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Tuesday, October 7th, 2003
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| 4:13a | Everyone.. Hey everyone... before I head off to bed, I wanted to tell everyone to download the video for "Numb" by Linkin Park, or just pay attention if you ever see it. It's an awesone song first off, and second off, pay attention the girls arm. She cuts. I just thought it was interesting that it's more like, in the public eye now, ya know? Yeah.. so.. go download it if you want to.. -Mary Current Mood:  accomplished |
| 7:52p | sorry i've been a while. with school and practice and volenteering and homecoming preparations and everything, life has been just stressful. i just wanted to update seeming as i am in a ranting type of mood. earlier on in the week i was online working out homecoming plans and i was ever so excited when i get this instant message from this girl that i dont really know. i mean, i know of her, i know who she is, but she had never talked to me before. anyway, she just introduced herself, and she told me that she wanted to talk. the only reason why i knew of this girl was because she has been on and off dating one of my closest friends for a while. she told me that my friend, the one that she had been on and off with, had died. of course i didnt beleive her. but then... things started to peice together, everything that she said was true, and i just... i broke down. i slit my wrists, i cried, i screamed, i broke things. i was so close to letting go and not coming back. then, i get back online, thinking half-heartedly that it would be my last time, and she laughs, tells me that it was all just an elaborate joke, and that i'm too gullable. she said that she wanted to see my reaction, see if i really loved him like she did, she was jealous because he loved me and never kept a relationship with her because of it. "would you feel bad if i died?" i asked her, "probobly, just because it would hurt him a lot i guess, hehe" she replied. "let's find out" i said and signed off. i wanted to go through with it, just to make her feel bad. as you can see i didnt but... let's just say that it was cutting it close. j |
| 9:26p | well.... life juss down right sux the relationship my matt & i have isn't gunna last. the relationship nova & i have isn't gunna last. all bcuz i have crushs on other people. i can't help it they're both beautiful people. all 4 of them are beautiful!!! ugh idk..... i got so super depressed today in spanish... then in physics.... then in band.... then all thru lunch.... ugh idk any more. i got great friendz tho... today in band, chris pulled me out & pulled me into the drum closet & talked to me about for like 15 min. it wuz great... i still wuz depressed... but happy he cared g2g much love i guess Current Mood:  depressedCurrent Music: the used |
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