| 11:45p |
I want to cut my body into peices... just forget about everything in my life that has happened. That has seemed to have lead me to be what I am. I hate who I am. Obsessed with all the wrong things, and ideas. Wanting to give up but don't have the guts to quit. I just don't understand myself sometimes. I thought everyone knew who, and what they are. How they think. I can't stand they way I have become anymore. I look at myself in the mirror and I just want to shatter it. Put my fist through it! Cry out loud, but at the same time for no one to hear me! Only to skip the 500 questions that would come my way. I believe I'm starting to lose my mind. Everywhere I look I can see myself either dying, or killing someone. I know that's not right either.
I don't even know myself anymore it seems... I'm two different people by myself, and then in front of others, I mean by a lot. I really put on a show, it comes natural now. |