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Wednesday, June 28th, 2006
| Time | Event |
| 10:16a | um so i cut myself...........arm and stomach.....30 times. I.LOVE.IT. ..........i love it!! and i hate it at the same time. my ex-boyfriend used to bitch at me about my cutting. ..............he cut himself because of me. on his stomach (in my favorite place to cut) and his upper arm. .....i feel like such a bad influence. he told me he felt like cutting. i told him i wasnt going to tell him NOT to because i would be a hypocrit. i told him i wouldnt suggest it though. i think part of the reason he did it was to feel closer to me. ...but get this. he broke up with me. 3 or 4 days ago...now he wants to get back with me and he feels bad for what he did to me over the weekend (breakin up with me on a whim) i'm not taking him back. he's done this 4 times now. and im sick of it. he says he still loves me and he made a mistake. we still talk everyday. and i see him occasionally. but he wants to be with me again. i told him i needed this break. so he cut. and i think it was to feel closer to me. |
| 2:09p | AHHHHHHHHHH idk what i feel right now, i just feel like nothing. i feel like righting, and reading. but whjen i do i don't want to do it anymore. maybe i am going crazy????? idk i am just PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW. cause some bitch started making rumors about me. and now i have to deal with this shit. i hate her guts now and i wanna kill her. and i just might...... i am going to go cut myself. hope everyone doing okayy ohh and i am new here. alexa- Current Mood:  pissed offCurrent Music: hip hop |
| 2:15p | me 1. Do you cut? yes 2. Who do you hide SI from? everyone 3. Who knows about it? no one 4. How long has it been since you last cut? a few weeks 5. Have you ever tried to commit suicide before? no 6. Where do you usually cut? legs and arms 7. When you cut, who's usually the first to find out? no one 8. What's your worst experience with a fresh cut? it bleed more then usual 9. Do you have a fascination with scabs? noi hate them 10. Do you like scars, yes or no? no 11. Do you name your razor? i don't use one 12. . What other methods of SI do you use? nothing 13. do you dislike the term "self mutilation"? no, i like it it makes it seem liek i have a disease i like the fact that i haveone 14. What various ways do you use to hide cuts? i don't 15. Once cuts heal, do you still hide the scar? nope 16. Ever been institutionalized/hospitalized for SI'ing? no 17. Do you ever run into problems with hiding cuts (i.e: gym change rooms)? no 18. What's the best part about cutting to you? it makes it seem liek i have a disease i like the fact that i haveone 19. Do you know of any songs that talk about SI? nope 20. Have you ever been caught cutting/burning, etc? no 21. What instrument do you use to cut? shapener razors 22. What causes you to cut? i like the feeling its the only thing close to a diseas i can find 23. What do you feel afterwards? happy. 24. What is your closest Close Call? i don't have one 25. How long have you been doing it? a few months 26. Do you keep a razor in your bag? nope 27. Ever needed stitches for a cut so deep? never 28. Do you have someone like a therapist you talk to regularly? no 29. Are your parents divorced? yes Current Mood:  blah |
| 2:25p | UGH i am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo mad i hate everything in my life. i am so depressed. i wanted to kill myself. instead i cut myself. and it made me feel better then i saw my brother and i wated to like scream again. i am so mad at him. i hate his girl friend. i hate idalis. and i now hate 7 eleven. wow. twins are supossed to understand eachother. not be totally clueless as to why the other one is doing what they. and thatshow i feel now. why is he doing this?? why isn't he caring. why. hope you all are doing well -alexa- Current Mood: shity |
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