!5 (SaVe us from the PaIn)'s Blurty

*College Dead End From Hell!*
Well my parents and I drove three hours to ParkLand College. Which was a total waste might I add! We got there and everything was so cool, the people, the teachers, classes, equipment...everything! If I was going to go anywhere to be a Vet Tech, it would be there. But then we sat and were talking with Dr. Paul Cook, some teacher guy. And he was saying, "Well if you don't have the grades, then you might as well not even be here." Then he goes... "All of our student, or atleast about 99.99% of them all have taken College courses. 1 or 2 years, or they have a Batchloers Degree before they came here. And it looks to me like you have nothing." And then that was it...I had given up on everything right there. Some guy who I didn't even know was telling me I was not going to be good enough for HIS school! And sadly that's what people have been telling me my whole life. Over and over, you're not good enough. You won't make it here, and I was scared! And I still am scared! What the hell am I to do now? Give up? Try and then fail anyways? If I try and fail, my parents will for sure KILL me this time. And if I don't try, because I am scared of having my soul PUT IN A BOX, they will hate me. So I am at a total loss, and my sister told me to try Wabonzse, it's a small community college where we live. And I said I'd surly fail at that too, I just can't do this shit anymore. I don't know what to do, or who to tell. Who will hear me out, or who will shut me down. My family is no good, and my best friend Natalie is already in college and she is doing GREAT! So I feel like I am...NOTHING. And that's all who I will ever be! Hope you all are doing better and keep trying.

I hate this...

Current Mood: cold
Current Music: *CannibalCorpse*