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Sunday, November 28th, 2004

    Time Event
    12:00a
    i dont no what 2 do...
    i just started going out w/ this guy jeff. i dont no if i want 2 tell him that i cut but hes going 2 have 2 find out sooner or later. i dont no if i should just wait until he sees them or tell him. i dont no if i could tell him cuz hes different. but i dont want him 2 b totally shocked when he does. please tell me what i should do, im really stressing over it. thanks in advance.

    Current Mood: confused
    1:05a
    Hmm......
    You know... my cuts itch now that they are healing... is that normal? And I would like to add that I havent cut for a while. I know at least 3 days... but im not sure how long. Yeah, Love you all! XOXO

    -Aimee Kendra Lynn

    Current Mood: blank
    Current Music: -
    11:35a
    A poem by me
    *One cut, two cuts, floor*

    Never love
    Never trust
    Hold your razor
    Slit your wrist

    Never hope
    Never dream
    Hold your razor
    Slit again

    Never fear
    Never breathe
    Close your eyes
    Hit the floor.

    Current Music: Rammstein - Amerika
    7:31p
    Not cool!!
    Oh man the other day i had a meeting with my therapist and i have decided i am going to lie to everyone about my cutting because i am sick of the trouble people cause me about it. But anyways she told me that she talked to my mom and my mom think i cut for attention because my school found out i did on my moms birthday so she thinks that i need attention it wasnt my fault they found out on her birthday like i cut other days not just "special" ones like she think so that really made me mad because i thought that she was understanding but nope back to square one which sucks so im not talking about cutting to her anymore. this sucks.

    Current Mood: pissed off
    Current Music: yellow-coldplay
    9:57p
    hey. my name is bria.. and i've been wanting to join now for a really long time now. just like red_paper_clip, i can say, yes i am lucky in some ways, and compared to some people, my life is good. i've been cutting since 7th grade. my friends knew about it, and when they found out i started up again, and worse than before, they told guidence.. and now im have to go a psyciatrist.. and YES i cut because of a guy, its retarded i know, but its the most pain mentally i have ever felt... he has made my life hell, like he wanted, and manipulated me to the highest extent...i never thought i would actually post and join, cause i wasnt too sure if my pain was as bad as others, but it was time i just tried posting..

    well ill hopefully be back posting whats wrong later because my parents are being retarded and i have to go..
    im always here to talk..
    aim-dimare5b

    -Bria

    Current Mood: ungreatful
    Current Music: stairway to heaven- led zepplin

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