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Sunday, November 9th, 2003
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| 12:07a | hi... im new to this community. i have been cuttin for about a month and a half. i kno im juss a beginner but already im addicted. its a bad habit that i wish i could give up but i dont see that happening netime soon. if i would have listened when ppl told me not to then i wouldnt have this problem but no i juss had to kno what it felt like, so... well thats how i started. when im running that blade through my skin and im thinkin about it i dont have time to think about ne thing else, ne of the other stupid shit happening in my life.. everything juss leaves my mind. and for a few seconds i dont feel nething at all... thats why i do it. well neways thanx for letting my take up space and bore others with my problems. now i betta get to bed or ill never be able to get up in the morning... l8z ~kris~ Current Mood:  drainedCurrent Music: breaking the habit ~ linkin park |
| 9:51a | nothing can stop me. nothing can hurt me now. hey kids. i made my decision. on monday, not sure what period, my boyfriend and i are going to guidance. i'm spilling out my heart to her. everything. cutting, ODing, i'm telling her all of it. and i want her to call my parents. and i want to be SENT AWAY. gradual therapy DOESN'T DO IT for me. i've already gone through that. and i need help. i'm scared about my report card cos my parents are going to flip out on me, and send me to a different school. and i have no excuse except for my cutting. kris (boyfriend) and i talked about it for a long time at his house on friday. and this is all i have left. i am REALLLLLLYYY fucking scared but i think i can do it. i'll post and tell you where they're sending me. until then, goodbye everyone...wish me luck. <3 julie Current Mood:  scaredCurrent Music: NIN x I Do Not Want This |
| 12:38p | im so sick of being depressed. i hope damon falls of the edge of the earth. i hope i fall too. yeh. im done. |
| 7:36p | grr... im gettin really sick and tired of my family. my mom doesnt give a shit unless its sumtin that effects her sleeping or talking to the man that fucked up my family. (if u really care to kno more about this asshole read my blurty in about 30 mins). my lil sister is really really gettin on my nerves. i think she needs to be sent away. i wish i could juss run away. i wish i could go somewhere where no1 would find me. i wish i could cry... i think that if i could juss let go and cry for hours and hours maybe i wouldnt feel the way i do. i often think of giving up on everything, school, my family, the few friends that i have, and life. maybe it would be easier to die then live in hell. no1 would miss me. i would juss be one less person ppl would have to worry about. no what am i thinkin i dont have the guts to kill myself... well ill try not to do nething too stupid l8rz ~kris~ Current Mood:  pissed offCurrent Music: easier to run~ linkin park |
| 10:14p | Hi Okay... You all ignored my last post... Yay, go me... Anyway... Right now I'm feeling like hurting myself... Here's the story... and no, this isn't my reason most of the time... I've been going out with this guy for over a year and half, but I want him to be... just a friend, but I can't just hurt him like that... and one guy that likes my best friend is the one that I REALLY like... and he's... I dunno... he says in his that he's head over heels for her, and I'm head over heels for HIM. I have been for ages... But I don't want to hurt my boyfriend... Help? |
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