!5 (SaVe us from the PaIn)'s Blurty

Bleed me beautiful
So lord i dont even know what to do with myslef right now im soo done with life im done with pretty much everything this house most of all i cant wait till lindsey comes home tomorrow!! ugggh such a relifee.
if i even make it till tomorrow
i dont even know whats pretty much going on right now im trying to type as best as i can for you gusy. i have almost 2/3 of a fifth in me right now b/c im bored and i cant handle anyhting right now not a sinlge thing maybe later when i get soo trashed ill take some dramamine. cut myslef and pass oout and never wake up right now it just seems amazing so maybe if you dont here from me for awhile ill be in the hospital or in my grave. !! ahh all this is making me want to cut but last time i cut drunk i ended up with stichtes what ever but i love you gusy and i hope everyone is doing okay and everything is going good for everyone . . Branddii i love you and i hope your okay!! xoxo

x3.carissa.