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Thursday, November 25th, 2004
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| 12:00a | this frustrates me so much these people that come in this community just 2 say that we need 2 get over it and put judgements on us need 2 shove it up their asses and mind their own god damn buisness. we did not ask 4 ur opinion there 4 we dont wanna fucking hear it. u have no reason 2 be here. its like u think u no everything, u dont! no 1's life is perfect and every1 copes in a different way and cutting is how we cope. yeah maybe cutting is stupid 2 u but its what we do and it has no effect on ur lives what so ever so there is no need 4 u 2 come in here and put us down like the fucking assholes that u r. w/e keep fucking commenting saying mean hurtful things about people u dont even no. that shows a little bit about what kind of people u guys are. u fucking pieces of shit need 2 just rot in hell. Current Mood:  frustrated |
| 12:15a | Hi, guys. I'm new here. Let's see...I'm a girl...I've cut for two and a half years, with razors, tacks, anything I can find. I also bite myself really, really hard but that doesn't count. I really don't know what else to say about myself... I'm in therapy but I hate it and nothing is being accomplished, except I have another part of my life to dislike...there's nothing that horribly wrong in my life...but I'm depressed all the time and I don't know why...except that everyone hates me...um...I despise doctors...that's all...so anyway... hi, all. Current Mood:  confusedCurrent Music: Flogging Molly |
| 8:58a | ok look, this community if for cutters and if you other people have a problem with what we say then just dont come here! this place if for us to talk about our feelings and try and get help and opinions. so dont tell us we're faggots and we have no life because we cut for attention because we dont! we do it to feel better i know it may seem "gay" to you but thats our lives and its how we work. so leave us the fuck alone this is our territory and its pritty gay of you to come here and insult us. its just shows how low you are that you clearly have no life to be insulting people over their own personal problems. oviously you people out there insulting us have nothing better to do..and more than likely have no friends so you have to go and sit at you computers like fat asses and insult other people....try thinking about that... so in conclusion kids get a life and stop insulting us because its not really doing much more damage...because i bet most of us are used to that anyways...so fuck off Current Mood: annoyed |
| 10:09a | PLEASE ,PLEASE,PLEASE READ!!!!! i REALLY REALLY want to cut!!!!!! scratching dont help rite now..:( .. i cant cut cause i promised a few ppl i wouldnt like greta ( i really good friend) , Miranda (one of my best friends) ,kelsey (a gurl i like) and kayla (another gurl but i love her ) here is a poem i wrote... "You should have loved me, you should have cared, you should have loved me, you should have shared! istead you yelled and made me mad. now im depressed and reelie sad. tomorrow when you wake, ill be gone for ever. this i tell you is so very true. all you had to say was " I LOVE YOU " but now its way to late, for i have a time and date! the world is just to hard for me, i couldnt handle it, couldnt you see? life is too hard to live, it takes to much but never gives! i can hear my heart getting tired, not once have i been admired! so to you i say good-bye, but please for me dont cry!!" is it any good ?? How come almost every one expects or wants something from me ?? Why cant i just be me and ppl be content with it? i need to be friends with ppl who wont judge me, who just want to be friends with me and not expect anythign different!! do any of your friends expect something or want something from you that you are not any more ?? im a bisexual and some of my friends that are gurls diont want to stand next to me or give me hugs.. that makes me feel like shit!!!! i hate it , i hate my life....its hard to explain but here... My life is fallin apart.. its seeping down the drain... im a wast of time,why talk when i know you dont care, dont fake all that with me..plz im depressed enough..im not me,i wanna be me,but ill never be me..every one wants somethin different from me,wat do you want?im fading,deeply fadin,no one cares,no one see's just how much they hurt me or how much im diein each day from all they say to me. im going crazy !!! if any one wants to talk about stuff or anything.. comment this.. or.. IM me on AIM my screen name is .. Craving4RealLuv yours o soo truly . Krista Current Mood:  depressedCurrent Music: somebody told me -- The Killers |
| 6:36p | Ignorance kills ok listen to all you people who keep leaving rude comments. This community is made for us to bitch, complain, talk about our lives, and to heal. Most people on here don't even know each other, so does it really matter if they're open about it here? No. If you have a problem with this community, then just don't read it. Its really as simple as that. We don't waste our time going into communities you belong to talking shit to you, so don't do it to us. I'm sure you'll post more rude comments, go ahead. In the mean time, I'll pray for you. Current Music: in the sun-joseph arthur |
| 7:41p | hmm... hmm, idk just got back from thanksgiving dinner at the g-mas house, sitting here thinking what a mess i am, and the funny thing is....no one knows it, only me. At school, i am the "pretty, smart, popular, badass dancer who sticks up for what she believes", i smile and talk to everyone like nothings going on, but on the inside i feel like im falling apart, nothings going right, and im a HUGE mess....i can't be myself, i have to put on an act, even with my friends. Sure theres the occasional outburst in class about politics or religion that i jus bust out, or the occasional ass kickin of some girl whos making fun on someone that dosent deserve it...other than that everyone things in perfect, that im doing so great and i have so much going for me, i hate it! at home, my mom thinks im just a good kid, she has no time to see whats really going on, i dont complain, i dont ask for much, i do what im told, and thats all that really matters to her, the other part of my family jus thinks im an angel who helps out all the time and has soo many friends and is just so content and happy, same thing at church, same thing at dance practice....I HATE IT !! its like i cant be myself anywhere....i dont even know who myself is.... i called my ex boyfriend (who hates me) and he knew it was me...even tho i called blocked call and he said why are u calling me, stop calling me...i was like omg...idk what i was thinking....i just wanted to hear his voice, i just wanted to talkt o someone that at some point truly made me happy....( i never cut one time the whole 6 months with him) and idk ...now he hates me even more....he called my cell later and left me a message, he was drunk, i have no idea what he was saying :( idk if u wanna talk sometime, about ANYHTING jus im me XxAdiiCTeD2uxX, id like to talk, and im a good listener.... <3 thanks all, reply or im me or somehting later j-nicole Current Mood: stupid Current Music: matchbook romance-tiger lily |
| 8:05p | Hey guys. Things just seem to be getting harder. Today was thanksgiving and EVERYONE and their mother's brother came here. And I cant stand crowds of people even if they are family. I hate it. So I almost freaked out... and then my aunt offered me xanex. :|. NOT cool. Yeah.. so then i went upstairs and popped in UAL. *sigh* Why do they have to be so amazingly talented?? WHY? They can do everything and here i am, talentless waste of life. *sigh* I thought ppl you adore were suppose to inspire you. Not discourage you. Why do i feel so freakin worthless. BLAH. So i picked up my guitar freakin determined that i was going to write a damn song.. and then i gave up bc i know NOTHING about anything about a freakin guitar.. and you cant write a song with just drums. So I'm useless without someone else. Useless drummer. Who cant write a song. And has no freakin talent. AHH. Screw it. Current Mood: bitchyCurrent Music: Rock and Roll Razorblade - Hanson |
| 9:01p | Blood pours from my mouth in a silent scream Tonyght was awful, I just have question after question runnning through my head. I literally feel like I'm falling down and I'm afraid I won't be able to pick myself back up, but we have to act happy for everyone's sake don't we? Isn't that how you play the game? You act happy so no one will bother you. Yeah, I'm getting so good at this game, I bet you I will be able to play this game for a very long time. For some reason I miss David, I don't know why, a part of me misses him. I also miss Adrian, which is odd, because I'm distancing myself from him, I just want us to be friends if that, but I don't know. The person I miss alot right now which is weird, because I saw him last nyght is Adam. I don't know why I miss him so much, but I do. Usually I have to have a break from a guy and not talk to him for a couple of nyghts, but I miss talking to Adam tonyght and I don't know why. -sighs- I wish there was someone I could talk to that I could let this all out, but nobody is here. Sometimes when this happens, I just want to tear at my skin, but I can't. I have a two times a month rule and I have already done it three times this month, I have to wait till Decemeber to get back on track for two times. Its such a weird world we live in isn't it? Oh well, I'm going to go find something to do, try to get ahold of Adam. Current Mood: uncomfortableCurrent Music: The Eagles- Hotel California |
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