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[03 Jul 2003|01:26pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | This is the new shit -MM ] Omg! Last night was sooooo much fun! I went to the movies to see Legally Blonde 2!! Best movie! It was funny as hell (as Precious says) I went with Precious - Hairdresser my honey hah. Shannon and myself! Then after ward we went to Steak and Shake. Yum!! Then I got home and my parent's were missing. Which sukked. So I talked to my baby until his phone died. So then I talked Philip's celly and he called me bakk and we talked for like 2 hours and then my parents got home so I told him I would call him tomorra. B/c he wants to come swim. So yesh well Lisa says my journals fukked so I must look. Kiss Me <33

[02 Jul 2003|09:02pm] [ mood | touched ] [ music | Marilyn Manson -Mobscene ] Hey there fellow people! Hah I'm a dork! Wow I have had a very long day! I'm wore out!! Damn! heh! Last night I didn't go to sleep till 3 sometihing because Phil had called me all upset with a chick problem and we just keep talking. I told him too that I was very sorry for anytime I had ever lied to him. He excepted my apoligy unlike some folk I know. I am glad I got one of my friends back. I missed him alittle bit. He's cool with getting to know Andrew too b/c they weren't the best of friends. So yeah. Today my Dad woke me up at like 9. I was bout to kill em. Then I cleaned the house all day long b/c John and Brittany come in tomorra! I'm excited. My best friend is finally coming home! hah! I'm also sooo excited because My Andrew is coming home I haven't seen him in forever. Ok, ok I know it's only been a week so kill me already hah! Nawh. I love that boy so much. Right now - I'm just chilling talking to Janie and Ben ( he lives in Maryland down the street from my uncle and like he's trying to act like we are best buds and I don't even memba him. Hah) I miss Hannah!! I wuv u Hanny Baby!! Hey yawl should I-M her and scare the shit out of her. /-*HannyBaby006-*\ or JuSBcEmCoUnTrY heh! Have fun!!! Well I better gooo... I'm looking at the By the Tree website. A christian alternative band I saw with Britt... Luv ya! _=_= I love AnDreW =_=_ (*-A StaR WiLL WiSh oN YoUr SmiLe & LaSs a WhiLee!-) -don't know Hannah says it. Kiss Me <33

Hannah's results!! [01 Jul 2003|05:16pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | The Anthem ] What Finding Nemo Character are You? brought to you by Quizilla <-Hannah!! free enneagram test <-me Later-=laur Kiss Me <33

I found more of my poems.. [01 Jul 2003|04:35pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | POD ] Warped & Twisted by Lauren Harsh words & violent blows Hidden secrets nobody knows Eyes are open, hands are fisted Deep inside I'm warped & twisted So many tricks & so many lies Too many when's & too many why's Nobody's special, nobody's gifted I'm just me, warped & twisted Sleeping awake & choking on a dream Listening loudly to a silent scream Call my mind, the number's unlisted Lost in someone so warped & twisted On my knees, alive but dead Look at the invisible blood I've bled I'm not gone, my mind has drifted Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow Today's just yesterday's tomorrow The sun died out, the ashes sifted I'm still here, warped & twisted... What They Can't See Kills Me by Lauren 6-3-02 Watching a child, watching the fights, Crying in my sleep during the screams of the night. Nestled in my pillows, overtaken by tears, I'd never realize this would effect me over the years. So afraid of this monster, one that I hate, It comes from the anger so the pain it makes. If only a mirror could save it to see, This child is hurting, This child is me. So scared to fall in love, but tired of being alone, I remember all those tears, And the pain they have shone. Now no longer with youth, But old enough to say, I can't ignore these memories I live with, I live with them everyday. Kiss Me <33

Sup [01 Jul 2003|04:09pm] [ mood | hyper ] [ music | Alantis Morrisette ] Hey Guys! We are just sitting here bored. I've been cleaning all day and Hannah has been grooming herself -b/c she's going out with her Daddy. Heh. I've also been taking test on Quizilla.. You are Beauty. You are beautiful, whether it be on the inside, the outside, or both. People are drawn to you as strongly as you are drawn to the beauty in the world around you. What Emotion Are You? brought to you by Quizilla & What Finding Nemo Character are You? brought to you by Quizilla We are now going to see what Hannah's are. I talked to Andrew very happy -I love him. *-Lash & Hannster-* Kiss Me <33

Quiz [01 Jul 2003|12:59pm] Missionary What Sexual Position Are You? brought to you by Quizilla Heh. I've been looking for a otep icon.. or something I'm tried of mine. I love Andrew.. heh buhbye .ps. thanx a million manders! luv ya~ Kiss Me <33

Old Friends [01 Jul 2003|12:42am] [ mood | Chillin ] [ music | Britney Spears - Sometimes ] I just got online and chated with my old buddy Ben. Heh. We aint talked in forever. He misses me... Poor thing. I might do something with him one day. I sort of miss our friendship we go way bakk. Well I am the happiest person - I love Andrew so much and Mandee fixed my blurty. You go chikk! I'm talking to Lauren Mc. riight now. Chill - Hollar!! <3-laur and hannah Kiss Me <33

Happy-ness [30 Jun 2003|10:48pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Chilli Commerical ] I just talked to Andrew. He's my Drew-Bear. He understands me!!! Atleast someone does. I'm veru happy. I really don't want anything to ever happen between us and I just needed him to know that. Well I love him that's all that matters. I love Andrew Oppal [with all my <3] I <3 you!! *(laur)* Kiss Me <33

I'm ok.. [30 Jun 2003|08:09pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | Mercry Me! ] Hey you all! I'm actually having a good day. I woke up this morning and got my hair done - highlights and we lightened my eyebrows and got them done. heh. Then I let out everything to Abby about how I felt and shit - which was awesome. The other day we Andrew and I were fighting he was like maybe you should get counseling and I've been there and done that. I found my notebook from my sessions were we had to write poems here's a few :.From Lauren's <3.: -*-Stone by Stone-*- I have a wall you cannot see. Because it's deep inside of me. It blocks my heart on every side. And helps emotions I have to hide. You can't reach in. I can't reach out. You wonder what it's all about. The wall is built so you can't see. Results from my insecurity. Each time my tender heart was hurt. The scars within grew worst and worst. So Stone by Stone, I built a wall. That's very thick and will not fall. Please understand it is not you -- Continue trying to break though. I want so much to show myself. And love from you will definately help. So bit by bit Chip at my wall. Till Stone by Stone starts to fall. I know the process will be slow. It's never easy to let go. Of hurt and failures long ingrained. Upon my heart from years of pain. I'm so afraid to let you in. I know I might get hurt again. I try so hard to break the wall. But it seems to get nowhere at all. So Stone by Stone I have stacked. And left between them not a crack. The only way to make it fall is imperfections in the wall. I did my best I could to build. A perfect wall but there are still. A few small flaws, which are the key. To breaking through the wall into me. Please use each flaw. To cause a crack. To knock a stone off the stack. For just as Stone by Stone was laid. With every hurt and every pain.. So Stone by Stone the wall will break. As love replaces every ache.. Please be the one who cares enough To find the flaws, no matter what. -<3-For Andrew-<3- *my angel* I had a difficult time in therapy so our assignments were poems #2 *-Freak Nasty-* You came into my life. Needed a friend. I held u close and let u see within. We were alway the bestest friends and cared so much. Then why did you want my boyfriends nuts? I never would expect you'd do me wrong. But hell look how much I know about you. You get guys by parading in a thong. You are nothing to me but the bad part of my pass. I can't believed I liked you. All I did was kiss your ass. I needed a friend and you showed me the way. I guess I chose the wrong one because you weren't a friend you just needed me to get your way. You are nothing but a freak nasty. You sleep around. Exspecially with my man. Hell who can trust you? I guess no one can. Fuck you Miss. I'mma Virgin. I hope you get herpes and someone hurts ya. <-For a Hater-> Heh I'm glad I got that off my chest!! <3-laur ludwig be bakk later! Kiss Me <33

[30 Jun 2003|12:17am] [ mood | sleepy ] Hey I'm sleepy long day tell ya later.. <3 ren.. -*-She's gone bakk tah her rootz-*- HANNi Kiss Me <33

Never Ending Sad-ness [29 Jun 2003|03:05pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | Microwave ] Yesterday had to be the worst day of my entire life. Andrew and I got in the biggest fight we ever gotten in. Ok... It's a long story - be prepared. We go and pick up Joannie and Justin at -1- I'm so excited. You just don't even know. We are going to the Zoo. I'm so excited. Then Andrew and I are hungry. We are eating in the car when all the sudden the car starts moving I'm like hold up. I ask him why after your finished eating is it time for the car to move? *not really thinking* Kind of just popped out. Then I try to take it back and I start saying more things I don't mean. Then Andrew's like well we aren't going to have enough time to go to the Zoo. I'm so frustrated at this point. I put on my shoes and get out the car. I start walking and five minutes later I notice Joannie's behind me. She's like baby girl come on he didn't mean to snap at you. He loves you. Then I go in the McD's to pee and all the sudden when I come out we start fighting again about retarded stuff. :.I'm going nuts!.: So I walk out and sit on the curb at McD's and just chill. I start getting mad and thinking it's my fault and I start scratching. I finally stopped. Then arrrgh we get in the car and Andrew's like let's go get film. So then Him and I start to fight again!! He's upsetting me so bad that I'm like I'm going to kill myself. I take out the pocket knife in his car and put it up to my neck and I'm like since you hate me so much want to help me and he's like ok. So I sitting there yelling at him saying KILL ME COME ON! Then he gets so mad that he gets out of the car and runs off because he's so upset that I would say something like that. I start to run after him. As I come around the corner I see him talking to some blonde haired chick and I'm like ah hell no. So as I get closer I notice it's this chick Libby that goes to school with us. Arrrgh I hate her. I walk pass him look at him and say *-Fuck You Andrew-* I keep on walking then I start getting pissed and thinking I want to die. So I start scratching and crying and I start making a plan to go back to the car and get the knife. Then I think no I'll just end the relationship he doesn't love me. He suddenly comes walking after me and I'm screaming quit following me. You don't love me. Go out with Libby. I hate you. I think we are over. Then I sit down and he sits next to me and he's like I'm sorry, I love you. I don't want you to hurt yourself. I'm like *Yeah ok* But then he finally gets so mad at me because I say you know what? Maybe you don't love me, maybe we should end our relationship. I'm like *shit did I say that* Then he starts walking off. I'm also most crying. I get back in the car and he's like not saying anything. So Joannie ask *Are we still swimming?* I say yeah but Andrew's being an ass hole. Then I finally decided I know he loves me.. so I kiss him. Then we are all good.. (I'm just having mood swings b/c of red markers) Then we swim and we are having a good time and take a shower. I later get a call when Andrew's taking Joannie home that my Dad isn't wanting to go with us tonight and it was a concert I was taking him to for a birthday present. *So pissed* Then Andrew comes back and we go to eat at his house with his parents. I say after dinner that I want to go to Coldstone. Which is fine with him. Then I get in the car and I'm upset again. About my Dad mainly and it makes Andrew mad because I won't tell him what's wrong so... Yeah. So he's like I'm going to take you home I've had enough today. I'm thinking God I wanna die! =0*( So we get to my house and I get my shit and get out of the car then I start walking in not paying attention to him.. I run upstairs and slam my door he comes after me and he's like baby I just can't take it you've been moody all day I'm going to go hang out with someone else ok? Then I'm like Yeah Whatever. Leave. I love you this is the last time I'm going to see you. I'm going to kill myself. Goodbye. I run in the bathroom and lock the door. Then I hear the back door shut in my house. *thinking oh no he's gone for good he doesn't love me* I take these mustache scissor and glide then up and down violently on my wrist. I'm saying inside my head I'm going to do this until I bleed. Which one part hurt real bad then the phone rings. Should I answer. Hmm. Yeah - I pick up and it's Andrew he's like baby come outside and we'll go get a movie ok? I'm like no come in here please. So he does and I'm standing in the bathroom running cold water over my arm. He's says Lauren let me see.. I refuse. He's asks did you hurt yourself?? I start shaking my head saying I don't know. Then he starts to cry a little. He's like Baby come here and he holds me and I start to cry. Why am I doing this? Then I start telling him all of what's wrong. He says God baby I think all you needed was a good cry. I love you - I love you. I swear to him that I won't hurt myself again. We end the night with swimming and a shower. Then we watched some of Casper. To Andrew: Andrew I love you with all my heart and nothing will ever change. I need you every day to survive and that's all I need in life. You have changed my world and made everything better. Your my angel. Thank You for being mine and saving my life. -:.*I LoVe Ya'LL*.:- *-<3-laur ludwig- Kiss Me <33

Bored =o( [27 Jun 2003|04:48pm] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | Your Mom..heh ] First Name: Lauren Middle Name: Ash. Nicole Nick Name[S]: Laur, Rennie, Tink, Lanibell. Gender: Chick-a-Dee Age: 16 Birthday: 1.5.87 Height: 5'0 Weight: 92..*thinks* Hair Color: brown Eye Color: brown Race: White 25% Pr! Glasses: Sometimes Contacts: Yepz. Braces: Yepz // Off 12.1.03 Hip=Hip=Hooray! Hair Short Or Long: Longish U Were Born Where: Louisville U Now Live: Louisville Astrology Sign: Capricorn - Cappiz-rock Chinese Zodiac Sign: Rabbit -he 8 mile Nationality: White, Indian, Pr, German, French, -n- blah..blah..blah..eh heh Piercing: Yepz. If Yes Where & How Many: Ears. [.Family.] Mothers name: Debbie. Ann. Fathers Name: Donald.Edward. Brothers Name[s]: Nope. Sisters Name[s]: Ashleigh.Deon. -GS Favorite Aunt: Aunt Shannon.Marie. Favorite Uncle: Uncle Mike.Parker. Favorite Grandparent: Pa- Bobby.Goings. Worst Relative: Richard.Anthony. *annoys me* Best Relative: Brittany.Estelle. / Shannon.Marie. / Mikehal.Chadwick.(Chad) / or John.Parker...hmmmm maybe - Tyler.Edward...? Best Family Memory: Kaelins. heh Long story.. Do U Get Along With Your Parents: Depends... Do Your Parents Understand You: My Daddio does.. Does Anyone In Your Family Understand You: Yeh.. Britt, John, Shannon...Tyler & Chad. [.School.] Are You Still In School: Yep.. Current/Supposive grade: Junior. 11 -o5- Favorite Grade: Frosh Worst Grade: Hmmmm 6th Favorite Teacher: Weaver!! White-Waltman or Sniderman Worst Teacher: Oh God - Mrs.Davis or ?? Favorite Subject: Math or English Worst Subject: Hmmm...Science Do/Did U Buy Lunch Or Bring Lunch: Both School Sports: Softball School Activities: -FCA, Chem Clubb- Popular Or What: I do what I want...Hang with who I want kind of thing. Favorite Memory: Seeing Andrew in Lib. with Tess. aka Stoner Worst Memory: All the Drama. Memory that is going to come that is going to be bad: Grad maybe? Memory that is going to come that is going to be good: Graduation Most Humiliating Moment: Getting paint wiped all over me by Ben in the crotch. Asswipe! [.Favorites.] Number: 4.7.or 14. Clothing Brand: I wear what I want. Shoes: Heh Old Adidas with Black & Pinkk Laces! Saying: Ok Yeah TV Show: Real World.. & So Little Time.. Sport: Soccer Vegetable: Brocillee! Fruit: Peaches Movie: Cruel Intentions & It Runs in the Family Song: I'm with You // I can only Imagine // Lord is my Weapon Magazine: Cosmo Chick lol Candies: Hershey & Gummies! Gum: ?? Bubbleyum? Color: Blakk. Orange. Red.. Some Pink Season: Fall Holiday: Christmas Type Of Music: Ah any really Fast Song: Boys Remix? Hell don't know.. Slow Song: I'm with You. Thing In Your Room: Bed Place To Be: With Andrew. Radio Station: 98.9*99.7*100.5*102.3*105.1*105.9 heh TV Channel: 37 Store: Hot Topic * Kohls* Pac Sun* Ron Jon* Hollister* Shoe Brand: ? Fast Food Place: B*K* Shape: Heart-a-gram Time Of Day: Any Country: America State: Florida Mall: Florence or Brittz Shampoo: X-tra by Sebastain Words: Yeah Okie - Month: November Scary Movie: The Ring-creeepppy & House of 1000 Corpses Posession: Monkey-Dre & Andrew! [.Whats The First Thing That Comes 2 Mind When You Hear....] Dog: Huckleberry Orange: UppaLumpa Choice: ? Fuck: Sex Bisexual: Aww Black: Me! Insane Clown Posse: Andrew Jack: Osbournes Rainbow: Gold! or Luckki Charms Cherry: A Nickname Cucumber: hah Old School Shark: Nemo Lifehouse: Group Bat: My icon Leather: Bondage Love: Andrew Always Together: Andrew & I America: Rich Biotches [.This Or That.]: selena or jennifer lopez: Both *-Selena-* ;.RiP.; hot or cold: HOT fall or summer: Both spring or winter: Spring mtv or vh1: MTV Dawsons Creek Or Gilmore Girls: Dawsons Creek Football or Basketball: B-ball summer olympics or winter olympics: Summer Skiing or snowboarding: ? roller blading or skateboarding: Skating black or white: Black orange or red: Both yellow or green: Yellow purple or pink: Pink inside or outside: Outside cell phone or pager: Cell pen or pencil: Pen power puff girls or Charlie's angels: P-P-Chicks Scooby doo or dino: Scooby tattoo or piercing: Both prep or punk: Punk Slut or whore: Neither [Would You Ever.] Bungee Jump: Maybee Sky Dive: Nope. Swim With Dolphins: Yeah Scuba Dive: Yeah Go Rock Climbing: Yeah Change Your Religion: No Sir! Turn Your Back On Your Friends For Personal Gain: Nope Steal A Friends Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Hell No..no.no Lie To Your Parents: Maybe [.Your Friends.] Best Friend: Britt, Joannie, Carlee, Hannah----ANDREW *Sowwi Benji* Known Longest: Britt Wish You Talked To More Then You Do: Britt Wish You Saw More Then You Do: Britt How Many Friends Do U Think You Have: A few> How Many Do U Actualy Hang Out With: A few.. Who Can You Stay Around Forever And Hardly Get Sick of: Andrew - Britt Ever Loose A Friend Because You Took It To The Next Level: Yeah Kristina Craziest: Britt and Joannie sometimes Andrew Loudest: Hannah Shyest: Alex Can Always Make You Laugh: All of Them ex-specially-Britt Best Eyes: Andrew Hot Tempered: Hmmm? Most Impatient: Hannah - Oh nooo Shortest: Me Tallest: Ben Talented: Britt Skinniest: Me Fatest: ? Nicest: all of em.. Best Personality: Andrew Most Immature: Hannah Most mature: Britt and Julie [.Have You Ever.] told the person you liked how u felt: Yeah Andrew been to Michigan: Nope / Want too skateboarded: Tried with John heh!! No Shoes!! haha pegged someone in the head with a snowball and they never knew it was you: Yeah kissed someone of the same sex: Hmmmm. been to a concert: yes ma'am talked back to an adult: hmm haha yeah into a car accident: Almost given money to some homeless person: Yeah tried to kill yourself: Hmmm tried to get attention? Yeah cried to get out of trouble: Yeah kissed a friends cousin: Yeah dropped something on the floor that you were cooking for dinner and still put it on the plate: Heck no nast!! [.What Did You Do....] Last Birthday: Went to Dinner with Family & Phil Yesterday: Nothing. Last Weekend: Don't remember Kiss Me <33

Nother -1- heh [27 Jun 2003|03:54pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | EEErkkk... Shannon Walking around. Hah! ] _____[12 things that annoy you] ? Dumb blondes. ? Racist people. ? When people don't wanna do what I wanna do. ? Red markers. =*( ? Fibbers! ? Parents. ? Tiffany. ? Snakes. ? Pedifiles. ? House not being finished. =O ? Rape. ? ? _____[12 people you'd want to stay alive] ? Andrew. ? Carlee. ? Michael. ? Ben. ? Hannah. ? Lisa. ? Amber. ? Julie. ? Lindsey. ? Mom & Daddie ? Shannon ? Last but not least my :. Brittz .: _____[10 things you'd like to change about yourself] ? My Nose. ? I need to think of think of others more then myself. =0).. ? Stop being such a hater. ? Stop being so skinny. ? Start learning and studying more. ? Start to love myself more. ? Caring more about others feelings ? Not being so jealous ? Start applying myself more. ? Stop trying so hard. At everything. I'm not the best. Seriously =0( _____[9 things you wear daily] ? A bra. ? Underwear. ? Pants or Shorts. ? Shirt. ? Almost everyday - Makkup - ? Lip gloss. ? Shoes. ? Perfume..Andrew's or Mine..I'm keepin' it reel. ? Hmmm? _____[10 movies you'd watch over and over] ? Casper ? A Walk to Remember ? Cruel Intentions ? Addams Family ? It Runs In the Family ? How to Loose a Guy in 10 Days ? Legally Blonde ? She's All That ? Can't Hardly Wait ? I Know What You did Last Summer _____[7 concerts you've been to. (or wish to go to)] ? Good Charolette -> I wish ? Sum 41-> Wanna See Again. ? Britney Spears-> Seen ? /\/*Sync-> Seen ? Garth Brookes-> Seen ? Kenny Chesney-> Seen & Wanna See Again.. ? Outspoken -> Seen *Wishes* X-tina & Justin Timberlake Concert! -> I want!! _____[6 objects you touch every day] ? Hair. ? Face.. ? Lips... ? Clothes.... ? Food..... ? Andrew... Almost everyday. _____[5 things you do every day] ? Wake up. ? Eat. ? Chat. ? Talk on my phone. ? Breathe//eat//sleep... Obviously. _____[4 foods/drinks that you couldn't live without] ? Cherry Coke. ? Buffalo Chicken ? Choclate ? Apple Juice. _____[3 of your favorite songs at this moment] ? Mercy Me -> I Can Only Imagine. ? Marilyn Mansion-> Obsence ? Otep-> Emtee _____[2 people that have influenced your life the most] ? Hard....Britt & Shannon ? Andrew - Most Def!! _____[1 thing you could spend the rest of your life with] ? Andrew Oppal -> I Luv Yew Schweetie! Kiss Me <33

Andrew Comes Back. [27 Jun 2003|02:23pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | Mercy-Me hey they are good right Lauren M? ] ..Andrew comes back today! Yay! Ok so any ways - I wake up this morning happy and not in pain. Then I get into the shower -shave my legs. I paint my nails and I'm ready to go. Then I notice I have gotten red marker! Damn it!! *it would happen on my most important day* I was so angeree! Hah! Because I had the cutest stuff picked out to wear.. arrrgh *hating mother nature* So any ways tonight I'm going out with Andrew and we are doing a triple date with: Joannie & Justin.. Aby & her pink haired boy. SOO EXCITING...*no* I'm trying hard to get Bennett to go!! hah! He's being difficult. I might be doing something with Griffen so I can waste time before Andrew gets here! Heh.. Well I'm tired of writing. Kiss Me <33

Bad Day! Day from Hella! [26 Jun 2003|07:55pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | Otep - Lord is my weapon. ] Hey Freaks & Major Greeks..Hmmm. Where to start.. Ok let's start with this morning. Today was bullshit. I hurt so bad from my sunburn and my Mom is like come on Lauren - let's go get something to eat. *YUM I think* Come to figure I'm wrong. I get dressed get into the car. I start to get hot so I put back the sunroof cover which is already broken. I slide it back and my Mom suddenly flips and is like what are you doing? I was like nothing Mom opening the sunroof. She was like damn you are such a fuck-up. I'm like okay for opening a sunroof? That makes since. She says well Lauren it's been broken. I was *thinking* Oh yeah I knew that!! Not...So after 10 mins. in silence my Mom's like ok I think I'm getting to change the subject. I sit there singing and not really listening. I'm *thinking* do you even remember what you just said to me. I hate when people say something mean or do something harmful and in 10 mins. it's all ok!! WTF!! No dude doesn't work that way with me unless you get on ur knees kiss my ass and say you are sorry a billion times. I was so pissed. Then we pull up to my favorite chinese restraunt that one of our friends owns. She's trying to get a divorce from her Jackass of a husband. She has a really bad attorney and has moved out of the house with her two little girls. For some reason he won't divorce her.. But theres more twisted-ness to this story. She soon found out not to long ago that her husband and the nanny of her children were having intercourse. So after the husband and nanny got in a fight one afternoon. Kim comes home and finds her cell phone and some clothes missing and discovers the nanny has taken her clothes and cell phone and moved to New York. But wait there's more. A few weeks before she filed divorce her husband had just started hanging out with this girl. Now it's his girlfriend and him and Kim are STILL MARRIED! She says she doesn't care. But yet her husband is trying to tell her he is still in love with her and that he only has a girlfriend to fuck her and for play time. OMG this fired me up! If Andrew ever did that to me I would kill him! I would cut off his nut-sack and throw it in a blender and push distroy!!! I mean what a mother fucker. She's ok with it b/c Chinese women are raised to be submissive. Arrrgh. Ok... So next we go to K-mart and I pass the sandals and I'm like oh damn I need some new sandals and my Mom is like ok honey pick out two pairs. Ok Yeah where did that come from? Sometimes I think she's bi-polar! Arrrgh. But the best thing just happened. I talked to Andrew the love of my life. He made my day so much better. I love him... Well g2g LATER! - Kiss Me <33

Survey [26 Jun 2003|01:50pm] 1. First Name: Lauren 2. Were you named after anyone? Yeah Laura Ashley the clothes store but my mom doesn't like the name Laura *too common she says* 3. Do you wish on stars?: Yes. *fun* 4. Which finger is your favorite?: Pinky! *laughs* 5. When did you last cry?: 3 days ago *I'm a sucker.* 6. Do you like your handwriting?: Sometimes. 7. What is your favorite lunch meat?: Cajun Turkey. *YUM* 8. Any bad habits?: Scratching. 9. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf?: Old Hanson & Spice Girls. *blushes* 10. If you were another person, would you be friends WITH you?: I don't know! 11. Are you a daredevil?: Sometimes. 12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell?: Nope. 13. Do looks matter?: Depends. 14. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid?: ?? *prolly* 15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: Maybe.. heh! Or Lucky Charms.. 16. Do fish have feelings?: Nemo Does! 17. Are you trendy?: I do what I want. *no worries* 18. How do you release anger?: Cry, Break Things, Scratch, Bite..*weeps* 19. Where are your second homes?: Grandma's, Andrew's, Brittanys.. 20. Do you trust others easily?: Nope. *childhood issues* 21. What was your favorite toy as a child?: Hmm... My Casper Toy that was my mom's. 22. What class in school do you think is totally useless?: GYM! 23. Do you have a journal? Yes. 24. Do you use sarcasm a lot?: Nope. 25. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?: Yeah, I'm a little punk rocker. *smiles* 26. What do you look for in a boy/girl? Andrew..That's it. That's all I need to look for. 27. What are your nicknames? Laur, Rennie, Tink, Tinkerbell, Dork, Nerual, Deeener, Honeybunnie, Baby, Babysweet. *laughs* ooh & Lanibell. 28. Would you bungee jump?: Yes. 29. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? Nope. 30. Do you think that you are strong? : Sorta. Depends who I'm against. *laughs, Ben!! heh*-Frowns- 31. What's your favorite ice cream flavor?: Rocky Road. 32. What's your favorite color(s)?: black, red, orange, pink...*shys away* 33. What is your least favorite thing?: Tiffany & Needles. 34. How many wisdom teeth do you have?: -2- 35. Are you in love with anyone?: Yes. The love of my life is Andrew!! <3 You Baby. 36. How many people have a crush on you right now?: -1- My Andyroo! 37. Who do you miss most right now?: Andrew & Brittster! 38. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? Pink - Still in PJ's! 40. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?: Typing. Beautiful noise. 41. WHAT ARE THE LAST 4 DIGITS OF YOUR PHONE NUMBER? 5069 42. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?: Bananna's & Peaches. 43. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Orange or Yellow. 44. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? Hot like always! 45. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?: Andrew. heh! *thanks faeries* 46. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?: Eyes, Nice Teeh... Personality... How much we *mesh* 48. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?: Sorta hurting and sleepy. 49. FAVORITE DRINK?: Cherry Coke. *if you don't know that about me you should be killed* 50. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?: Peach Nobbs. 51. FAVORITE SPORTS?: Soccer, LAX... 52. HAIR COLOR?: Brown..Soon to be different. 53. EYE COLOR?: Brown. 54. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?: Yes. 55. SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGES: None except G-sister: Ashleigh -18 56. FAVORITE MONTH?: November. 57. FAVORITE FOOD?: Chicken - Buffalo from Tumbleweed. 58. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?: The Addam's Family. 59. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?: April 4. or Halloween. 60. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?: Yes. 61. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS BETTER? Horror Flicks Baby! Kiss Me <33

Survey [26 Jun 2003|01:50pm] [ mood | lazy ] 1. First Name: Lauren 2. Were you named after anyone? Yeah Laura Ashley the clothes store but my mom doesn't like the name Laura *too common she says* 3. Do you wish on stars?: Yes. *fun* 4. Which finger is your favorite?: Pinky! *laughs* 5. When did you last cry?: 3 days ago *I'm a sucker.* 6. Do you like your handwriting?: Sometimes. 7. What is your favorite lunch meat?: Cajun Turkey. *YUM* 8. Any bad habits?: Scratching. 9. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf?: Old Hanson & Spice Girls. *blushes* 10. If you were another person, would you be friends WITH you?: I don't know! 11. Are you a daredevil?: Sometimes. 12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell?: Nope. 13. Do looks matter?: Depends. 14. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid?: ?? *prolly* 15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: Maybe.. heh! Or Lucky Charms.. 16. Do fish have feelings?: Nemo Does! 17. Are you trendy?: I do what I want. *no worries* 18. How do you release anger?: Cry, Break Things, Scratch, Bite..*weeps* 19. Where are your second homes?: Grandma's, Andrew's, Brittanys.. 20. Do you trust others easily?: Nope. *childhood issues* 21. What was your favorite toy as a child?: Hmm... My Casper Toy that was my mom's. 22. What class in school do you think is totally useless?: GYM! 23. Do you have a journal? Yes. 24. Do you use sarcasm a lot?: Nope. 25. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?: Yeah, I'm a little punk rocker. *smiles* 26. What do you look for in a boy/girl? Andrew..That's it. That's all I need to look for. 27. What are your nicknames? Laur, Rennie, Tink, Tinkerbell, Dork, Nerual, Deeener, Honeybunnie, Baby, Babysweet. *laughs* ooh & Lanibell. 28. Would you bungee jump?: Yes. 29. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? Nope. 30. Do you think that you are strong? : Sorta. Depends who I'm against. *laughs, Ben!! heh*-Frowns- 31. What's your favorite ice cream flavor?: Rocky Road. 32. What's your favorite color(s)?: black, red, orange, pink...*shys away* 33. What is your least favorite thing?: Tiffany & Needles. 34. How many wisdom teeth do you have?: -2- 35. Are you in love with anyone?: Yes. The love of my life is Andrew!! <3 You Baby. 36. How many people have a crush on you right now?: -1- My Andyroo! 37. Who do you miss most right now?: Andrew & Brittster! 38. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? Pink - Still in PJ's! 40. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?: Typing. Beautiful noise. 41. WHAT ARE THE LAST 4 DIGITS OF YOUR PHONE NUMBER? 5069 42. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?: Bananna's & Peaches. 43. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Orange or Yellow. 44. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? Hot like always! 45. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?: Andrew. heh! *thanks faeries* 46. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?: Eyes, Nice Teeh... Personality... How much we *mesh* 48. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?: Sorta hurting and sleepy. 49. FAVORITE DRINK?: Cherry Coke. *if you don't know that about me you should be killed* 50. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?: Peach Nobbs. 51. FAVORITE SPORTS?: Soccer, LAX... 52. HAIR COLOR?: Brown..Soon to be different. 53. EYE COLOR?: Brown. 54. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?: Yes. 55. SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGES: None except G-sister: Ashleigh -18 56. FAVORITE MONTH?: November. 57. FAVORITE FOOD?: Chicken - Buffalo from Tumbleweed. 58. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?: The Addam's Family. 59. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?: April 4. or Halloween. 60. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?: Yes. 61. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS BETTER? Horror Flicks Baby! Kiss Me <33

Good morning Sunshine. [26 Jun 2003|12:39pm] [ mood | awake ] [ music | None.. ] Hey... Today is a very good day for the exceptions of my sunburn. It really hurts, I won't be swimming for a while. I am very happy I woke up today to the sound of my baby's voice. I was really happy. I miss him so much - but there is only one day left which today until I'm in his arms again. I think we are starting to understand each other more. I love him and that's really all that matters. I understand now the whole Aby situation she's just a nice person he feels sorry for and wants to be her friend. Not a drop dead beautiful chick that he is attracted too. Thank God he's with me *smiles* goodness. Then lets see after waking up a bit I rubbed some aloe on and walked into my office room to get a movie and I picked out *the best ever* The Addams Family. I haven't seen that in ages! LOL. But as soon as I'm done doing stuff on here I'm going to watch Casper. Another *brilliant* movie!! P. S. - Keep in mind this baby name [Wednesday Ashland Ludwig] ..I like, I like.. 4Ever&Always- Kiss Me <33

[25 Jun 2003|07:29pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | Washer! heh ] Bored as hell. Well Yeah. So I guess I'm leaving.. Kiss Me <33

Daddy Day~ [25 Jun 2003|07:18pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Audioslave. ] Today has been ok. I went out with my Father today and saw a wonderful *claps* movie - It Runs in the Family. I like this movie a lot. It reminds me tons of my family only - I don't have a pot smoking brother or a brother that is obsessed with a punk runaway. I am also not Jewish!! My favorite part was the Jewish boy falling in love with his total opposite the punk runway! heh. So cute. Also today was very strange. Sort of out of the norm. I don't really know how to act around my Dad because he still puts me in a little girl picture.. I AM NOT A LITTLE GIRL ANYMORE! It sort of ticks me off. Bigod! Can't parents let us grow up? *damn* I am not the same person. I hate trying to go back to it. I am a lot brighter, I have a different look, and above all grown -dammit. So as the day went on we went to my Dad's old work to pick up this dude that is working on our BMW. I swear he looks like the guy Jesse from Fast and the Furious. Doesn't act like him that much tho. *arrgh* But after he is done. *hopefully* My Dad & I will go to Bardstown Rd. and eat. I couldn't go earlier like I was *suppose* too. Because it was too hot and I already have sunburn. I can't be getting cancer!! *Andrew would kill me* I miss him so much. He's all I ever need in life.. I can't wait to marry him so I can get *away* from all my family drama!! But after Bardstown Rd. we are probably going to see my cousin Tara who is in to see my Uncle who was in a car accident. Well I have much too do! Later. *-lauren.ashley.nicole.ludwig-* Kiss Me <33

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