Saturday, December 18th, 2004

Time	Event
12:19p	Here are song lyrics that I can relate to right now "How does it feel, to be different from me? Are we the same? How does it feel, to be different from me? Are we the same? How does it feel?"- Avril Lavigne "How does it feel? "now I'm finding my friends hanging from trees, made a bed of a barbed wire fence I'm on the loose with my neck in the noose but hey... I enjoy the intense"- CKY, "Escape from Hellview" "I can hear the sounds of the city Sunrise and set are the same to me A hesitating pulse is good company And my reflection offers no apology But who said that I wasn't right? And I've lived for years without a life Don't have a soul on my side Still ridiculed despite how hard that I have tried"- CKY, "CLose yet far" I don't know how I feel this morning, just thinking about self injury and what it really means. I have decided to kill 3 birds with one stone. Self Starvation. I loose weight, I slowly die, and I can hopefully stop cutting because I will be too tired. It seems so perfect to me, then maybe I can be one of those pretty girls..... Current Mood: crying Current Music: Slipped away- Avril Lavigne (Comment on this)
12:19p	Here are song lyrics that I can relate to right now "How does it feel, to be different from me? Are we the same? How does it feel, to be different from me? Are we the same? How does it feel?"- Avril Lavigne "How does it feel? "now I'm finding my friends hanging from trees, made a bed of a barbed wire fence I'm on the loose with my neck in the noose but hey... I enjoy the intense"- CKY, "Escape from Hellview" "I can hear the sounds of the city Sunrise and set are the same to me A hesitating pulse is good company And my reflection offers no apology But who said that I wasn't right? And I've lived for years without a life Don't have a soul on my side Still ridiculed despite how hard that I have tried"- CKY, "CLose yet far" I don't know how I feel this morning, just thinking about self injury and what it really means. I have decided to kill 3 birds with one stone. Self Starvation. I loose weight, I slowly die, and I can hopefully stop cutting because I will be too tired. It seems so perfect to me, then maybe I can be one of those pretty girls..... Current Mood: crying Current Music: Slipped away- Avril Lavigne (2 Comments | Comment on this)
7:06p	this sucks so bad... jeffs little brother alan told me that jeff has a new girlfriend. these r his exact words... 'jeff has a new girlfriend. i was drollin over her, shes one fine bitch' wtf. that makes me so happy. i knew i wasnt all the way over him, but i didnt think it would hurt that much 2 hear that. there 4 i cut. it was such a stupid reason 2 do it but i did. im so pissed at myself 4 that. i guess it was that straw that broke the kamels back. gosh my arm is so sore i gotta stop typeing 4 right now... Current Mood: crushed Current Music: silence (4 Comments | Comment on this)

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