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Wednesday, December 31st, 2003
| Time | Event |
| 1:28a | Hi, I just joined and thought I would share what I have done to myself...if thats ok.,,feel free to ask me anything about them if you wish. ( Read more... ) |
| 8:45a | yesterday i went 2 my moms job, it was alright. im so fucking tired... i dun kno if car wants 2 talk 2 me or not, she never commented... im not doin anything 4 new yr.... im fucking sad as hell, i want 2 cut but my mom keeps lookin at me adn every day she asks 2 see my wrist... i dun like that, i wish she'd leave it alone... its body art, so what if it has sum emotion behind it, its like piercing or gettin a tattoo or h/e its spelled... i feel as life car's cutting because of me, that makes me feel like shit...it makes me want 2 cut... i feel so fat and ugly... i dont get 2 see my girl brittany 2day which pisses me off... as much as im mad at car for taking pat, im so over it cause it was months ago, i feel horrible 4 putting her tho so much shit... its really all my problem, i shouldnt make it hers...err! i feel like i have no 1 to talk 2, has any 1 ever been in this postion? i feel so alone... i shud shut up... i hate my self... i wanna die Current Mood:  moroseCurrent Music: staind- epiphany |
| 2:57p | so yesterday me n my dad went to life styles agen and then i needed sum id w/ my b-day on it so today i finally got my lip peirced!!!!!!!!!! woot! ive got to wash it out like after i do anything w/ my mouth lol, well im starving, so im gonna try and find some food so ill ttyl! happy new yrs everyone |
| 3:08p | Happy New Years Eve Today Angie came over, We are chillin riight now and later we are going out to dinner and then to the mall. Then we are going back to her house and party. We are gonna get sashed. I wish i had som e weed, buh i promised Kyle that i would TRY to stop smokeing. I love smoking weed...it is SO awsome...being high is the best...o-wellz. thatz about it. i hope everyone hase a FUN new years eve!!! talk to ya next year! *sqeek* =) <333 -maygin Current Mood:  amusedCurrent Music: moivee: Girl, Inturruped |
| 6:43p | so yesterday i went shopping with lauren and her sister. me and lo had fun. well at least i did. she came over before hand. we played DDR. it was kool. well i got a few items at H&M.. two shirts and a mimi skirt right. so i went home and my mom asked to see what i bought. so i was like puttin stuff on and lettin her see cos she wanted to make sure it was "inapporpriot" or "too demon-ish" [she htinks im a devil worshiper cos i occasioannly shopa t hot topic and she says i dont dress like the majority of the youth in america so im a freak] o well.. but i put on this one outfit. its a black off the shoulder sweater and the mini skirt. so the mini skirt is REALLY shirt. like UBER short. and the thing she bitches to me about is the shirt. so she make sme go in and see my dad so he can ream me out. and all along im like well i dont gotta wear a shirt at all.. or [my way of egtting to wear some less "excentric" stuff aka- a little hoey i say everyone else wears it. my mom wants me t be normal. so sometimes it works.. lol] so i played that ittle card. and then my dad called me a tramp. he was like.. god kayla your sucha tramp what the fuck how could yoiu even think abotu going out inot public with that skirt. i was smart and didnt compare it to the skirt. but it pissed me off that he called me that. i mean. WHAT THE HELL!? i wanted to cry. so whatever. then i spilled my guts to a few people. i had a panic attack. then lo bailed on me when i called her freaking out. and i didnt know what to do. i hadnt had a panic attack in ages and i really needed to talk to her. ;'[ o well. cant change it now but i mean... oh nvm.. so then i went to sleep.. well.. went to my room and layedon my bed thinking wiht my eyes shut so everyone just though ti was alseep cos i didnt asnwer them wehn they asked me shit cos my music was up and i couldnt hear. worked for me. got to sleep around 3 er 4.. 430 at the latest. and my dad woked me at like 8 yelling at me. i couldnt sleep after that. bastard. o well. im gunna go.. Current Mood: so shitty Current Music: something corporate [x] she paints me blue |
| 8:41p | hmm..well I cut today..i dont know why..hmm..its not big..its less then an inch..my boyfriend and I broke up.. He hurt me to much..but I have a boyfriend..he is great..his name is Joe and he is really sweet..I love him! hmm well GINABINA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! I am sorry for EVERYTHING..your a great person! Current Mood:  boredCurrent Music: ::At the drive in:: ::Honest to fault:: |
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