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| Tuesday, July 8th, 2008 | ||||
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myperfectenemy |
11:58p | Baby there, there is a room Full of death and whores and you I am waiting in that room I am waiting there for you; | ||
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myperfectenemy |
10:55p | It's time to move on, Justine. oh my god. i finally got rid of my layout. It's been two years now . . . I need to get out of the past. Or at least reacquaint myself with a different past. | ||
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myperfectenemy |
10:49p | I'll stand by your side. and it's okay that I am different. Because I am different. Different than those other girls . . . | ||
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myperfectenemy |
10:25p | I love how I keep coming up with new ways to prove to you I am not the girl you think I am. I keep you on your toes. And it's perfect. | ||
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cutstoopeneyes |
4:40p | A Cigarette Pursed Between Her Lips, But I'm Staring At Her Tits. Aaron lets me down a lot and I mean a lot. Yesterday, he was supposed to take me to Joe's Crab Shack for some crab legs. I've been raving about this for the past week and telling everyone. Aaron and I never go on dates, let alone out for crab. So it's near the end of my shift at work and I text him to see if he went to Chicago with Gary, but they didn't because Gary wasn't answering his phone. Then Aaron tells me he thinks we should just go to Joe's Crab Shack on the 19th since we'll be closer to where it's at [the closest one is like 40 minutes away, not far from his house]. We'll be going to his cousin's house that weekend for her daughter's birthday party so he figured we could just go then. I was so upset and disappointed that I didn't talk to him the entire night. I sat in our room while he played video games with Brooke [who's a boy]. Now here's what makes me really upset about Aaron: he never finishes anything. He started laundry like a week and a half ago and there's a load still sitting in the washer and in the dryer. He was getting ready for work and started flipping out that I didn't finish it. Sorry, buddy, but I always finish our laundry, even if it takes me 3 days. He got mad 'cause a pair of his work pants were in there. Well, I had work today and he had been sitting around the entire time I was at work and up until 20 to 5 [he had work at 5]. If he would get his shit together earlier, he would have realized where his pants were [even though he was wearing a different pair] and then he could've washed or dried them or whatever the fuck needed to be done with them. He also gets mad when there isn't a medium Jewel shirt for him. This is hilarious, actually. I started in April and got 2 medium shirts. He started in May and asked for 2 small shirts. He wears my medium, though, because the small is uncomfortable. No fucking shit, that's why I got medium - I have very large boobies. The other day he picked up a shirt and it was a small and so was the one downstairs. I was wearing a medium and we can't find my other one. He got so pissed off and I yelled at him for getting mad that I'm wearing my shirt. Whatever. He's at work 'till midnight, so I can sit around and be angry by myself now. I don't think I should make tacos tomorrow for him like I had planned. Good news: My supervisor at Jewel came up to me today and said they're going to train me to become a cashier next week. HOLLA! 'What Not To Wear' is on, so I'm leaving now. Megan's getting ballsy. Her car has only been here like 4 times since that incident on her birthday and now, it's been here almost daily for about two weeks. Bitch. Just seeing her car ruins my mood 'cause of all the shit she's put me and me and Aaron through. Current Mood:  aggravatedCurrent Music: Sublime - "Wrong Way" | ||
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peaceloveivy |
5:44p | Sonic My new puppy. Hes adorable. 5 months old (born 1/31/08) and 4.13 lbs. Now that he's here, I don't know what I'd do without him. He's supposed to be for my sister, but she's 8 and only can do so much. Its more of a family pet. I've spent the past 2 days leash training and he seems to be doing very well. We just got back from a 45 minute walk. I know its a lot, but he really loves it outside. Sonic is really amazing ♥  Current Mood:  cheerful | ||
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myperfectenemy |
3:39p | :[ eww @ the fact that all this time I thought my upper arms were just super super fat but now I'm pretty sure that some of it if not most of it is just excess/loose skin from when I used to be fat I think now it's even more gross than when I thought it was fat ewwwwwwwww fuck you internet and my ability to research on you | ||
| Sunday, July 6th, 2008 | ||||
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starbroken1 |
11:16p |
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| Monday, July 7th, 2008 | ||||
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myperfectenemy |
10:53p | life is so weird. | ||
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noxassociationx |
6:50p | it felt good to be by myself running errands and shopping today. i haven't had a day to do what i want in a few days. i got an awesome skirt and a cute dress from a thrift store and consigned a shirt that my mom didn't want. hopefully it sells and i get some money. i'd probably only get like, $5 since it would probably be marked for $10 and I only get half of what it was bought for. I need to bring a whole bunch of things so that it all adds up to a significant amount. i ordered my camera today! it should probably be here by the end of the week because newegg.com is awesome. it came with a free memory card (i'm not sure how many pictures it holds though) and a free case. :) my job has made me addicted to ebay. i'm watching 37 items. lol. i'm bidding on 2. I lost an auction last night and got pissed because it was the cutest dress ever. I was a dollar short. I think I waited too long at the last seconds. Oh well...it saved me $50 that I will try to spend on different dresses. I get nervous and anxious when the auction starts to end. ha. i don't know why i lose my internet connection when the phone is in use, but it really pisses me off. | ||
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myperfectenemy |
10:18a | lulz lol @ this mix cd i made at midnight: includes: Ice Cube - "Go to Church" Megan McCauley - "Migraine" Abney Park - "Airship Pirate" Nirvana - "Lithium" Nirvana - "Lake of Fire" Nirvana - "Lounge Act" Lil Wayne - "Got Money" Lil Wayne - "3 Peat" Wheatus - "Teenage Dirtbag" Flyleaf - "Sorrow" Auf der Maur - "Lightning is my Girl" Hole - "Whose Porno You Burn (Black)" The Secret Handshake - "I Wish" (Skee-Lo cover) The Devil Wears Prada - "Still Fly" (Big Tymers cover) Scary Kids Scaring Kids - "Losing my Religion" (REM cover) Porcelain and the Tramps - "King of the World" Tori Amos - "Here. In My Head" Staind - "Home" Slipknot - "Psychosocial" Atreyu - "Two Become One" (except I think this song might really be called "When Two Are One") New Years Day - "My Dear" | ||
| Sunday, July 6th, 2008 | ||||
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myperfectenemy |
10:28p | love. NO ONE ELSE CAN SEE THE PRESERVATION OF THE MARTYR IN ME. | ||
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_ratedx_ |
3:39p | I don't know if this feeling is a phase or not, but I fear that I have nothing interesting to say... | ||
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myperfectenemy |
11:30a | if you're a scared mother fucker, go to church! | ||
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myperfectenemy |
9:53a | I HATE MY IGNORANT FATHER SO FUCKING MUCH I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM I HATE HIM | ||
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mycrazylife101 |
1:19a | tc Went up north to see the Penski's last week. It was fun. It felt like home again. I miss it already. I'm going to write tomorrow. It's late and I have church in the a.m. ttyl nicole | ||
| Saturday, July 5th, 2008 | ||||
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myperfectenemy |
11:52p | Beating hearts grow, but never die. ♥ | ||
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anonymous15 |
1:51a | Feeling as though I'm about to go crazy, I lose myself into a happy state, feeling the blood run. Then I ask myself, when will I die? This question bothers me so, why is everything so fucking hard? You provoke this dark side of me. The tears run as long as the blood does. Once dried it begins to turn brown upon my skin, and my eyes burn like acid. My veins run cold, and my eyes empty. Lifeless to those who find me. I can see you standing there, I'm not dead yet. I know everything that's going on, I'm in my final state now. Once my eyes close it's over. Scream for me! Say that you want me! Say that you love me! SAVE ME!!! Everything is begging to fade, take my hand now. I'm screaming in my head for you to not let go, for I will die without you. I'm so broken, you're my strength. Pick me up again, and I promise not to fail again. To close this time, to deep. To loud is my heart beat in my ears from fear. I'm truly sorry for all the stupid shit I've done. It's getting cold now, your hand is so warm touching mine. Please, dont cry. I really did try. I'm sorry, I love you! | ||
| Friday, July 4th, 2008 | ||||
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myperfectenemy |
8:41a | i need to showerrrrr | ||
| Thursday, July 3rd, 2008 | ||||
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myperfectenemy |
10:30p | And all I want really is for you to ask me to come home with you. | ||
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myperfectenemy |
3:41p | You're finished with your woman 'cause she is not me. | ||
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peaceloveivy |
11:08a | Since *vent* I can never win, I'm going to stop playing. Someone tell me that honesty is still important because so far honesty as gotten me no where but arrested, homeless, deceived, used, and generally fucked over. Now one could say that the decisions which the honesty revealed were but check this: On the day of my arrest I could have lied and said I was 18, they would have let me go. I also could have lied and said I didn't have a pipe or it wasn't mine, etc and they would have had no grounds since it was an illegal search. Telling someone that I was raped got ruined my 'free' apprenticeship for nothing since they are too fucking busy throwing pot smokers/growers in jail, which is taking up all the courts time so they just kinda let the case go. Nice, right? They flat out told me they couldn't try my case for at least 6 months because they had too many 'drug and violence' related cases. Bitch, please, I know you aren't out there busting fucking meth and crack labs. Thats too much work. But now a VIOLENT criminal is walking around right now. Wai2goguise, I'm super proud. Then today, I'm honest about smoking pot and not wanting to take anti depressants because, well, I'm not depressed and that shit doesn't work. Its designed to FUCK with your brain chemistry. Each medication is different so when you constantly switch them around, your brain is fucked even more. How is that helping? Now, in states where medicinal marijuana is legal, bi-polar and borderline are both "approved conditions for marijuana treatment". So how can something that is PROVEN TO TREAT make everything worse? Fuck it all man. I'm so done with caring and trying. Current Mood:  sadCurrent Music: Dirt- Alice In Chains | ||
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noxassociationx |
12:53a | i saw msi with phil tonight, got knocked in the back of the head and got to meet jimmy urine. fun! he and his wife are cute (she came onstage to sing with him during one song). and of course, lyn-z was gorgeous, although i didn't get to see much of her since i was on the other side of the crowd. i only need $35 more for my camera. i think i'll be getting it next week! :) bedtime now. today was grand. Current Mood:  content | ||
| Wednesday, July 2nd, 2008 | ||||
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anonymous15 |
11:51p | There's nothing wrong with my life but yet I seem to be upset. I don't know if it's because I think of the past or not, but it's good for me now. WHy do I still feel this saddness that is still so strong inside of me. My past comes to haunt me all the time. It'll just hit me one day, or I'll just be reminded of it somehow. It's like sometimes I feel as though i have to bleed in order to know that I'm alive, to know that it's real. Just to know that everything that's around me is reality, and not only a dream. A pinch will not due. Current Mood: depressed | ||
| Tuesday, July 1st, 2008 | ||||
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starbroken1 |
11:18p |  | ||
