shit so much?!?!?

    Current Mood: cold
    Current Music: I love the 80s MOFO!!
    2:42 pm
    Theres a dog running around my house..
    Today sucked..it really sucked ass..
    I cried two times today in school: in lunch and in english class..
    I hate crying in school, but I really couldn't help it..
    I'm worthless..
    There is no point of me being here..
    All I do is piss people off..
    Scott told me to stop feeling guilty about all this, but why should I??
    I do cause all this shit..and I do make everyone upset or angry..
    I told Shannon that I ruin everything..and she said not really..which means I do..or else she would have said no you dont
    meh at least someone admitted it..

    Oh man..the fucking snow..I hate it...its just evkajfdjal at ME!
    I was so bitchy this morning..
    Not just cause of the fucking snow, but because Steve is such a fucking dick..
    He told Carissa that Ashlee said some shit but hes the one who said it..
    And ahh I can't stand him..
    I mean sometimes he can be a really cool kid and shit..
    But hes such a DICK..
    He calls me a bitch all the time..he gives me the middle finger all the time..he fucking interrupts everyone in English class..and hes always talking to shannon during class and I can hear him and I cant concentrate and it pisses me off..
    Go to fucking hell you sun of a bitch...I HATE YOU!

    I'm thinking about going to the dance tomorrow..
    A lot of people I know are going..Jen, Ashlee, Trish, Katie, Heather, Annie, and I think Angela..so I might as well go..maybe I'll have fun..no..probably just ruin something again..


    Shannon didnt come over again..
    I don't really care anymore..
    I'm just giving up..
    I can tell shes losing interest and pretty soon shes gonna dump me..
    Things have changed between us..and I hate it..
    I cry like every night cause of this shit..
    It really upsets me..
    I need Mike...
    He always helped me..
    Hannah does too..
    And I told her all this stuff but she says Shannon still loves me and stuff, but I don't think she does..


    This is just some shit that I cry about every night..

    I would write more but I'm afraid some of my "friends" will get upset or angry at me

    So bye and fuck off..

    Current Mood: depressed
    Current Music: My mom yelling at Toby..
    Wednesday, October 22nd, 2003
    6:22 pm
    The Temple of Doooooooom!

    Today was alright..

    A lot of teachers were absent for most of the day to go to Mr. Kelly's funeral..

    We didn't really do anything cause subs are stupid and dont care that you're not doing anything..


    I hung out with Shannon, Hannah, Laura, Dan, Sam, and Andy after school today at Hannahs..

    It was alright..

    Yeah..I'm done.

    Everyone hates me!

    Current Mood: calm
    Current Music: That 70's Show
    Tuesday, October 21st, 2003
    8:26 pm
    No one likes me anymore..

    And it makes me sad....


    Current Mood: depressed
    Current Music: i love the 80s....
    7:45 pm
    Just got back from the mall...

    It was boring..

    I was forced to go or else I wouldnt be able to go to Washington D.C.

    Lovely, huh?

    Yeah..I'm really tired..

    We didnt even buy anything from the mall either..just food

    Which I got teryaki chicken from the japanese place!!!

    I looove chicken..

    Yuuuuuuup..thats it!

    Current Mood: tired
    Current Music: I love the 80s...STRIKES BACK!!
    4:12 pm

    Today in Spanish class, Lauren gave me some orajel and told me to put it on my tongue and my gums and that they would feel numb and stuff..

    So I did and it was so cool..I was like drooling

    I think I should put some orajel on my tongue and then go get it pierced so i wont be able to feel it!!

    But my tongue is probably too small...

    oh how sad


    Current Mood: sleepy
    Monday, October 20th, 2003
    9:12 pm
    Guess what guess what GUESS WHAT!!?!?!??!




    6:39 pm
    Today was kinda sad..

    The sociology teacher, Mr. Kelly, passed away on Satuday..

    I didn't have him as a teacher, but I have seen him around school and hes not that old

    But I guess he was having heart trouble and his heart stopped

    It was so sad to see some of my teachers crying..I felt horrible

    Last nite, I cried for a good 40 minutes..

    I would rather not mention what I was crying about because no one agrees with me anyway..

    But anyway, my pillow my soaked in my tears and stuff and it was bad..

    I don't know what to do...

    I usually cry myself to sleep, but I have never cried this much..

    oh well..

    Current Mood: sad
    Current Music: some commercials I can hear from the living room
    Sunday, October 19th, 2003
    7:57 pm
    cheese fuck monkey tit..
    I signed a bunch of petitions on petitionspetitions.com

    Its a pretty cool frigging site..

    So I guess Laura and evryone else really did go to Lake Compounce and I really was not supposed to be invited..oh how lovely..I thought maybe they just kinda forgot..but NO I really wasnt supposed to be invited..Gee Thanks..

    Laura said it was more of Dan's friends..
    Who the fuck cares who goes!?
    Thanks for inviting me.. I feel so fucking special..


    No one likes me anymore..

    Except like Hannah (whos been putting up with me for the last five years) and Shannon (who for some reason is still going out with me)..


    I don't know anymore..

    You know whats crazy?!

    This Wednesday is Laura and Dan's two month anniversary..

    They've only been going out like a month less than me and Shannon..

    Thats weird..and crazy...and stuff..



    Current Mood: blah
    Current Music: "Lola" --The Kinks
    2:36 pm
    oh so pretty..so very very pretty
    Roarg..Just got home and I'm so tired..

    I woke up at like 8:30 and went crazy..thats usually what happens when I wake up..

    Lisa and Steve bought us bagels at Dunkin Donuts..yum

    Then we went to the Official Cow Parade of West Hartford..

    It was ok..I guess..I thought there would actually be real cows there man..

    They were statues of cows that were painted and stuff lined up and down the streets..

    And it was raining so I was cold and wet and blahhh..

    There was an Irish cow and it was cool..

    Then we went to an Indian store because Ichi Ban wasn't open yet..

    I love how the store smelt..

    Next Friday, Lisa is taking me and Hannah to an INdian restaurant cause I never had Indian food and I really wanna try new stuff..

    So after that we went to the Japanese restaurant..and we sat in the same spots that Mark and Tom sat in..Like Oh my god..

    It was really good food, except I can't use chop sticks but I did pretty well for a beginner I guess..

    Me and Ainsley split a chicken teryaki..

    And we had some green tea, miso soup, some tempura, maki rolls, and at the end red bean ice cream, which is really good..tastes like watermelon..

    We shared all that food, and they only made me pay $5...thanks!

    After that, we went to tthe Hartford Courant (where Steve works) because Lisa had to call Tess by a certain time and crap like that..

    After they talked on the phone for like 20 minutes, Steve gave us a long, boring tour of the Hartford Courant..haha

    I learned new things about Hannahs mom..like that she has a huge fear of big machines...

    OH MY GOD..she freaked out, I thought she was gonna cry!

    She's had this fear since she was younger and its weird..

    We think that in her past life, she was killed or hurt by some big machine during the INdustrial Revolution..

    uck..I'm so tired now...

    I miss Shannnnnon..


    Shannon, you have to do your speech..remember!!!

    Or I'll cry..

    Current Mood: sleepy
    8:48 am

    Which Gackt are you most like?

    quiz by mcvarmazi

    Current Mood: awake
    Current Music: cheese..
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