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Friday, October 10th, 2003
| Time | Event |
| 12:16a | endless pain.......... how could you do this break open my soul then open my heart and make me lose all control wrapped me around you when you know all of my pain i thought you would heal my heart no more clouds no more rain but hear i am hurting deep inside my soul i want to keep cutting i have no control how could you do this when you looked me in the eyez and promised you were real no lies no disguise i told you i was broken begged you not to hurt me deep inside and now ive got this razor blade and all i want to do is die i guess its all my fault for thinking i had something that was real and yet again im bond and broken laying hear numb and ill am i not what you want i guess im not as good as she and now im beating my self in the head thinkn you would love me for me i guess im just the loser im used to being second place i hate myself for falling for you and cant stand that shes taking my place you promised you were different not like all the other men i guess i should have already known your all the same in the end. |
| 6:43a | im trapped and useless.. weak and torn. i feel like im being smothered by somethings i wish i had. like talking to joe. hes so moved on from me if he ever even liked me. john with his girlfriend. Will never mentioning me anymore and he ignores me whenever we see eachother in town. adam flirting with one of my close "friends" from school, and than i have to hear her brag to me about it. tyson [from all american rejects] has a gf. and he was my dream lover. blaah. ok maybe the last one sounded stupid. but every little feeling counts. i feel sick...lm gunna vomit. blah john just IMed me. i gotta get ready for school but i just feel suffocated. few days ago i saw a concert in the city and it was fucking awesome. music is my savior... my release from reality besides cutting. if i met up with bands once every month, id be fine. i wouldnt need anyone. just music. but right now... i really dont know anymore. these feelings inside cant get any worse. Current Mood:  blah |
| 5:29p | Guys, considering the fact that this community has no maintainer anymore, do you want me to make a new one and we can use it and keep it updated instead? Let me know, because I can! |
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