!5 (SaVe us from the PaIn)'s Blurty

Well today I had soccerpractise, that was good. Ran around the field for 1.5hrs in the freezing wind, it was so nice.
Mom's back from holland since sunday, so my dad can go into full bitchmode again, since he doesnt have to keep up a nice atmosphere around the house anymore now my mom is there to "calm everything down". yay for that!
Today I got a new coffee cup from my dad. He took a picture of me last year when I was crying, and now decided it was the perfect picture to put on a coffeecup just to piss me off. He went like: Here you go, now you can drink out of a cup with ur happy face on it when ur in the art room!
thanks dad. thats so nice of you *big fake smile* thank you.
He seriously thought that it was funny for some reason. whatever.
The urge to cut is still not gone, I still lie in bed most of the time when Im at home, or pace around my room not knowing wut to do with myself. I cant concentrate on homework, I can't sleep. and then the rest of the day im so tired, till it is time to go to sleep, cuz then all of a sudden miraculously im wide awake...

-iensjj

Current Mood: restless
Current Music: Run - Snow Patrol