!5 (SaVe us from the PaIn)'s Blurty

poor little girl. you bleed so pretty..
what i wish i could say. -:-

yeah. im not gunna use their real names. so the names are justt made up..

- letss call him matt - .. matt- wow. why did you have to change so much ?! your the only one who knows everything about me.and i mean everything. i never lied to you about anything. except them times during the summer when you asked if i liked you and i said no. but i wasnt exactly lying. i dont like you. i love you. more then anything. i wish you could see that. we went out. broke up. went out again. and broke up again. in less than a month. im so in love with you its crazy, i know i shouldnt let this matter so much to me. but it does. it breaks my heart seeing you change. you were never like this before. you grab (lets just call her ana) ass one time. then you and rudy make a friggen game out of it. thats so not you. not at all. andd she flashes you. im sure you liked that didnt you. andd your looking at _____'s thong... i dont get you. =/ you act the same to me as you always did. and when she comes around you like transform into a person thats not you at all. you call me tonight. like everythings alright. your all fine. while just hearing your voice breaks my heart. its like with everyword, you stomp on my heart another time. maybe tomorrow things will get better after our talk in lunch that we promised eachother we would talk about my anorexia and cutting.

lets call you Aly .. aly - ok. where do i start. i hate you. i thought you were my friend. if a friend is someone who steals your bf away. makes him break up with you. flashes him. and tried to hook up with him while im going out with him. then yeah. your an amazing friend. i mean.. you think im still your best friend. wtf ! first i go out with him.. andd your all over him. sitting on his lap. asking him to hug you. grab your ass everything. you couldnt be any more of a slut. then after you make him break up with me. your happy as fuck. and then today. you flash him !? and expect me to think its funny. you know what i dont give a fucking shit about you. your nothing but a sleazbag slut . and i should have listened to everyone saying i should have nevr been good friends with you. now i know why people warned me. fuck you. thats the one thing im dying to say. fuck you.. i never hated anyone. but * i hate you * i said it ! . and i meant it to. go jump off a fucking cliff. i dont even wanan name you aly. bc aly is a good friend. UNLIKE YOU !

so.. yeah as you might have realizedd. this happened. ill put in an entry later. bc im SO tiredd..

<3 - nicole.

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