Tuesday, November 29th, 2005

Time	Event
9:04p	hey guess what .. yesterday was my bday yay lol my boyfriend gave me a promise ring for my b day and i love it.. i love him so much i mean hes everything to me ... but hes also the guy that i broke up with b/c he was ignoring me ... but i really love him and he spent like $300 on me .. i love him i really do .... should i stay with him even though he hurt me ... just give him one more chance?? when he started ignoring me it really hurt me ... well i found out he was getting high every day and thats why he was ignoring me ... well he hasnt smoked in about a month now... so yea.. should i chance it or not... i have unbelieveable feelings for him... hes everything to me .. i loved him so much and it killed me to break up with him... but to tell the truth about everything b4 you give me advice... i cheated on him ... i didnt know about it until about a week later... but i told him right away nothing happened but it turned out i gave my friend head... so i didnt wanna go back in wat i said earlier and tell him something really did happen... but i mean i was one time and i was drunk and i really didnt know... so yea.. he gave me another chance.. do you think i should do the same ...? even though i have been trying to get him to quirt for about 1 year now and he doesnt seem to be able to do it so yea... but its been a month now.. give him another chance or not.... Thanx ~Crystal~ Current Mood: blank Current Music: tv (6 Comments | Comment on this)
9:39p	godspeed nana ... who ever is out there save her. i am struggling right now. my nana's back in the hospital. why won't she eat?! it's like she wants to die ... maybe she does. *sigh* i hope not. i hate seeing her like this and my mom like this. this is too much, i'm going to hit my limit soon. i just lost my only grandfather, i can't lose my only grandmother ... my nana. i'm freaking out right now. random breakouts of screaming into a pillow and hitting myself. i want to cry but the tears wont come. i think i'll take a shower, take some sleeping pills and pass out for the night. i can't handle anything right now. maybe tomorrow will be okay. Current Mood: can't cry Current Music: Sugarland - Just might (make me believe) (1 Comment | Comment on this)

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