| 8:14p |
I've been doing well lately, keeping it undercontrol. But sometimes, even for no reason that urge takes over and it's like I have to make some kind of cut. Even if it's just a catch scratch if you know what I mean?
The feeling is coming back full force, and I hate that it's coming back like that. I wish sometimes that I had never begun doing this to myself.
They say the reason you cut yourself is because of some kind of cheimcal in your brain to make it feel better or something like that, and that's why most seem so addictied to it. I'll admit I am... I've done it for half my life. I started in the 7th grade, and now here I am in college, and continue to do it. It's not as bad as it once was, but slowly it's getting there again.
Blah, who wants to really read about another persons problems like mine?
Good luck to all of you! |
| 11:24p |
soo I found out from a friend of mine who is in psychology class that the release of blood helps get rid of depression. I find that rather funny, because every psychologist/therapist/councellor I have ever talked with about the subject will say the opposite. But I know it's true, it has to be true. Every cutter that I know gets relief from cutting, and thats because your releasing blood :) So why is cutting soo bad ? |