This is how entertaining night school is. We ate absolute shit tonight. Moses Christ! Oh, well. At least Kat and Dana entertained me. Read this shit:
my GF goes to UF: how dare u talk back to me w/out getting me a date
my GF goes to UF: !
Wounds Revived: (i'm not talking)
my GF goes to UF: mhhm
my GF goes to UF: well, dont type to me like that!
Wounds Revived: fine!
Wounds Revived: *runs to room and locks herself in*
my GF goes to UF: angelica katherine gonzalez gandolff mills zuckerman!
my GF goes to UF: u get back here this instant!
Wounds Revived: *slowly emerges*
Wounds Revived: yes ma'am?
my GF goes to UF: dont u dare turn ur back on me!
my GF goes to UF: u had to find ur mommie a mommie for banquet
Wounds Revived: i didn't! i backwards marched
my GF goes to UF: and did u? nooooooo
my GF goes to UF: no backwards marching
Wounds Revived: it's not my fault i only talk to nayfe and rollie pollie ollie
my GF goes to UF: lmao
my GF goes to UF: lmfaggotao
my GF goes to UF: bueno, u have to make friends!
Wounds Revived: yes! me, the scary lesbian mexican chilid, make friends wif gabelettes!
my GF goes to UF: it's not so hard
my GF goes to UF: and u r not scary
my GF goes to UF: confidence child confidence
Wounds Revived: yes it is!! look how long it took me to integrate into the band
my GF goes to UF: not long at all!
Wounds Revived: you lie!
my GF goes to UF: i dont@!
Wounds Revived: it wasn't until recent did i start going places with you people!
my GF goes to UF: silence!
my GF goes to UF: but u always talked to us!
Wounds Revived: so?! i was just the new kid!
my GF goes to UF: and?
my GF goes to UF: u kept talking to us'
Wounds Revived: who the hell else am i going to talk to?
my GF goes to UF: the gablettes!
Wounds Revived: yes, because i looooove talking with happy people on crack
Wounds Revived: i can only take a few of those
my GF goes to UF: lmfaggotao
PunkyPicc: i cant talk to you tomorrow
my GF goes to UF: i know
my GF goes to UF: sucks for u
PunkyPicc: me?
PunkyPicc: u mean u
PunkyPicc: cant enjoy my wonderful conversation
PunkyPicc: :-)
my GF goes to UF: oh my god!
my GF goes to UF: thank u for senior snob day
my GF goes to UF: i wont have to listen to you
my GF goes to UF: u mean it?
my GF goes to UF: this is a blessing
my GF goes to UF: not a punishment
PunkyPicc: u know what
PunkyPicc: u know ur going to miss me
my GF goes to UF: what?
PunkyPicc: u know you are going to miss me
PunkyPicc: u love me
my GF goes to UF: not really
Anywho, my day. Funfun. I think I actuallu passed today's math test, I'm shocked. Then n 4th Tawonia and I made a list of my"lovers", haha. She was SO off. Whatever, then Maritza walked in...awesome.
Ay, so yesterday was the run through for the concert, the "dress rehearsal"...whatever.
We got to play on a stage for the first time in like...ever. It was fun, but we didnt get to play any of the endings of the songs, which are my favorite parts. Anywho, we pulled out the names for secret Santa(The Great Pumpkin). I got Jeffy and I thought of the perfect present for him. But the stupid lesbian puerto rican puta bitch lei-idiot put my name in twice, and didn't take the right names out for the people who weren't going. So today we had to do the whole shit all over again, but now I'm in charge; so ha. I already bought Jeff his present, so I'm going to coincidentally pull his name out tommorrow. Lol, I'm evil.
Anywho, so the Gablettes are performing "Christmas Wrapping" for the holiday show. Yay! I win! I started a topic on it on denden, and a golden girl responded talking about how the 2 dancelines were rivals, but since they are doing an sg song they are ok. Lol, the Gablettes are awesome!
So, i go on the VH1 website to see the next time Behind the Music: Spice Girls is going to be on.
It says:
Thursday, December 11
7/6c PM
I think, great, it's at night, I have nothing to do...oh wait...
The Mother Fucking Holiday Spectacular is that day...at that time...FUCKIN' PEACHY!
If anyone can remember to record it, please help me...my VCR is fucked up...
You will live in Shack.
You will drive a White BMW X3.
You will marry Maggie and have 7 kids.
You will be a Band Director in London, England
http://www.playmash.com
7 kids...well, that's Dare, Briana, Adam, Leilani, Luke and um...Maggie Jr. and "T" Jr.?
Serious issues.
I'm such a loser I can't even believe it sometimes.
Leilani, one of my closest "friends", my role model, "my precious", makes fun of me with her senior friends today.
I don't blame her. I'm a horrible person. I'm a loser. I can never be as cool or as talented as Matt. People will never like me the way that they like him. He's semi-smart, cute, funny, talented, charasmatic...things that I could never be...cuz I'm too much of a loser. I hate being jealous...but sometimes it just comes down to that. I hate it cuz, he's my best friend...and he's a good friend. He's never done me wrong...or done anybody wrong. And I'm just the stupid bitch that keeps fucking up everybody's life, including my own. I hate being "T", I can't stand the way people look at me, I can't stand the reputation I've made for myself, I can't stand that I'm so damn lazy and stupid, and I can't stand the fact that I have to compare myself to Matt every single day of my life and know that I could never be the person he is. I can get close...but I can never get there...
When I left for group today, he made a face cuz I was leaving and was mad because I wasn't rehearsing with the band. I have him for 5th and 6th period. He never made a big deal when Kat left by herself. He didn't make a big deal when I told him Matt would be late to jazz band cuz he had Chorus practice.
After school(at Jazz Band practice), Shep told me I was dragging when I made a fill. It was 1 of the only 2 negative comments directed today, the other one was made to Jessica. He said it in front of Alfredo, too.
Alfredo drove me home today, too. As we were backing out he smiled at Maggie, who was sitting in her car.
Again, I'm the laughing stock of the Gablettes...
"I have issues man, i think I need some counseling..."
Random fact: Mel B has a new girlfriend that looks like Ms. Lowell...dammit...more Gablette shit again.
On Saturday, I went to go see "The Missing" with my Dad.
Guess what the main character's name was? Maggie!
So, as u can tell, I enjoyed the movie. I saw Marvin and Amanda there and apparently Pat was there too at Wendy's...with Tony...
Anyways, my Dad bought me 2 CD's, Melanie C-Melt+Yeh Yeh Yeh and *NSYNC-U Drive me Crazy. I love the *NSYNC song cuz it has a little rap in it and I think that it's very cute...hehe. The Mel C single came with the Yeh Yeh Yeh video on it and a poster...
I FUCKING LOVE THE SPICE GIRLS!
Then on Sunday I went to Peachy's house to see "Finding Nemo." I didn't want to see it cuz I didn't think I would like it...but it was SUCH a good movie! I loved how he got in trouble for skipping with the octopus(Danny) and I also love the obnoxious fish(Dana the 'Phish')!
Later we went to Best Buy and I bought an *NSYNC CD, No Strings Attached; and a pack of Big Red(KIVY!). Another awesome CD.
So, that was my extended weekend...funfun, huh?
Random Fact: Melaine C's audition for the SG4 was "I'm so excited."
Yeah, so...I'm home. We went to downtown tonight in our band jackets, like the bunch of band dorks that we are. We made friends with this long yellow snake (who I wasn't afraid of) and then we passed by a funhouse (which I was terrified of). Anyways, I had some churros and drank an ungodly amount of Pepsi .
After the little fair, or whatever the fuck it was at downtown(complete with the ghetto christmas tree and decorative palm trees you can only find in Miami), we went to Bayside. I don't know why, we just went there and made fun of some cheerleaders that were like 5 years old...and one of them was fat. Then we heard some fat lady sing "I Will Survive", made fun of Dana and Lei's noses, made fun of Dana's voluptuous body at Victoria's Secret, and had a southern accent contest between me and Ghost.
Sounds like the perfect night right?
Wrong.
On the way back to Lei's house I get told that I'm the reason the whole friggin' band is gay.
Thats right.
Cuz of my flambouyant ass everybody and they're fucking mother decides to come out. Well excuse me for excepting who I fucking am and not being afraid to show it. At least I'm not a coward like most other band losers, who are too fucking afraid to speak out on who they are. At least I'm not a fucking follower who is gay just because it's the new trend in society. I'm not the reason our band fell apart. Believe it or not, I always have to pick up the pieces to my life thats constantly being shattered by the people surrounding our band. Think about it. Before we met people like Robin and Yami and Ish, we never had this drama. We would have never gone to things like gay prom, or found the means of getting drunk or high, or have the influences of "bad people". I'm not trying to personaly bash any of them, after all Yami is my kid, but I'm just saying, before you start busting out accusations, perhaps you should take a look at yourself and you're so-called friends and see all the damage ya'll have caused before you point the finger at anyone.
And oh yeah, dont try telling me I'm too flambouyant either, you all sound like a bunch of band parents, tired and ignorant.
I'm here at Lei's house now with Matthew and Lei's family. Were going to go on an adventure on the metrobus/ metrorail/ metro mover. Were going to go to downtown and...it's Dana. Singing the milkshake song. And talking about Chris, and her mom is cooking, and she wants to smack Lei...Anyways, were gonna watch them light the tree. lei's computer keeps on doing random shit...Damn pop ups. Changing subjects, my grandma's gonna try to get my Dad to send me to NC for Christmas, so I'm crossing my fingers. And um...Happy Turkey Left-over Day!
PITY FOR A DIME-Creed
An artificial season
Covered by summer rain
Losing all my reason
Cause there's nothing left to blame
Shadows paint the sidewalk
A living picture in a frame
See the sea of people
All their faces look the same
So I sat down for a while
Forcing a smile
In a state of self-denial
Is it worthwhile
Sell my pity for a dime
Just one dime
Sell my pity for a dime
Just one dime
Plain talk can be the easy way
Signs of losing my faith
losing my faith
Plain talk can be the easy way
Signs of losing my faith
losing my faith
So I sat down for a while
Forcing a smile
In a state of self-denial
Is it worthwhile
Sell my pity for a dime
Just one dime
Sell my pity for a dime
Just one dime
Sellin, sellin my pity for dime
and another man take my soul
So I sat down for a while
Forcing a smile
In a state of self-denial
Is it worthwhile
Sell my pity for a dime
Just one dime
Sell my pity for a dime
Just one dime
Sellin, sellin my pity for dime
and another man take my soul
MY OWN PRISON-Creed
A court is in session, a verdict is in
No appeal on the docket today
Just my own sin
The walls are cold and pale
The cage made of steel
Screams fill the room
Alone I drop and kneel
Silence now the sound
My breath the only motion around
Demons cluttering around
My face showing no emotion
Shackled by my sentence
Expecting no return
Here there is no penance
My skin begins to burn
And I said oh...
So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
And I said oh...
All held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one
I hear a thunder in the distance
See a vision of a cross
I feel the pain that was given
On that sad day of loss
A lion roars in the darkness
Only He holds the key
A light to free me from my burden
And grant me Life eternally
Should have been dead
On a Sunday morning
Banging my head
No time for mourning
Ain't got no time
Should have been dead
On a Sunday morning
Banging my head
No time for mourning
Ain't got no time
And I said oh...
So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
And I said oh...
All held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one
I cry out to God
Seeking only his decision
Gabriel stands and confirms
I've created my own prison
I cry out to God
Seeking only his decision
Gabriel stands and confirms
I've created my own prison
And I said oh...
So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
And I said oh...
All held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one
And I said oh...
So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
And I said oh...
All held captive (I've created)
Out from the sun (I've created)
A sun that shines on only some (I've created)
We the meek are all in one (I've created my own prison)
Should have been dead
On a Sunday morning
Banging my head
No time for mourning
Ain't got no time