Monday, November 1st, 2004

Time	Event
11:52a	my cuts swollen, red, and yellow, and hurts like a bitch. and the funny things, is that i took care of this one, i cleaned it and covered it up. (5 Comments | Comment on this)
2:02p	be nice Ok this community is about support and helping people (mostly cutters- like myself) get through hard times. It is where you share your feelings and you should not be put down. Yeah its ok to disagree- but i have seen a lot of posts lately where people are talking about people who cut in bad ways and putting them down. I am tired of it because thats not why we post, we do not post to have more shit in our lives, but instead we post to have someone that might understand- or just listen for once! So if you come here to make us feel worse or put us down then leave. We have our own reasons for cutting, and if you have never cut and you say somehting bad then i do not see how you could possibly understand a single thing that we are going through, so please lay offf, and no more bad posts, its just more depressing! ~Z Current Mood: angry Current Music: do or die papa roach (1 Comment | Comment on this)
4:13p	so yeah...just wanna say..getting my psychologist for sure...im scared...my mum made fun of me cuz she tried to talk to me and i said i didnt like talking about me, and then she was like well what do you think you will talk about with your psychologist? but yeah...so im getting one...ill keep you updated...all i know is its a she, and i dont know where she got her from...but she got her...i was getting so desperate i was just gonna write a note with the page #s of the psycho peoples and write PICK ONE...but i just...im scared to tell people i have one...scared what people will say... (7 Comments | Comment on this)
4:31p	i want to cut ugh...this sucks. everything sucks. i'm just feeling that way you know what i mean? the guy i like doesn't like me back (what else is new...it happens to me all the time but for some reason...it really hurts this time), my ex-boyfriend seems to enjoy showing me the hickeys that his new girlfriend gave him and i'm totally stressed. i used to be a cutter...the last time i cut was in the summer. i haven't cut since but now i want to more than ever. but i'm a swimmer so it's kinda hard to cover them up. ughhhh! what should i do? (5 Comments | Comment on this)
9:30p	I got this in a book...i think...possibly a magazine. thot it might be helpful...enjoy=) 1. Know you can survive. You may not think so, but you can. 2. Struggle with "why" it happened until you no longer need to know "why" or until you are satisfied with partial answers. 3. Know you may feel overwhelmed by the intensity of your feelings, but all your feelings are normal. 4. Anger, guilt, confusion and forgetfullness are common responses. You are not crazy; you are mourning. 5. Be aware you may feel appropriate anger at the person, at the world, at God, or at yourself. It's okay to express it. 6. You may feel guilty for what you think you did or did not do. Guilt can turn into regret, through forgiving. 7. Having suicidal thoughts is common. It does not mean you will act on those thoughts. 8. Remember to take one moment or one day at a time. 9. Find a good listener with whom to share. Call someone if you need to talk. 10. Don't be afraid to cry. Tears are healing. 11. Give yourself time to heal. 12. Remember, the choice was not yours. No one has the sole infulence of another's life. 13. Expect setbacks. If emotions return like a tidal wave, you may only be experiencing a remnant of grief, an unfinished piece. 14. Try to put off major decisions. 15. Give yourself permission to get professional help. 16. Be aware of the pain of your family and friends. 17. Be patient with yourself and with others who may not understand. 18. Set your own limits and learn to say no. 19. Steer clear of people who want to tell you what or how to feel. 20. Know that there are support groups that can be helpful. 21. Call on your personal faith to guide you through. 22. It is common to experience physical reactions to grief, e.g., headaches, loss of appetite, inabilitly to sleep. 23. The willingness to laugh with others and at yourself is healing. 24. Wear out your questions, anger, guilt or other feelings until you can let them go. Letting go doesn't mean forgetting. 25. Know that you will never be the same again, but you can survive and even go beyond just surviving. <3 love you all sharon (Comment on this)

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