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Wednesday, October 20th, 2004
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| 1:43a | hey guys, whats up? I spent all day in downtown chicago... it was pretty fuuuunn. We went to the Art Institute, The Museum of Contemporary Art and the Terra Museum of American Art. It was way cool. My fav though, was in the MCA there were HUGE pics of ppls slit wrists. how weird is that. the artist apparently would only take pictures of the corpes wounds if the coroner could NOT identify them. There were two there and they were pretty. But my mom was kinda grossed out... so i didnt tell her i like them. duh. I wouldnt tell anyone i liked them.... cept u guys... u all seem to understand... anyway.. havent cut in a while... got a new icon. ITS HOT. That dude is my favorite guy in the whoooooooooole world. it looks kinda crappy.... but what is it... the 40KBs limit here is realllllllly smallllll... so i had to make it look shitty so it would fit.. so anyway. Oh well. I'm happy with it... how are ya'll?? Hope you're doing okay. It's 1:30 in the morning... i should prolly go to bed... g,nite all :) |
| 11:08a | Its still me! This is xmelancholyx...i got deleted as well, sadly. So I am basically attempting to keep going. My new name is the same just without the ending X (as you can see from the right)...if you had friended me before, will you friend me again please and thankyous -Special K |
| 12:17p | The people I love....to hate meghanthedancer why the hell would you want an icon with someone self-harming...sheesh....you are either an attention-whore faker or just dont' get it. (Reply to this) (Thread) lostoneinenvy 2004-10-19 09:41 (link) Well lets see i have icons that have people self harming.....I might do it but I have the icons so show people that normal people do it too..Am I an attention whore or a faker? Lets see, I'm neither. I don' know how to deal w/ my emotions like everyone else. I am getting better and so what if the whole world knows it. I rather not be left in the dark b/c of the marks i have created with my hand. Get to know poeple before you make those acusations. and also Fuck you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread) lostoneinenvy 2004-10-19 09:42 (link) One more thing so what if she wants the icon i think its cool. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread) Re: meghanthedancer 2004-10-20 11:44 (link) if you do it, you would rather die than have people find out about it. even when you are recovered. if you WANT people to know, you just want attention. Ha did you read that. I would rather die then have people find out. What the fuck for? I don't care anymore. It seems everytime I do cut and hide it people tend to find out, if i cut and don't hide it no one really notices. Its a win-lose competion here. I don't give a fuck if people do see it. Hell my whole school already knows about it thanks for my little brothers mouth. So guess what people I WANT ATTENTION. God how can people be so cruel and insensitive to others. I want to give a round of applause to meghanthedancer. You found out my secret. Fucking bitch. Current Mood:  pissed off |
| 9:05p | adviceeeee please... soon soon soon :X theres aaa party friday i actually got invited to. my mom said i could go (shes happy i finally got an invitation to a social event). i of course only told the 'host' id go because i was thinking there'd be drugs n shit there. but to tell the truth i dont want that shit anymore. i dont even want to be around it. too tempting. so i told my mom i didnt think i wanted to go anymore. i told her it would be too innappropriate for me and i couldnt even trust myself there. like a minute later, holly calls. she asked me to sleep over friday night.. and said my mom can even call her gramma if she wants to validate it. i was so happy i havent slept over anywhere besides my aunts house since.. god knows when. nobody wants me over ha ha.. and i was all excited and everything and asked my mom if i could sleep over at her house and she immediately retorts with "no shes a senior u cant sleep over there" my mom then went on to say she'd rather have my at the party so my mother, my caretaker, the woman who brought me into this wretched world would RATHER have me go to a drug and alcohol-infested orgy fest INSTEAD of a nice safe sleepover at a girls house where her gramma and grampa willllll be home and everything the only way i can actually make my mom realize how dumb shes being is to tell it like it is.. like i just did in this entry. but i have no tolerance right now and id lay on the sarcasm and frustration.. god.......... advice on specifics ? someoneee Current Mood: angry |
| 9:05p | adviceeeee please... soon soon soon :X theres aaa party friday i actually got invited to. my mom said i could go (shes happy i finally got an invitation to a social event). i of course only told the 'host' id go because i was thinking there'd be drugs n shit there. but to tell the truth i dont want that shit anymore. i dont even want to be around it. too tempting. so i told my mom i didnt think i wanted to go anymore. i told her it would be too innappropriate for me and i couldnt even trust myself there. like a minute later, holly calls. she asked me to sleep over friday night.. and said my mom can even call her gramma if she wants to validate it. i was so happy i havent slept over anywhere besides my aunts house since.. god knows when. nobody wants me over ha ha.. and i was all excited and everything and asked my mom if i could sleep over at her house and she immediately retorts with "no shes a senior u cant sleep over there" my mom then went on to say she'd rather have my at the party so my mother, my caretaker, the woman who brought me into this wretched world would RATHER have me go to a drug and alcohol-infested orgy fest INSTEAD of a nice safe sleepover at a girls house where her gramma and grampa willllll be home and everything the only way i can actually make my mom realize how dumb shes being is to tell it like it is.. like i just did in this entry. but i have no tolerance right now and id lay on the sarcasm and frustration.. god.......... advice on specifics ? someoneee Current Mood: angry |
| 9:44p | One of these days, you're ging to actually want to talk to me, but I'm not going to be there. I'll be too busy with my other friends, and I'll try to make you feel as if you're not as important as them, like you so often do to me. If I see you somewhere, I'll mutter a quick hello and hug you, but then I'll run off to hang out with someone cooler and more popular, just so you feel like you're not good enough anymore. And then, you'll know how I feel. You only moved about ten miles away, not ten hours, so why is this happening? It's not like you're not keeping in touch with everyone, it's mainly just me you're not talking to anymore. Maybe it's because I'm just not as popular as most of your other friends. I tought you were different than the rest of the so-called popular crowd, and that you would still be friends with me, even if I wasn't exactly popular, skinny, and preppy, bit I guess I was wrong. You were my best friend, I trusted you completely, you told me the same. But I'm not good enough for you anymore, and your personality has changed. So, now I've found some better friends, ones that won't desert me for popularity. And to remind me always of you, I'll carve your name into my skin. I hope you're happy. Current Mood: bitchy |
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