brie's Blurty

Subject:	im so sick of people telling me what to do.
Time:	10:56 am.
Mood:	sad.
Music:	sublime : what i got.

im SO sick of people telling me what to do. im my own person, and people shouldnt tell me what to do. im old enough to make choices for myself. so, here i am.. stuck at my uncle's house. with nothing to do but watch my cousins and hear my mom bitch at me. i didnt even want to fucking come here. and then my uncle tells me that im going to great america with him, ally, and jonathan. (ally n jonathan r my little cousins, ally is 5.. jonathan is 3?). and he only wants me to go so he wont have to watch them. im not a fuking babysitter. and on top of everything else.. just to make my life worse.. kayla is gone till sunday. she called last nite .. but i didnt answer the phone in time. she made me promise a few times that i wont kill myself. and i know she doesnt want me to cut.. but im still gonna cut.

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Subject:	some friend..
Time:	11:11 am.
Mood:	depressed.
Music:	the sound of my crying.

i just thought of something that really brought me down. my "friend" called me not last nite, but the nite before, and was just a fuking asshole. i nvr showed/told n e one i cut other then kayla, jen, and zack. my mom and sister know.. but yea. ok my "friend" who called me name is allison. and she was like "omg brie. im so sick of your crap. why dont you go and cut.. its what your damn good at!" i had no idea she .. knew.. about me cutting. i never told her, or showed her. after she said that i hung up. but i have no idea why she'd say that. she knows that kind of crap brings me down and hurts me. and its not like she doesn't understand n e thing i'm going thru. she 100% does. she used to b like this.. and i helped her out of it. now what does she do when i need her? she makes it worse. so much worse.

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