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Friday, May 5th, 2006
| Time | Event |
| 8:43a | damns well i was doing good but i caved lastnight. i did 37 on my wrist. i was upset. tim broke it off with me the other day but he's not worth it anyway and now i have casey <3 but i got home late last night cuz i was over melissa's house making stuff for spanish class since 2day is cinco de mayo. well i toldhim i'd be late cuz we weren't gunna finish that fast and he wanted me home by 6 and they weren't done cooking since we only finished the first batch and we were making 3. so i called him and he was pissed and i told him i'll come home when we're finiched and he said ok fine. well we didn't finish until 8 and by the time i got home it was 830. i got screamedat and hit like u wouldn't imagine. it was horrible. i told him to fuck off and i went up into my room and put the bed infront of the door so he couldn't get in cuz i was scared. then i poped a new blade and it was extremely sharp so i was happy. it mde me feel better after i got done. casey knows that i do it and he don't like it but he said it's stupid to break up with meover it and he's not gunna juss leave me bcuz of this. i'm glad he said that. it made me feel better. i'm glad that he cares. i don't want to lose him bcuz i'm worthless and weak. well i'm in strings class right now so i g2g, i hope u all are doing well! Current Mood:  confused |
| 3:54p | I know I'll stop I'm so sorry you guys. I keep posting, to much I know. But I gotta say this, then I'm done I swear. My Mom and I went out, just for some "Fun". She was drinking some whine, and I finally told her how I felt about it. And she said in short, "I'm testing myself, and if I go crazy I'll put myself back in AA." Great so now she's testing herself, I can't belive I heard that. I was so hurt/upset/angry, and then I went into the bathroom and cutt. Ya I F'N cutt, which means I am not gonna be ready for the wedding. Great..I'm a fuck up...great. Hope you're all ok. XOXO Current Mood:  cold |
| 5:01p | Hahaha. Remember when I said that I wasn't going to do this anymore? Well, so much for that idea. I carved a heart in my hand on Tuesday with a staple. Heh. So, latest news, I'm on a "break" with my boyfriend. And maybe I'm regretting it a little. Even though it was my idea, and we "breaked" last night. =/ Uggh. Me and my great ideas always fuck things up. sdklfgjkldfjg I'm through with doing this to myself, both guys and cutting. I just want everything to be right, but then again, who doesn't? Acck. Well, I hope that I don't post on here in a while, because everytime I do, I make the saaame promise and I never keep it. =/ Uggh. Stay strong everyone. Loves to all. ♥ |
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