Wednesday, October 22nd, 2003

Time	Event
7:05a	"you break my heart into a thousand pieces because you say I deserve better?" i haven't updated here in a while.. so i suppose I will. I haven't cut in almost a week. but yesterday in math, my two friends were being *REALLY* annoying and rude. see.. the math teacher, is really weird and nobody even bothers to pay attention and we're all really rude to him and always ask random questions out of no where (i.e. we're talking about algebra and someone might scream out, "DO YOU LIKE 50 CENT?") i was really trying to pay attention, but i realized how hard it must be for him. we're really mean to him. he's probably almost 40 and i doubt this is how he dreamed of spending his life when he was a kid. it made me sad. i wanted to go to the bathroom and cut.. but that morning i was in a rush and didn't throw a safetypin into my pocket. so i just sat there digging my fingernails into my wrists. it didn't even make a scratch. and i have a question... what do you all use to cut? Current Mood: tired Current Music: the used - noise and kisses (10 Comments | Comment on this)
3:34p	oy. im just going to make this simple for myself, instead of re-typing all of it im copy pasting. justicedenied16: some one took 11 of my brothers ridelin type pills *he has ADD* CrusifiedDragon: uh huh justicedenied16: and the same thing happend last month only some one took 14 CrusifiedDragon: oh k? justicedenied16: yeh, so my mom is all freaking out justicedenied16: and now me n my sisters have to go get blood tests to see who is takin them justicedenied16: *we all think its carly, which wouldn't suprise neone* justicedenied16: so either some one is taking them themselves, or taking them and giving/selling them CrusifiedDragon: i see justicedenied16: yeh fun no? CrusifiedDragon: sounds like it CrusifiedDragon: you think carly is taking them ? or sellin them? justicedenied16: it wouldnt suprise me justicedenied16: shes being quite the rebelious one lately justicedenied16: she fights w/ everyone justicedenied16: my mom n her have screaming fights, then my dad joins in and screams at carly then carly screams at him and its just this ring of fights CrusifiedDragon: i see justicedenied16: yeh, one of these days im gonna punch carly in the face and say grow up. CrusifiedDragon: yea sounds good justicedenied16: i mean she's already grounded cuz she was an hr. late commin home, then got grounded even longer cuz she was fighten w/ my parents over it, and me n her got grounded *me only a day, her an extra day* and her english teacher caleed today justicedenied16: n its just like oy. justicedenied16: *called anyone want a sister????? please! shes for freee!!!!! give in to that temptation! you know you want her! but amazingly i haven't cut through this whole ordeal, i havent' cuz since me n carly got into the fight on sunday, well yeh i cut on monday but not since...idk im weird, if i have cuts i wont normally cut til there all gone and healed, unless something else comes up...idk im odd like that. so yeh, im gonna go find sumthin to do...so ill ttyl Current Mood: distressed (Comment on this)
5:25p	i know im always complaining here but i feel like i cant even express myself on my blurty anymore because i was just called a fake and i do it for sympathy. no one is really helping me and i dont care. it just brought my self esteem down even lower and i cut again.... and i havent done it in a while and i was on a streak but it seems i slipped and fell once again... i hate this.. and im sorry im always complaining... i have nothing else to do with my life but say how i feel even though no one agrees with me anyway (4 Comments | Comment on this)

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