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Saturday, December 17th, 2005
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| 12:21p | *Oh Well* I've got this boyfriend... Love him to death I do... We have been together for... 1year and 7months.... We went through alot, and we never really even went out... Some would say that's a good thing... Others would say it was the worst thing ever... A few days go, he said he had a secret to tell me... In the real world he was not even planing on telling me, he was going to wait till we could talk face to face... I told him to tell me, he can tell me anything... He told me, he was in love with another women... Her name is Amanda, she goes to school with him.... She kissed him, and he did nothing to stop it... I don't know what to do, he is talking with her right now... I think he's going to cheat on me again... What should I do?... I'm so confussed... Current Mood:  blankCurrent Music: *Games* |
| 4:03p | today is the day that I try to give up on you today is the day that I try to let you go today is the day that I bleed for you today is the day that I'll try to let go No more pain in my empty heart No more pain in my empty soul The only pain that i had is gone it bled away cause I knew it was the only way, how you would slowly fade... So he told me he doesnt like me. in these exact words...: I know you like me... But...I mean.. no offense.. I'm not into you that way .. don't get me wrong. you are an awsome person.. just not someone I'd date... I hope you understand that? Ah well...At least I know now that he doesnt like me..But I just still cant believe it...I mean if I think about all the times that he called me and asked me what I was gonna do that evening and asked me to meet up with them...and how we walked to the car together..him with his arms around me.. I mean would he do that with a gurl he didnt like? Would he have come out the evening before his SAT's and go to the movies with me and 3 couples (that are basically existing out of his friends and my friends) if he did not like me? It just doesnt seem to make sense...maybe he forced himself to stop liking me..just because he has to leave at the end of the year to the states anyways and doesnt want to get heartbroken again. ( his ex left to a diff. country while they were still dating, and that fckd him up I guess..) Yesterday was fckd up too btw...I was with the 3 couples at my friends house...so I was like the only one without anyone...Practically I was ignored the whole time..and I really wanted to go home but I couldnt, just because my parents werent home so I HAD to stay..I was ready to fckin jump out of the window... well sorry for the long post... love iensjj Current Mood:  crappyCurrent Music: Jack's mannequin - Into the airwaves |
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