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Saturday, November 15th, 2003
| Time | Event |
| 8:58a | sooner or later its over i so sick of bein fat..and me friends tell me im not but whatever...i started sticking my finger down my throat and puking everything back up a couple days ago and they just say ill wind upp in the hospital but whatever..ill do what i want to.. -spike Current Mood:  calmCurrent Music: alkaline trio [x] emma |
| 10:22a | my kittie woke up today.. and found out my kitty died. ;' [ i loved her. and it sounds so dumb im upset over a cat but i am. cos she was MY kittie.. this sucks. Current Mood:  sadCurrent Music: blink 182 [x] feeling this |
| 10:23a | my kittie so guys.. its me kayla.. again.. with ANOTHER new blurty.. [forgotten_kiss, or die_shaking] so yes.. new blurty name.. woke up today.. and found out my kitty died. ;' [ i loved her. and it sounds so dumb im upset over a cat but i am. cos she was MY kittie.. this sucks. so im all sad about my kittie daisy. ;' [[ o well... read my blurty if u want info on anything else.. cos i dont feel like typing it again.. sorry.. Current Mood: sadCurrent Music: something corporate [x] konstantine |
| 10:23a | my kittie so guys.. its me kayla.. again.. with ANOTHER new blurty.. [forgotten_kiss, or die_shaking] so yes.. new blurty name.. woke up today.. and found out my kitty died. ;' [ i loved her. and it sounds so dumb im upset over a cat but i am. cos she was MY kittie.. this sucks. so im all sad about my kittie daisy. ;' [[ o well... read my blurty if u want info on anything else.. cos i dont feel like typing it again.. sorry.. Current Mood: sadCurrent Music: something corporate [x] konstantine |
| 11:30a | happy birthday to me :D well...i just wanted to say i hope that you are all doing well... :)...today is my birthday so you better be :p...im still in the hospital x( but thats okay...im having fun...acting like im a secret agent...got in trouble for crawling on the floor...the nurse said id rip my stitches...but that would happen in the flipping stage...im not into the flipping stage...only the crawling close to walls...like the lil secret agent i am! but i hope you are all doing well.... -tara- |
| 1:14p | ...2 vicoden... 0. Do you cut? yeah almost every day 1. Who do you hide SI from? Everyone 2. Who knows about it? my friends 3. How long has it been since you last cut? yesterday 4. Have you ever tried to commit suicide before? yes 5. Where do you usually cut? my forearm and stomach and legs 6. When you cut, who's usually the first to find out? jax or kara 7. What's your worst experience with a fresh cut? i got hi in gym and my leg stared to bleed again and the school managed to find out 8. Do you have a fascination with scabs? no 9. Do you like scars, yes or no? sometimes.. 10. Do you name your razor? nope 11. What other methods of SI do you use? puke,break bones(someimes),burn,bruise 12. Do you dislike the term "self mutilation"?n kinda 13. What various ways do you use to hide cuts? wesweat shirt, long sleeves,long socks,pants 14. Once cuts heal, do you still hide the scars? no 15. Ever been institutionalized/hospitalized for SI'ing? yea 16. Do you ever run into problems with hiding cuts (i.e: gym change rooms)? no 17. What's the best part about cutting to you? i like the feeling of blood running down my arm/leg..i like blood..and pain 18. Do you know of any songs that talk about SI? yes 20. What instrument do you use to cut? razors,knife,safteypin 21. What causes you to cut? everything..just life in general 22. What do you feel afterwards? i cry..or sometimes im happy 23. What is your closest Close Call? after my grandparents found out i was cuttin..like a month after he asked to see my arms and i thought he was gonna relize new scars but he din.. 24. How long have you been doing it? 4 yrs 25. Do you keep a razor in your bag? in my wallet 26. Ever needed stitches for a cut so deep? no 27. Do you have someone like a therapist you talk to regularly? yeh..ehh..im forced to 28. Are your parents divorced? never married Current Mood:  angryCurrent Music: transplants [x] dimonds and guns |
| 5:45p | *BeLoVeD* * * * * * * Well, as I said b4...my mom is aware of my cutting. She's not mad, just confused on why I do it Yet, she is very supportive. She calls me from work to see if I'm ok, she has been very affectionate with me I'm very happy about that, but at the same time I'm not See, the thing is that now that she knows I dont know what to do about the anxiousness for cutting I so want to cut right now, but I'm afraid of letting my mom down I did cut my wrist yesterday, made 5 nice clean slashes and that made me feel so much better But I really really need to cut right now I know I can cut on my legs, chest, but it wont be the same as on my wrists, arms Im so confused, frustrated, stressed, I dont know what to do ::DarK:: * * * * * * Current Mood:  anxiousCurrent Music: *VNV-BeloveD* |
| 6:43p | x.X Im in aruba riight now...im having a really good time...i have not wanted 2 cut yett....mybe things are getting better..i dont remember a day going by werr i have nah wanted 2 cut....2day is like the first =] woo hoo *maygin* Current Mood:  bouncyCurrent Music: ALL THERR IS IN ARUBA IS SPANISH RAP! x.X |
| 8:00p | hey well i wanna stop cutting bad but while other people are happy that i didnt cut for awhile i get depressed and when i cut i get happy but then my friends get mad at me. Blah they dont make sense. But anyway i did just cut a little while ago because monday is my birthday and its gona suck so much just because i wanna be able to enjoy it and i KNOW something bad is gona happen. Just because lately everyday is a bad day. But any way i didnt post just to whine to u guys I am going to make a promise to myself that i wont cut for one week at all since everytime i cut now i keep thinking "deeper cut deeper" and i guess i just really need to stop so im not saying for ever, ya gotta start little right? So in a week ill tell ya'll what happened! wish me luck! and thanks if ya read my whining haha -Your Not So Precious Mabel- Current Mood: crappyCurrent Music: marilyn manson - Dead God |
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