Thursday, December 11th, 2003

Time	Event
12:49p	im at school in the library... ugh it was deserted but now a bunch of grose people are here... well today was fun auctually, i skipped first and second with chuckles, shaina and terese.. we went to taco bell and just drove around. We didnt get caught though bbecause we made up a story that our bus didnt come to our stop, so we were excused.. thats fricken awlsome. Im doing research on anorexia nervosa... haha i could write a whole damn book, i dont need to do research but i dont want to go to class.. im gunna pretend to take notes. My mother promised me she wouldnt look through my stuff anymore, lets see how long that will last. I hate when people stare at you funny, like your not suppose to be where you are, ya know? welp thats all folks. I'll post later kiddies. <3 :: Kat :: Current Mood: annoyed (Comment on this)
1:23p	Fade away im feeling so alone....... theres no place to run or hide....... everywhere where i go..... i find my heart is laughing at me... tempted by the greed...... have no self control......... only wanna be with you but your not there......... and you dont care........ so i find myself surrounded by blood starring at the picture of you in my mind breaking down how i thought that iwas im no longer here im just a face with an ugly mask how can i drown out this pain.......... how can i stop screaming your name.... how can i ever make you see....... all the emptiness thats inside of me...... i just wanna lay down my head....... and fade away.......... but to you i am already gone cant take this life cant handle this pain cant stop this blade from ripping thru my veins i cant do it again be turned away but i know that ill never get what i want no matter how much i plead or beg im a fucking disease im a fucking disgrace and when i die all you will see is a dark shadow thats becoming my face guess ill just fade away.................. Current Mood: cold Current Music: murderdolls (5 Comments | Comment on this)
5:46p	My mom knos that i have been taking her money and smoking pot. She has knida known for a while but now she really knos. Like what she thgought was true. She is so mad at me idon;t kno what to do. I'm kinda scared. My mom really scares me somethings. I dont kno what to do , she wants her money right now that i just spent and i told her i lent to it someone andshe doesn't beleive me. :-( To make things were evrything else is shit. I am so sad, its like i'm not depressed but i'm sad. I wanna cut so bad but i just seem to not be able too. I wish i kno what was wrong wiht me. My friends don't even seem like they care when i tell them something not good at home and if i am just sad. No one fuckin cares, School is horrible and i need a job. but i am going to califorina in like 10 days. YAy thats the only good thing and i am getting like 200$. I am going shopping in Las Vegas. sorry to bother with my bullshit. I hope everybodies alive and well. :0) Current Mood: high Current Music: Cold Stupid Girl (1 Comment | Comment on this)

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