Thursday, November 10th, 2005

Time	Event
4:06p	If you're gone then so am I. ... I would die for you. I breathe in one more time, trying to find another reason to stay alive. My body cries as i fall to the floor. I never thought i'd bury myself so deep. I wait for you everynight, but i fall asleep before i get the chance to release. The thoughts scare me more then anything. I think, "maybe i ruined this somehow." i wish i could make your pain go away. i wish that everyday. I hold on to every bit of you in my mind. That gets me closer to finding you in the end. I pretend like this isn't over. That i can somehow hold you for forever. I'll never let go untill i see you infront of me. I'll stare at your beauty and kiss every scar. You're the only reason i've gotten this far. It's a constant pain in my chest, that something has gone wrong.... It's such a frustration that gets me when i know i can't get to her right now. Can you get to me? I don't want to disapoint anyone, i don't want to give up...but i don't want to give up on you ... well that's stupid, i never could give up on you. It may seem crazy that i'm fixated on someone i have never physically met. ... but she's so amazing and i miss her so much. She's that constant reminder in my head that i have to keep going, so we can get to eachother one day. i've thought about her at least six times everyday since the middle of summer. she's so addicting ... and i love it. ... i love her. i wish i had something i could say to fix everything, but i don't. i have no words when it comes to happiness. i just wish we could both be happy and not have to live through what we have. My day hasn't been very great. I've been worring all day and i've been very manic. well, i don't have much to talk about right now. i just hope that you're okay. "And I hope, your majesty that you like your position. I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom. Just kiss me before I go." Current Mood: distressed Current Music: Saves The Day - Nightingale (2 Comments | Comment on this)
10:09p	Mae "This Time Is The Last Time" Save yourself. Because the only thing that matters is that you get away from the pain and the thought of losing your mind. Don't blame yourself. It was everyone around you who made you act this way. There's the stage and your chance to watch it go down. Don't fake yourself into ever, ever thinking about yesterday. That was then, this is now. Don't call it undone. Don't take what you've been dealt. You can exit out the back and make your getaway before anyone can see the damage you have done. This time is the last time so be here, here now. This time is the last time. Somehow make it through. the water in my bathtub was pink. i cut way to fucking much today. (5 Comments | Comment on this)

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