well i have been feeling grat! i lost 5 pounds and my parents haven't been fighting much and it's reely good.. BUT me and my friend miz were talk on the fone last night till 5am. well we got into a conversationg about cutting for about an hour and a half lol. well all it did was make us want it more and more and more. so.. i caved. my thighs are all covered and the worst part is.. i liked it. i haven't done it in a month but it felt so good. i juss can't help it. without out it i'm litterally nutz. i'm bitchy a little cuz when i'm upset and i can't do it it makes me pissed and then i'm juss a bitch and it sux. i spend nights where i'm not sleeping and i'm scratching my arms with my nails wnough to feel better but not to leave marks long and i'm juss litterally insane with out it. it's horrible. i think maybe it's bcuz i've been going it since i was 9. idk. it sux though. i told miz that i was doing it since then and she was shocked cuz she didn't know that. so idk but i think it's bcome a part of me now so it's reely hard to break. idk. oh well it's been a long time since i posted in here and lat night was the first night in a while that i did it so i juss thought i'd write about it. g2g hope everyone else is doing well. |