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Friday, October 7th, 2005
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| 9:35a | Hi Im new. Ive belonged to CutMeIntoPieces for a couple years now I think. Yea Im a loser. But that community just isnt like it was. So I found this. I dont know if Im supposed to fill something out or something...but whatever. Anyhow Ill just say that my names Liv and Ive been cutting for 4 years now. Well almost 4 years. And I convinced everyone that I stopped cutting like a year ago but then I got kicked out of camp for it so everyone knows again. Everyone meaning my parents, my boyfriend, and 2 of my friends. Sorry this is long. <3 Liv Current Mood:  indifferent |
| 11:25a | theres this girl at my school who is cutting now but it pissses me off because she is only doing it for Spot light and attention and i hate it .. god she doesnt how it is to cut for a good reason ...to feel so alone you want your blood to keep you company, to cut cause it feels good and make you feel real ... cause every one else blows you off like you werent there.. i want to take a bb gun adn shoot her in the foot (it hurts alot) the just keep shooting at her anywhere UGH im pissed and i want to cut but my mom is psyco and took every thing sharp away....AHHH god i found 2 sewing pins at school and i lost them both, one i had stuck to my shirt to i wouldnt lose it and the other was stuck to the side of my bed for at night and now its gone... any one wanna mail me one thats very sharp or some thing Krista (you can call me Odie) Current Mood:  numbCurrent Music: amber pacific > gone so young |
| 7:36p | *They say home is where the heart is. What a shame 'cause everyone's heart does not beat the same I have yet to cut today, but I know it is coming. It always comes. My brother and his girlfriend of five years are getting married next June. My older sister and I are in the wedding. Kim said we could choose what length of dresses we wanted, And I think we are going for short. Which means my legs will have to look decent, Which takes months of planning. Why am I obsessing over this now? I feel so ...weird. I want to be angry, But I bruise. I want to cry, But I burn instead. I want to be happy, But I cut instead. Everything ends up in the same way. Why do I even try? Current Mood:  angry |
| 9:52p | 111 cuts in 2 hours. "if a stupid poem could fix this home, i'd read it everyday." ahhh! i just spent 40 minutes writing about how shitty my day was.....and then it deleted!!!! it was soo long, sigh...so annoying! drip, drip, drop. why can't the pain stop? runaway to the other side, where you can confide in a person who understands. why you do the things you do. why you say the things you say. drip,drip, drop. make the red river stop. get away from the numbness. is there some way you can overcome this? to live a normal day. without the run of the blade. drip, drip, drop. one day this will all stop. one day you won't need this support, you'll find another way of some sort. to solve your problems and get away ... to a better day Current Mood: frustratedCurrent Music: the wind outside of my window |
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