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so its been awhile since ive been here. but its cause things have been going really well. i havent cut since about june. there have been a few times where ive wanted to though. but somehow im making myself not. i dont really know what changed but its working whatever it is.
not to long ago i had a guy in my room and he found this book that i write stuff about cutting in. as soon as he picked it up i freaked out on him and took it away. later i ended up telling him all about it. and he just sat there and hugged me while i cried. he told me that he was always there for me. and the funny thing is him and i werent even like "friends" i mean i do consider him one now, but at the time we werent at all. and i think he sorta made me see things defferently.
but anyways. im doing good. thats basically what im trying to say.
i also want some advice.. i have this really big scar on my face. not from cutting but something else. lately ive been thinkin about getting plastic surgery to get it taking away. the thing is, im terrified that something, anything, could go wrong during the surgery. maybe im just stupid, but im scared. yet i really want to do this. like its something i need to do just for my confidence and all. i dont know. but if you know anything about plastic surgery or wanna help me out with the whole thing, please do. im desperate for someone to talk to about this. |