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Friday, December 3rd, 2004
| Time | Event |
| 3:18a | well today i kept liek swithcing between being like happy and depressed adn i dont know why ot happens sumtimes but yeah im yet to figure it out. Well a good thing was i found out i did make the jv basketball team the only thing was at practice today a lot of people saw my arm and my friend didnt make it and she is the one with the cover up to cover the majority of them but yeah everyone was looking at me funny and sum kids said sum mean thigs so at one point i just said to the coach i need to go to the bathroom adn stormed out to the locker room adn totally lost it. O and i was happy earlyer cuz my frnech teaher i ahted finally had her babies and now wont be there for the rest of the year and i found out i get to go to quebec city with a bunch of other french students this feburary. butt then after that in english i was all not tlaking and i almost cried then i had ceramics which was a disaster cuz im in a class with a bunch of kids who r wicked good at art and then... theres me im already done with my project i jsut threw a bunch of clay together adn called it sumthin do w/e i give up on school. but yeah i dont think i'll cut tonite im gonna try really hard not to cuz i wanna prove everyone wrong that i can be strong and not give in but i kno this will be a long nite with a lot of times i wanna cut cuz my mind is just and yeah im trying to seriously quit popping sleeping pills but now that im jsut not taking them i can never sleep. well i'll go now... ~ redd ~ Current Mood:  tiredCurrent Music: green day - boulevard of broken dreams |
| 3:30p | The bleeding makes me feel whole..... Hi all, I'm Gabriell. I've been cutting since I was 11 years old (i'm 20 now, you do the math). There's pretty much a story behind every incident that I have had. I have since stopped significantly in the last year or two but it's still hard not to do it. It's honestly nice to know that there's other people out there who understand b/c every time I try to explain cutting to one of my friends, they just usually end up yelling at me. As you all know, that doesn't help matters at all. If you guys have questions or just want to chat, please feel free to im me. My aol sn is wiccanvixan. Later all. Current Mood:  cold |
| 4:41p | Quotes that spoke to me... "Silence is easy, it become me. You don't even know me, so why do you hate me?" -StarSailor " I know you, I swear I do, you're just like me, your sipping your pity. Aw, soul slashing, don't sush me. Just listen to me pretty kitty in the sky. THe bass of my laughter from the speaker.. HAHAHA-HAHAHAHA-HAHAHAHAHAHA" -VenusHum Current Mood:  contentCurrent Music: Prison Song- ICP |
| 5:21p | ugh my best friend just got sent to a fucking foster home because her dad and step mom are ass holes.. i dont know when ill get to see her again, i miss her already, and her step brother keeps starting shit with me at school and they put me in this room by myself at school because they thought i was gonna hit him, which i was, but they fucking wouldnt let me out of the damn room, and everything just fucking sucks, havent cut in a week.. woot. but oh well dont think it will last, i need the pain! well and the blood, and there is this "fake" cutter at my school and she scratches herself and acts like it almost killed her, when in real life it looks as if she took her fingernail at her skin, i hate that , because some people like us actually have a problem.. its shit.. oh well .my meds are weird lately im still as depressed as ever.. oh well .. any comments? questions? lol -Megan- Current Mood:  crazy |
| 5:27p | A "V" of black swans are the hope for the grave When someone is supposed to love you, aren't they not supposed to say things to hurt you? Maybe I just mistaked that, but what Adam told me hurt me, even through I know he was joking. It really doesn't help that as soon as my mo came home she started demanding why I was so gloomy. I hate that, if I don't wanna tell you whats wrong, I'm not going to. I'm like that, I let it all build up till I go crazy and I start tearing at myself. Speaking of that...I know how to get rid of this mood...it is a new month isn't it? No one is home tonyght, I can just take a bath and just go to town on myself with a new blade I found. I love it, its so pretty. Sometimes we just need to curl up. |
| 5:27p | A "V" of black swans are the hope for the grave When someone is supposed to love you, aren't they not supposed to say things to hurt you? Maybe I just mistaked that, but what Adam told me hurt me, even through I know he was joking. It really doesn't help that as soon as my mo came home she started demanding why I was so gloomy. I hate that, if I don't wanna tell you whats wrong, I'm not going to. I'm like that, I let it all build up till I go crazy and I start tearing at myself. Speaking of that...I know how to get rid of this mood...it is a new month isn't it? No one is home tonyght, I can just take a bath and just go to town on myself with a new blade I found. I love it, its so pretty. Sometimes we just need to curl up. |
| 6:00p | Hiyo Hi....I'm new to the comunity and though I should post something (for some unknown reason for me) I'm curently in the process of quiting... I haven't picked up a blade of any sort for a little over five months now...and I hope I can continue that way. Anywho...Just dropped by to say hello and whatnot. Take Care. ^-^ <3 ~Ali Current Mood: calmCurrent Music: Burn - Three days grace |
| 6:36p | mmm YAY im going to go be with my friends later tongiht....im excited cuz i havent been with them for like ever!!! anyways havent cut for like a week!! im trying to to for awhile cuz im going to florida! 21 days!! anyways....im going with my friends tonight FINALLY i need some fun.... anyways thoguht id update yall so u can br proud of me for not doing it in like a week, and be happy for me cuz im gonna have some fun which i havent had in awhile.... layter kids.. j nicole Current Mood:  cheerful |
| 6:36p | mmm YAY im going to go be with my friends later tongiht....im excited cuz i havent been with them for like ever!!! anyways havent cut for like a week!! im trying to to for awhile cuz im going to florida! 21 days!! anyways....im going with my friends tonight FINALLY i need some fun.... anyways thoguht id update yall so u can br proud of me for not doing it in like a week, and be happy for me cuz im gonna have some fun which i havent had in awhile.... layter kids.. j nicole Current Mood: cheerful |
| 6:36p | mmm YAY im going to go be with my friends later tongiht....im excited cuz i havent been with them for like ever!!! anyways havent cut for like a week!! im trying to to for awhile cuz im going to florida! 21 days!! anyways....im going with my friends tonight FINALLY i need some fun.... anyways thoguht id update yall so u can br proud of me for not doing it in like a week, and be happy for me cuz im gonna have some fun which i havent had in awhile.... layter kids.. j nicole Current Mood: cheerful |
| 8:42p | Stairway to heaven "And It's Whispered that soon if we all calle the tune, Then the piper will lead us to reason. And a new day will dawn for those Who stand long and the forest will echo with laughter..." -Led Zepplin I want this played at my funeral... |
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