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Blurty for PsYcO CoOkIE.
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| Sunday, May 18th, 2003 |
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Here I am different in this normal world Why did you tease me? Make me feel upset Fucking stereotypes feeding their heads I am ugly. Please just go away HEEL I can see inside you fine This blessing in disguise HEEL Why you treat me this way? Make the hate stay A cell locked, I can never seem to escape all the laughing, all the pain If you were me, what would you do? Nothing, probably. You'd just throw me away I can see inside you fine HEEL This blessing in disguise Why you treat me this way? HEEL Make the hate stay Faget! Faget! Faget! Here I am different in this normal world Why did you tease me? Make me feel upset Fucking stereotypes feeding their heads I am ugly. Please just go away HEEL I can see inside you fine This blessing in disguise Why you treat me this way? HEEL Make the hate stay Faget! faget... I'm just a pretty boy, whatever you call it You wouldn't know a real man if you saw it It keeps going on day after day, son You fake! And they don't want none I'm sick and tired of people treating me this way everyday Who gives a fuck? Right now I got something to say to all the people that think I'm strange and I should be out of here locked up in a cage You don't know what the hell's up now anyway You got this pretty-boy feeling like I'm enslaved To a world that never appreciated shit YOU CAN SUCK MY DICK AND FUCKING LIKE IT!!! He had my gun but he had to find the money any say He had my gun but he had to find the money anyway He had my gun but he had to find the money don't wanna say He had my gun but he had to find the money anyway he had my gun but he had to find the money any say He had my gun but he had to find the money going away He had my gun but he had to find the money don't wanna say He had my gun but he had to find the money anyway I'm just a pretty boy, I'm not supposed to fuck a girl I'm just a pretty boy, living in this fucked up world (x2) All my life, who am I?! (x 10) I'm just a faget! (Faget!) I'm a faget! (Faget!) I'm a faget! (Faget!) I'm a faget! (Faget!) I'm not a faget! (Faget!) Or am I? I'm not a faget! (Faget!) Or am I? I'm not a faget! (Faget!) You motherfucking queers!! |
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| Thursday, May 15th, 2003 |
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| heh YES i know the alcoholic anonoymous prayer. duh. do i look THAT stupid to you? jesus. | ||
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| im doing fine actually, she can eat all the pussy she wants, seeing as shes so good at it. ha. ill prolly never talk to her again, hm. *thinks* i dont care. hah. you told me to get over you. guess what? its over. so yes good morning to all. | ||
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| Wednesday, May 14th, 2003 |
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| i changed.. people change. just like YOU said. hah. | ||
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| Theres no other feeling than the best feeling in the world when your project is about the two best punk bands of the 80s ... The Ramones and Bad Religion | ||
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| today was an ok day... except for the fact that Cristy and her 'posse' peoples want to kick my ass or something *sigh* whatever. im not gonna sweat it. today we disected frogs. never again bro, NEVER again. but hey! after the whole thing, we cut up the frogs legs, and put them in a napkin and sent them to Brandy. it was OFF THE WALLS HILARIOUS dude, i went to give it to her, WITH A GLOVE ON and gave it to her in a notebook and i stand next to the door, and i hear 'oh my god' and a squeal. heh. and then i guess paola was scared of frogs or something, but we scared the shit out of her. heh. ok so now, bye. | ||||
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| Tuesday, May 13th, 2003 |
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Personal Name: Crystal Name Backwards: latsyrC Does your name mean anything? glass maybe? Were you named after anyone? erm. yeah this soap op. that was on when i was younger. so said my father. Nick Name(s):Crys, Chaotic, Dobby Screen Name(s):feelthesicknesss, i8urbugar, liyoullbesorryil Date Of Birth: January 5, 1987 Place of Birth: Miami, FL Current Location: Miami, FL Sign: Capricorn Religion: (none) Height: 5'5 Weight: .... 174 Shoe Size: 9 Hair Colour: dirrty blonde. Eye Colour: blue What do you look like? like a green aliem from outside space! Innie or Outie? innie Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous? righty Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other: bi. Who Is Your... Best friend(s): Pothead. (Pothead and Weedface!) Best friend you trust more than anyone: Pothead Best friends {your sex}: Pothead and Paola Boyfriend / Girlfriend: none. Crush: no one anymore. fuck them all Parent(s): Mari and Angel. Worst Enemy: oh no. i got no enemies. Funniest friend: Pothead. lol. Craziest friend: Paola and Brandy Loudest Friend: BRANDY! oh god. lol Person you cry with: ... Brandy and Allen Do You Have... Any sisters: i consider her MORE than a stepsister. Roxy. Any brothers: yes. Angel Any pets: dont get me started. From dog to rabbit. A Disease: insomnia A Pager: not anymore. A Personal phone number: yea 786.514.0982 not really personal cause well, everyone knows it. A leather jacket with studs on it?: heh. nope. A heroin needle: nope. A Pool or hot tub: YES! one in each house. A Car: mmhmm Describe Your... Personality: borderline aswell. Car or one you want: 2004 Black and Green Hummer. Room: repainted, its blue and yellow now. spongebob-like. im not obsessive, i promise. lol Shoes: i have many shoes. all Vans. and one Converse with a Tweety on it. School: Doral Academy Charter High School Bed: Spongebob Print. Relationship with your parent(s): er.. its all straight. Belief in yourself: not really. well, yeah sometimes like at football practice. Do you believe in love at first sight? yea Consider yourself a good listener: yea Consider yourself a good friend: yea Get Along with your parents: um. at times. Save your e-mail conversations: yes i do. all of them. i even have a file for them. Pray: no. Believe in reincarnation: sure why not? i wanna be a sheep Like to make fun of people: not really.. just of their ass. Like to talk on the phone: oh god yes. Do you... Like to drive: way too much. Get motion sickness: at times Eat Chicken fingers with a fork: hee hee who dosnt?! Dream in colour: erm suposibly. Type with your fingers on home row: erm.. yes! asdf jkl; Sleep with a stuffed animal: yes i do. a stuffed bunny What Is/Are/Was... Right next to you: cup half full of water, and a plate with cake. On your mouse pad: a dolphin Your dream car: Cadillac Escalade Your dream date: mm.. Pamela Anderson Your dream honeymoon spot: On the beach in Hawaii. Your dream husband/wife: not thinking that far anymore. Your bedtime: when my eyes close. Under your bed: there is NOTHING under my bed, i am a clean freak. The single most important question: does this look infected? [kept] Your bad time of the day: 6.30 p Your worst fear(s): rejection, losing someone, leaving, clowns! eww! The weather is like: rainy The time? 5.38 p The date? 05.13 The best trick you ever played on someone: told my dad i had sex with my exboyfriend for his birthday. The weirdest food or drink that you like: pupu platter. The hardest thing about growing up: losing people.. Your funniest experience: i dont remember. there is so many. Your scariest moment: bro, they told me my dog had died. i got home and smacked my brother, only to realize that it died the day after. The silliest thing you've said: "he makes me twist my nipples at night" The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex? sober or drunk? oh god ive done many things, i was drunk this one time, and i made out with Roberto i think like at the beginning of school this year. but i felt bad afterwards because i was going out with Jacqui then. *shrug* The craziest thing that's ever happened while with your friend(s): where should i start? heh. The worst feeling in the world: lonliness [kept] The best feeling in the world: i wouldnt know. Favorites Number: 4 Color: black and red Day: Saturday Month: October Song: 'Grow Up' - Simple Plan and 'The Bitch Song' - Bowling for Soup. Movie: Matrix, House of 1000 corpses. Food: beer [kept] Band(s): nfg, afi, good charlotte, sr71, donnas, rancid, ataris, less than jake, taking back sunday Season: summer Sport: FOOTBALL! Class: lunch. Teacher: Mrs. Heidy Gonzalez Drink: Heiniken (sp?) Veggie: brocilli with the melted chesse on top. mmmmmmmmmm. TV Show: wwe raw [kept], wwe smackdown! i <3 mr.america! Radio Station: 94.9 zeta (popular rock station here in FL) Store: Hot Topic, Pac Sun Animal: Penguin, Kangaroo, DINGO! Flower: i dont like flowers.. =( sorry. State: Canada. City: Miami!! i wouldnt trade it for the world. This or that Me/You: you Coke/pepsi: COKE ALL THE FUCKIN WAY pepsi can lick my ass Day/night: night Aol/aim: aim Cd/casette: cd Dvd/vhs: dvd Jeans/khakis: jeans. Car/truck: jeep Tall/short: tall Lunch/dinner: lunch NSYNC/BSB: .... none? Britney/Christina: oh! Christina. Gap/Old Navy: gap. Lipstick/Lipgloss: gloss Silver/Gold: Silver Alcohol/Weed: alcohol Love and relationships Do you have a bf/gf?: hahaha your kidding right? Do you have a crush?: *sigh* yes How long have you liked him/her?: awhile If you're single... why are you single?: im not really sure actually. If you're not single... give detail...: bite me. Who was your first love?: ... Elvis. What do you miss about them? ... the way he moved his pelvis actually.. lol The past What is the one thing you would change about your past?: i would learn from my mistakes.. which was many. What is the biggest mistake you've made in your life?: Its got a name, but i wont mention it. Last thing you heard: my cell ringing. Last thing you saw: the keyboard for a second. Last thing you said: bitch??? *is singing along to the music* Who is the last person you saw?: Pothead Who is the last person you kissed? .. I think it was Brandy, in Hill's class. Who is the last person you hugged?: heh... jesus. Brandy she makes me feel like im somebody shes cool. Who is the last person you fought with?: ABOUT to with Cristy. Who is the last person you were on the phone with? China What is the last TV show you saw? Telletubbies this morning. What is the last song you heard?: b2k - 'uh huh' The present What are you wearing?: football clothes. what are you doing?: this survey, and a research project Who are you talking to?: Roman and John What song are you listening to?: Sean Paul - Get Busy Where are you?: my computer room Who are you with?: myself right now. just waiting for Jacky to come to practice. How are you feeling?: actually, i think i pulled something playing football. Are you in a chat room?: no. i hate chat rooms. Future What day is it tomorrow?: wednesday What are you going to do after this?: practice wrestling. Who are you going to talk to?: Jacky? Where are you going to go?: outside. How old will you be when you graduate?: erm 41 maybe. What do you wanna be?: in either the Navy or the Army. What is one of your dreams?: to die for someone. Where will you be in 25 years?: in high school. Have you ever Drank?: oh hell yea Had sex?: ... yes. Stolen?: yea Done anything illegal?: mmhmm Wanted to die?: a couple times a week Hit someone?: once. but i dont like to resort to violence. *snerk* Other Do you write in cursive or print?: ghetto print. What piercings do you have?: my ears? Do you drive?: yes sir. Do you have glasses or braces?: glasses. but i lost them. Did you like this survey?: :::orgasms::: [kept] lol Physical appearance What do you most like about your body?: my eyes. And least?: ew. my boobs. How many fillings do you have?: eh? Do you think you're good looking?: not really but i dont care. Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: at times. Do you look like any celebrities? heh maybe Celin Dion's dog. Fashion Do you wear a watch?: nope. my phone gives me the time. How many coats and jackets do you own?: many Favorite pants/skirt colour?: my caffenine pants. Most expensive item of clothing?: leather coat that looks like Neil's from the Matrix, cost almost 200.00 Most treasured item: my bunny What kind of shoes do you wear?: vans all the fuckin way Describe your style in one word: punk. You What does your name mean?: *shrugs* How old are you mentally (as in are you mature?): 3 and a half. Why would you wanna act old? who the hell said that? i dont wanna grow up im a toys r us kid! Describe yourself in 5 words: unique, chaotic, loca, hyper, loud What are your worst qualities: bitchy, obsessive. What are your best qualities: good friend. How long does it take you get ready in the morning: too long. Sleep Do you dream at night?: not really. Do you remember your dreams?: ... some times when i sleep. Describe one: no. because most of them are with this one girl.. just no. What time do you wake up on weekends?: maybe like 2 or 3 in the afternoons. Do you sleep with one pillow or two?: i dont sleep with pillows, they are inconvenient. School Do you like school?: hell yeah! Why/why not?: i saw all my friends What's your fave subject?: LUNCH! Most hated subject?: .. algebra. Do you have a fave teacher?: Mrs. Gonzalez... err. Heidy Gonzalez. Ever had a crush on a teacher?: heh. yes. Mr. Gonzalez. lol HE LOOKS LIKE THE DRUMMER FROM SYSTEM OF A DOWN! Friends Do you have heaps of friends?: yea actually. lol Do you have a best friend?: yea Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?: more of guys if you think about it, but it always evens out. Do you ever get annoyed at any friends?: oh yes, many times. Have you ever lied to a friend?: yea.. but i dont lie anymore. Have you ever stolen a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend?: i would never. Family Do you like your parents?: at times Ever run away from home?: tried, got caught. Ever thought about it?: ....... Do you have any siblings?: er.. many? Do you feel your parents spoil you?: nah, not really. Do you not get along with any of your family: my aunt Isa. You have big family get togethers ever?: nope. Relationships Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: fuck this is the 3rd time! How long have you been together?: STOP! Ever done something stupid to impress them?: spice it up for mama and she'll get hot for you. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?: uh? Do you find it romantic or hurtful?:hurtful. very |
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| Friday, May 2nd, 2003 |
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Righteo i left livejournal to come here. Unfortunatlly, i cant stop thinking about Jacqui. its REALLY fucked up. I told her that I couldnt get her out of my head last night. And then selfishly without letting her say anything, signed off, went into my little corner in my room, put on Staind "Epiphany" and cried for a while. Its scary how you can do stuff with one person for almost a year and then you just CANT forget about her, about everything you guys did together. So whatever. Ill get over her eventually.. ---------- Today, was my teacher's 26th birthday. We all pitched in 3 bucks and sent her to Doral Spa for 80 minutes of massage. When she opened her envelope, she *screamed* it was funny because the room was FULL of her students. Everyone was at lunch, and most of her kids from most of her periods were there. We gave her a gift worth 175.00 and she LOVED it. =) Which made EVERYONE happy today. And then with the rest of the money they had left, they bought 9 boxes of pizza, and a big chocolate cake with a rainbow on it that reads "Happy Birthday" The thing was that all of us were there, and THAT made it special because we all love Mrs. G teachers dont get better than her. Honestly, I dont know why i talk about her like that, but shes like the mom i met, the mom i never had. I came out to her the first day I met her and she was totally awsome with it. Me and her are so awsome. But yeah anyways. ------------ We have to write an autobiography in English class, its a project, the bitch is worth 10 grades. Im still working on the first part, thats what she assigned. And I have to write about a bunch of shit i dont want to talk about. its fucked up. "How did your parents wind up in this country? Were your ancestors Native Americans? Did your ancestors emigrate from another country? If so, why did they come to America? How? When? Where did they settle? Did they come to the United States by choice?" those questions are under the title of "Before you were Born" okay, one, what the FUCK does that have to do with me before i was born. i KNOW where i was born. so? God, sometimes i just dont understand things. Whatever. ------------- Jayne, have you started on this shit yet? I already want to finish this and dude? my squeaker is broken again, so dont touch it. lol |
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| Monday, April 7th, 2003 |
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my mood is always undefined, which sucks being that i never get enough of what i want. i never feel like totally happy or totally sad or anything really, its always like a nasty mix.. its like mixing a bunch of colors like puke.. it always ends up like crap. no matter how much white, pink, or yellow you put in it... if you mix it with too many colors your result and final color usually turns dark and nasty ... thats how i feel.. NASTY why? 1- because i can never find a good spot or the time to write what i want in this crap.. 2- because i want to live forever 3- because my throat hurts, and i have a runny nose 4- because i hate the way a bunch of people underestemate me and think im like.. "lower-class" than they are just because of somethings i do and something i DONT do.. . 5- because tommorrow im going back to school.. 6- because of other reasons that im not able to write about 7- because i have an algebra quiz tommorrow 8- because grades are due some day this week. 9- because i feel like puking again 10- because i look horrible 11- because i have hair stuck in my mouth so much crap dude.. but remember "its gotta have a cherry on top" my cherry, my smile, i smile at anything, maybe thats the reason for my endless stupidity.. but whatever, i guess it makes me feel somewhat happy.. like she does.. she makes me feel happy.. cherries are not just good.. they are important... i couldnt live without them at all. for me, no cake or food lacks a cherry, i dunno i dont care if its fich, but it needs a cherry! i need a cherry right now.. my throat went dry just thinking about it... my grandma got me a whole bottle of them ... the artificial ones.. she bought it yesterday, i finished it already... im getting too addicted to sweets ... its pretty sad... me and my unhealthy habits *sigh* <~~ THAT was not just any 'sigh' it was a very deep sigh, it represents exhaustion and boredum and a desperate need to get a life... Ive never felt so weak and under so much pain.. my muscles hurt i feel weak .. i feel like im going to die... and i want a lollypop before it happens. you know how people always say how they want to get laid *right* before they die? well, i want to die sucking a lollypop while being next to Jacqui.. thats a SWEET way to die.. ok.. so.. gimme a minute to talk, or rather to type about the surroundings.. loads of manipulated teens writing taking notes, and staring at the board.... what a pity, so much intellect... so many neutrons and cells and atoms and brain cells wasted! GOD! I would prolly look as stupid.. i would probably be doing the same thing .. i would probably be "learning" if it wasnt for my brain cells.. my neurons seem to be on strike... i can just picture the little revolutionary kids ... protesting and refusing to learn.. Mr. Sanchez is very upset.. he's frustrated.. because of our grades and lack of effort he's making all this mandatory procedure about homework and taking notes... my grade for the last nine weeks was an F for FUCK! as for my notes .. im not in the note-taking mood.. hes threatening us saying how if we dont have whatever shes talkin about the same as HES writing it.. we'll get and 'F' im alright with it i guess. I got a C last quarter... which is i dunno how many points... i can fail this quarter, get a D on the final and VUALA! i pass the year! i admit that the prospect of failing math this quarter depresses me, it really does.. i DO care about this class, but its just so hard and its getting harder! i only like geometry because of the drawings and the figures. i wish i had it since the beginning of the year. *whrug* whatever.. im taking it next year anyways. i cant wait to start night school in Coral Park, im taking Drama .. Martinelli says that i just need ONE more elective to pass the year. and get enough points.. so yeah im going to take Drama.. i have no idea WHY but hey! theres always a first for everything. |
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| Thursday, March 27th, 2003 |
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[ x ] Spell your first name backwards- latsyrC [ x ] The story behind your user name – .. nickname [ x ] Where do you live – Miami [ x ] 4 words that sum you up – chaotic, weird, phyco, ecstatic [ x ] Wallet - black Invader Zim with pictures in it and a picture of Gir on the outside saying "Im dancing like a monkey!" [ x ] Hairbrush – black and red [ x ] Toothbrush – its black with white little hair thingys [ x ] Jewelry worn daily - my exgirlfriends rings and my necklace [ x ] Pillow covers - blue and yellow (spongebob) [ x ] Blanket - blue and yellow (still spongebob) [ x ] Coffee cup – black with Happy Bunny and it says "bite me" x ] Sunglasses – black with red lenses [ x ] Underwear – black thongs... hee hee [ x ] CD in stereo right now – Slipknot - Iowa [ x ] Tattoos - one of a dragon on my lower back [ x ] Piercings - one in each ear but i never wear anything.. [ x ] What you are wearing now- black baggy pants, pyramid belt, black Good Charlotte shirt [ x ] Hair - up [ x ] Makeup - i dont *wear* make up WHO or WHAT (was/is/are) [ x ] In my mouth - hee hee a straw? [ x ] In my head – too many things [ x ] Wishing – WHY THE FUCK WONT SHE TALK TO ME! [ x ] After this – wrestling practice [ x ] Talking to – the purple monster thing on the McDonalds cups when you ask for a cup for water.. [ x ] Eating – a picture of the purple monster thing on the McDonalds cups when you ask for a cup for water....... [ x ] Person you wish you could see right now – ... *sigh* Unfortunatly, Jacqui [ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month – nothing anymore [ x ] The last thing you ate – i think it was eggs in the morning. [ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - rejection -kept- [ x ] Do you like candles – oh yes.. far too much [ x ] Do you like hot wax - yes... i spilled some on my dress.. its fucking HELL trying to get it off too [ x ] Do you like incense - yea x ] Do you like the taste of blood - oh yea [ x ] Do you believe in love - not really.. i think love is just a 4 letter word people use to make things pretty [ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - not really. ] Do you believe in love at first sight – used to.. heh, i *USED TO* belive in a bunch of things [ x ] Do you believe in Heaven – nope [ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - depends on what it is [ x ] Do you believe in God - nope. [ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die – burned and thrown into the ocean [ x ] Who is your worst enemy – i dont think i have any enemies anymore. [ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - a kangaroo [ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up- one time i just DIDNT go to sleep at all.. just school and go online all day [ x ] Ever been to Belgium - nah [ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - i can try [ x ] What's your favorite coin - dimes .. they smell funky [ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - life. [ x ] What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow - for her to fucking talk to me! |
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My complaint today is regarding the government.... well not really "THE" government.. all types of governments.. Democracy,Faceism, Communism, ism ism ism ....etc. i say humans shouldnt rule amongst humans.. i say we should be governed byt something superior to us.. like God. and im not just being rebellios.. i simply find it extreamly hard to rely on the Governers like Jeb Bush who hasnt even been capable of governing his own daughter! i think we shouldnt have any human government. Anarchy would be for the better... but not the kind of anarchy everyone has in mind, of everyone going crazy and chaotic all over the place.. i want non-violent anarchy. The only reason i hate laws is because they dont make sense. for instance, ABORTION like it or not, abortion is legal... killing a goddammn baby is legal... but marijuana is illegal. they say drugs kill you .. but its your own choice to decide wether you want to use them or not.. its your own free will. while abortion is taking away a right from a human being you are not giving them free will, you are just killing them. thats why i think everyone should do drugs until the government decides to give a harsher punishment to those bastards that kill their babies. .. its kinda like a protest really, if you think about it... My Future. -- well, ive been getting shitloads of information about universities by mail...... all of them explaining how they are the best for me and how i should go to THEM .. ive said this a bunch of times now. but im serious now.. I DONT WANT ANY EDUCATION. what i do want is to drop out and carry out a nomadic lifestyle ... travel all over Europe and all i want to do is learn how to play guitar. ... i love guitar. no one can possibly understand how much i love it. the problem with it is that i suck. ... i might look for the tabs and learn a whole song but it dosnt sound right when i play it.. its horrible. anyways, i want to learn to play really well. that would make me happy. real happy. I might even get married. and if i do it would be very spontanious.. nothing planned... if i get married, i would get married with a guy friend or a chick friend... like we would probably be talking about Spongebob Squarepants and then out of no where we would decide to get married right away.... i would possibly be wearing a hula skirt and coconuts on my boobs and my hair would be messy and dirty as hell. and instead of engagement rings, i would give him/her a copy of a favorite book of mine. and then we would both be poor .. but we would really like it.. and he would HAVE to know how to play guitar. we would simply be like friends. well, except for the fact that we would have alot and alot of sex. sorry... i know all this was really corny.. the thing with me is that i now have a real understanding "LOVE" and all that romantic crap. ofcourse i like girls AND guys, mostly girls. as a matter of fact, i like them very easily, im now just not going to accept it. and im not going to go out with them simply because they're stupid. they are all equally stupid. just a bunch of sex maniacs. i dont hate sex. its actually pretty cool. .. i just hate the way some guys only talk to you just because they want to poke you... i really hate that. |
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ok so i sat and thought all this out, ok so here i go -- this is me. (yes it IS 4 pictures, you deserve a pat on the back and a cookie) so thats me, and im bisexual, im a loser and a hypocrite and i LOVE it .. i dont have any friends just people i know, im afraid of clowns, im afraid of inclosed places, im afraid of getting hurt, mentally, not physically, i like pain, now. I live in a ghetto neighborhood that most people are scared of, i have a bed time curfew, 9.00 p.m., i never do my homework, i keep telling myself im going to pass, when im really not. i have pimples all over my face, i try to hide them but i just cant. i try to play guitar, but i can only play a few songs, i lie WAY to much, but i dont anymore, if i DO end up lying, then i come back telling the truth later. THIS is not a lie. i like girls, i like boys, i would consider myself bisexual but i dont like labels anymore.. im not a "punk", im not "hardcore" im not "goth" or anything, im simply HUMAN, i wear baggy clothes, because i feel comfortable in them, not because i want to be "hip" or "in style" no. none of that shit anymore. i went to church today, "Curch of Jehova" it wasnt boring, or tiring or anything, i wasnt FORCED to, i went and missed Wrestling practice because i WANTED too.. i wrestle, i love the pain i get, i bled i think, twice? but it was DAMN worth it. i love to wrestle, i love to play football, football is my life, after i lost the other one ... but whatever. i go out wearing clothes i WANT to wear. if you dont like me wearing long white socks with long black shorts, fuck you then, if you dont like me wearing christmas socks when you wear halloween socks, oh well then, im sick and tired of changing and being someone im not.. some one i try to be when i just want to be MYSELF... i just feel like i cant be myself around some people.. im not going to highlight names or whatever i like sesame street, i like elmo, i like all kinds of rock, and i like spanish reggae, and i |
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| im like working on a site.. which is pretty fucked up.. today was pretty fucked up. i like this girl. but shes straight and she has a boyfriend ... i like her like somewhat.. but its just starting to get more and more. its weird cause my friend likes her too.. id do ANYTHING to get her to notice me in *that* way atleast ONCE ..... hm.. ill just go and upload the pics of todays game. | ||||||
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Hey dad look at me Think back and talk to me Did I grow up according to plan? And do you think I'm wasting my time Doing things I wanna do? But it hurts when you disapprove all along And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can't pretend that I'm all right And you can't change me [Chorus] 'Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late And we can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect I try not to think About the pain I feel inside Did you know you used to be my hero? All the days you spent with me Now seem so far away And it feels like you don’t care anymore And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can’t stand another fight And nothing’s alright [Chorus] 'Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late We can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect Nothing’s gonna change the things that you said And nothing’s gonna make this right again Please don’t turn your back I can’t believe it’s hard Just to talk to you But you don’t understand [Chorus] 'Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late We can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect -- so yeah, this is like my first entry, and like.. i dunno i just want to say hi or something, and like life sucks, its a bitch and then you die. yea, take my advice kiddies, im 17 years old and stupid. |
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