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| Wednesday, November 3rd, 2004 |
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haha ok, I was just reading thru some of the things that I knew would still be on this journal.. and yes, I love my el jay, and no, I'm not comming back to Blurty.. bc my el jay is awesome.. I've changed a great deal, I'm actually happy here now, I plan on going to College next fall.. yea! yea! I'll be staying on campus, at Potomac State College majoring in Pre-physical Therapy, and then after the 2 years, I'll be transfering to University of Pittsburg.. And after than hopfully being employed in Md or where ever Tom is... xo Later! |
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| Friday, October 31st, 2003 |
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::ahem:: heehee I decided to post a bit in my Blurty.. LJ is comming along.. I post pretty often.. I just think its boring, it doesnt have the 100 some entries as my Blurty does... lol whatever.. I had a totally kick ass day today I was supposed to do all this work in history, but Michelle and I were talking and I do everything all the time.. so I decided that I was going to talk.. we talked about everything... It was soo fucking awesome... I finally learned that hot dudes name.. Zack.. he so doesnt look like a Zack tho.. looks like a Tom.. I think so at least, Michelle agreed with me too.. EEE!! Halloween. David and Munchie are comming over tonight. Things are getting better between us. We had this nice little chat.. but hes still a Jerk and highly annoying.. oh well.. I mean his best friend moved to Maryland and he doesnt care... poor Zero.. hope hes ok.. We are going to leave tonight or amybe tomarrow morning and get my car. we dont have tags for it so we are going to do it the illegal way to get it back home.. (taking tags off of the truck) I am so excited about my car. Yeah so its still another used one, but hey, its newer and the nicest on yet! much love to everyone here... check out the LJ if ya want <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 |
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| Saturday, October 25th, 2003 |
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General asshats Militant Vegans Osama bin Laden Hipsters DMV Employees, Riceboys River Styx Parents who bring squalling brats to R-rated movies River Phlegyas The Pope Gray Davis Saddam Hussein |
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I just spent the at least the last three hours writting a ton of advice to my best friend. I swear that if I need her she better be there... And then she deleted the post that she made!! WTF!! but I was smart and copied it on to Word and hacked in to her account and posted it as a private entry.. so yeah now she is reading thru it all and what now... TO be honest I really like LJ more that BLurty. Its so much better in my opinion.. tootles |
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-Am I sweet? -Am I crazy? -Am I lovable? -Am I funny? -Am I annoying? -Am I conceited? -Am I psycho? -Am I a good person? -Am I pretty/cute? -One word to describe me? - - Would You - - -Miss me if I was gone? -Listen to my problems? -Hug me if I cried? -Even if it was you who made me do it? - - If opposite sex - - -Would you ever kiss me? -Have you ever missed me? - - How well do you know me - - -How old am I? -What school do I go to? -Who is my best friend? -Favorite color? -Lucky number? -Worst habit? -How many people have I kissed? -Have you ever missed me? -Do I drink or do drugs? -Biggest flaw? -Favorite sport? -Favorite TV Show? -Favorite song? -Favorite music group? Favorite past time? - - Who Am I - - -What TV Star do I most remind you of? -What song would you give to me? - - If you could - - -Give me a new name it would be? -Hook me up with someone it would be? -Do one thing with me it would be? - - Just A Few Questions - - -What do you love about me? -What do you hate about me? -First thing you think of when you see me is? -Your first impression of me? -Are we close? -If you could change one thing about me it would be? -If you could tell me something before I died what would it be? |
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| Friday, October 24th, 2003 |
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| yeah yeah, so I am going to livejournal.com username crimsonXsoul if you want a journal there let me know and I will get u a code | ||||
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Yes. It is I Kandi updateing the lovely blurty for Kelly. Since she invaded my Journal, im gonna invade hers, with nothing to say. Fuck it. xo |
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I had one typed out but it didnt go thru. it was mainly about Michelle and how I might be going to the gig tomarrow night with her.. its just some local band, but i think it would be kick ass to get over and see them. I just have to find a way to get htere.. Michelle drives, maybe she could give me a ride.. yeah like that would fly with my mom and dad. Mom has work from 2-10 and dad is going to Daves to put on a Roof. So yeah I am going to be alone from 2-7 at least. And the gig is at 6. I was talking with Matt a little while ago.. it was interesting.. lol.. Anyways..I guess thats all I have to say for now.. |
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ok quick update... upon the color changes that were done to make everything a happier place... I had a really sucky Icon, and I uploaded a few others just incase I needed something new.. Im so happe that its Friday. I really needed this weekend to come. I know that I should be full of engery becuase I pretty much onlywent have this week. Like all day tuesday, and half of Wednesday...and well yesterday too.. so I did go more than half.. I just cant miss anymore schooling.. daddy said so. Since I told mom and dad everything that was bringing me down again, I am feeling better, I still dont tell them EVERYTHING... for instance the dude that asked if I got high or smoked... They dont need to know that stuff... They know enought as it is. I havent had to see David at all this week. Like I said I was leaving early in the begining of the week, and yesterday and from waht I was told, he was apsent yesterday too.. I dunno if I should forgive him, and talk things out, I mean he was pretty kool to hang out with, just a really sucky person to like. And WAAYYY outta my league.. But what ever... I will go toclass and determine what happens from there. I didnt turn in my local Bands story.. but no one has seemed to notice, Why should I bother with it when I never get published? Its always the Seniors that do, and the Jocks and the Cheerleaders, no one wants to know anything that I have to say, and really how often to people pick up a School Newspaper off of the stand that is not littered futher down the hall anyway? Most of the time they are just used to mess up classrooms and the bathrooms.. nothing like words stuck to the floor after a paper gets wet and drys.. well I have to go find my Sweat shirt and the other Rancid CD for Michelle, even tho she has been out for a week or so sick. Poor kid.. Hope she's ok.. |
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| Wednesday, October 22nd, 2003 |
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 Interesting. Looks like you're a Lesbian. That's not even a real word, and it fits, because nobody really understands your type. Guys hate having to put up with women's annoying habits, but you do it willingly. We know you like dick, though, otherwise you wouldn't have so many dildos. interesting results there isnt there?! |
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+ are you stressd out? Yes. Very Much So. + what do you wear to the beach. Well, I wear clothes. or some swim wear + do you belive in angels. Yes I do. + would you ever join the army. I have thought of it, but decided against it..I get homesick too easy + do you want a puppy. I did, I wanted one that played but I got Pongo, and he like to play..so no.. not anymore + ever had a kick me sign on you. Yes, but I took it off.. Thanks Liz + how about a lick me sign. Cant say that I have + Favorite icing. Chocolate + are u a flirt. yes, but I just always thought I was being friendly.. + last time you were scared. almost all ways + by what? well that daddy was going to be upset with me again and that I was going to hurt him once more. + last party you went to. Aug 27th (somewhere around that date.) Aunnual Party at Grandmas that my cousin take care of + do you do your own laundry. sometimes...Mom does it most of the time, but when there is something I want to have back before Laundry day, then I have to do it + what detergent do you use. um.. I think its Tide + what fabric softner do you use. Downey. + are your nails real or fake. Real. And short. Pete said I had to cut em off more.. + do you get jiggy with it. Jiggy? haha no. I haven othing to get Jggy with. lol + do u live at the wild wild west. No. Cant say that I do + what do you wish you were named. Umm....I dont know. Something with more character. + favorite movie star...Heath Ledger and Johnny Depp. + are your parents divorced...if so for what reasons. No. From what I understand they love each other lots.. + would you ever wear a waterbra. Hahhahahhaa, No, what if it busted? It would look like you sprung a leak.Plus my boobies are big enough + do you work out. I dont work out, but I do walk the dog in the field, and do lots of other things + are u muscular. not at all. Im strong but not muscular. + are you flabby. eh... not + are you fat. not really? + do you take a lot of pictures. Fuck yea. + favorite tv show. that 70's show. + do you want a baby. yea, but not now. + ever thought u were pregnent. nope. + last time you were sick. this morning + butter or margerine. butter. + your feelings on mcdonald chicken nuggets. they used to be this shit when I was little, but now they are gross + do chinese people really cook cats and dogs. I heard they do,and Jason said they fed it to him when he was in the service..but yeah Jason Lies + do you belilve in santa claus. not at all. + do you go to a tanning bed. no i hate tans. lol + are you in love...with anyone...with me??? eh, no..I was, but yeah + do you have a car. truck + do you have your licence? permit + how do you get around. mommy and daddy + favorite rugrats character. .. chuckie + got milk. yep. *wipes face from eating cookies and Milk* + do you sniff markers. no, not usually. + are you dissatisfied with your hair color. yeah, I want something diffrent.. too many ppl have Brown hair.. + what kind of jewlery do you wear. braclets. and necklaces + what do you think of *//\//Sync?? bleh *spits* + have you ever modeled. in front of my mirror, yes. + do you shop in catalogs. yes + what do you like the opposite sex to wear. eyeliner and tight leather pants.. + do you have a cellie. yea. + what do you think of eminem. eh, i like that he speaks his mind, but his music..... no. + favorite kind of gum. Extra + would you ever get a tatoo. yes! + what magazines do you get. circus, revolver, guitar world. + do you belive your horoscope. yes. + Whats your sign. Piecies even more random.. + do u like coffee...what kind...what in it: I prefer Tea + do you write in pen or pencil....or markers. pen and sharpies + are you ghetto. hahah.. ur funny! + favorite lip gloss. umm the kindin my purse? its bubble gum.. I like the apple too + do you wear a watch. nah + sunglasses. no. + ever use nair....if so where? not nair, but Kandi and I decided to wax our legs together once... OUCH!!! We stoped that one quick + ever been to the mall of america. nope + do you want a leather jacket. yes! +ever ridden a motorcycle. hell yeah, my dad had a Harley, and my mom has a Honda, and I have a Suzuki 200 dirt bike that they got me for my 14th B day + are you online a lot. yes + do you buckle up. yes. do you know how to yo yo. yes i do. + what color are your panties. red plaid *wink* + ok we're done are you happy? not really... now I have nothing better to do |
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| yes yes, some things have changed.. I thought that the other colors and such were quite sorrowful and I thought that brighter colors and a happier icon may do the trick. So there ya go. I made so changes.. I still have a few more to make, such as the links to leave comments and stuff like that. But No Worries I'll get there eventually.. | ||||||
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I was feeling pretty blue this morning, I called my mom in third period and told her that we need to talk... So she came and got me, I poured my heart out, and told her everything, how I hate this place, how I have no one here, and SOME things about David. Dad just called.. he must have some radio transmitter thing to tell him when something is wrong..Mom is getting ready for work, she will be gone until 6 tonight..so now that Dad knows, we will have a talk to night. I wanted to call it this morning, but didnt have the guts to do it. Dad just said that he'd talk to me, but I cry everytime we talk, Shit, I do that when I talk to anyone. Its just me. And I cry. I got to stay strong tho. And I hope to GOD that he doesnt get emotional on me. I know that hes a human too, but he was always the strongest on in my life...and if he falls, it seems that everything else is.. Mom said that she didnt know what to do. She told me that Maybe if I start looking at things in a better light, and look for hte better in them, it might help.. She was sort of mad, because today is her 1st offical day at work, where she gets out on the floor, and has to wonder if I am going to be at home all bummed out, and hurting myself. I havent hurt my self now since the talk with my mom and dad about cutting... I fight it really I do. But I know that would lead me into a straigh downfall.. and I dont want that. I have got to be strong. I have to get thru these stupid Teenage years. I dont want to be weak anymore. I want to be able to go out with friends on a Friday night and take my truck, I want to get my license. And I will.. I will accomplish all of that. I am just going to have to work harder, and look up more.. Show my happy face once in a while. Something like that... So now that I am on my mission, I think I am going to go play guitar. |
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I just posted into Nay Blurty, about the lyrics to This Time Imperfect.. Have you ever sat there and cryed becuase a song was so real, like you could relate to everythign that the Vocallist was humming? I dont know, I feel my self drifting back in to all of the depression, and everything around me isnt helping matters. I hate myself, I hate most of the people around me (all but my mom and dad and like 2 ppl from school) I hate everything. There is nothing anymore that can help it seems. I Hate feeling like this too. I have found the tears again, I guess that the well inside of me had gone dry, and had now reach a safe level to let me go again. I just feel so fucking empty inside, like there is that one thing missing that would make it all better. I really dont want to go to school, not in the emotional state that I am in right now.. I didnt sleep again, I laid there and staired at the clock all night. I think out of the whole night the hour I didnt see it change to was 6 A.M. but eh, I get up at 6 45 so way to go Kel. Fuck it. No use in writing everything out and wasting my time... but its not like I have anything better to do with myself is there?! Just fuck off for now. |
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| Tuesday, October 21st, 2003 |
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I really dont want to go to school. I Know that I have to tho. I really with that I coulf be transfered right now. I have PSAT today..so that should fry my brain for the rest of the day. lol.. But sadly the test will only run into 4th Pd, Not Lunch and Science. So yes, I am still going to have to see DAvid. and that really upsets me. I dont want to see him.. I know that I am going to end up forgiving him... I know that I am going to get to Lunch, hes going to take me by the arm, and towards the dumpster to talk. But I swear to fucking God, if he lays a hand on me I am going to kick up...im fucking tired of being passive, and letting people take me as a joke, and walk over me. No onger will I let that happen.. NEVER will I let things get to this level. I dunno... and When he askes why I wasnt there yesterday, I'll just say I was sick or something. I am not going to let him know that he was the reason I didnt show up. Yesterday was a pretty shitty day as it was. my mom started work, and I was just feeling the hatred from the world. Idk how to describe how I was feeling yesterday, seemed like Every one was out to get you. and I felt like some one was always watching me. Well I have to get upstairs and find my hoodie that I want to wear, and brush my teeth.. and get mom up for this lovely Tuesday Morning.. *rolls eyes* |
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| Monday, October 20th, 2003 |
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-- # of drugs taken illegally: i dont do drugs -- # of people I could trust with my life: one. -- # of CDs that I "own" : erm..alot? -- # of piercings: zero -- # of tattoos: none -- # of scars on my body: to many -- # of things in my past that I regret: oh God, so much.. Random Questions What are you wearing right now: my pj's/yesterdays stuff..AFI shirt and lounge pants How often do you shower: everyday When was the last time you were naked: this morning Why are you filling out this survey: i have nothing else to do What do you do when you are bored: update, talk online, watch TV, sleep, take walks Are you a people person: hmm depends.i can be but then not really Do you ride the big yellow twinkie to and from school: nope..my mom takes me..now that she has a job tho I will have to in the afternoon. Is Barney cool: eww no You watch the power rangers: I use too! This or that: those shower or bath: shower shorts or pants: pants shoes or sandals: SHOES...ew sandals..unless ive okayed them.. sock or no socks: socks orange or blue: orange day time or night time: night kissing or hugging: both at the same time.. aww.. boxers or briefs: boxers.. but whatever, its ur undies white or black: black 1. Favorite band(s)? AFI, NoFx, Rancid, Sublime, Bikini Kill, Tiger Army..so many more 2. Do you enjoy concerts? yeah they can be pretty awesome. 3. What was the last concert you attended? Good Charlotte 4. Music you couldn't live without? AFI and Rancid 5. Kind of music that would fall off the face of the earth and you wouldn't care nor miss it? hmm. BLue Grass, Rap, and some of the older country 6. About how many CDs do you "own"? didnt i just answer this? 7. How many CDs can your stereo hold at a time? 3 cd's 8. Do you have a discman? i couldnt live without it. 9. What CD could you listen to for hours? AFI- Black Sails in the Sunset 10. Can you sing well? They tell me no... but I like to sing. How many CDs do you own by... 011. Britney Spears? ick none 012. City High? who? 013. O-Town? none 014. Eminem? none..had one, gave it to mah cousin 015. Incubus? umm like 2 016. Blink 182? three 017. Everclear? one 018. Mandy Moore? none 019. Backstreet Boys? none 020. N'Sync? zero 021. Dr. Dre? zero 022. Fuel? one 023. Linkin Park? one 024. Destiny's Child? zero 025. Dream? zero 026. Korn? none 027. Limp Bizkit? two 028. Missy Elliot? zero 029. Nelly Furtado? if its the one that does that Fly like a Bird chick...none 030. Jessica Simpson? zero 031. Christina Aguliera? zero 032. Eve 6? one 033. Sum 41? one 034. No Doubt? one 035. Mariah Carey? none What comes to your mind when you hear... 036. Goo Goo Dolls? i think of that videa where hes looking out of those teloscopes 037. Lifehouse? Jason... hes cute 038. Vertical Horizon? a few good songs 039. Vitamin C? graduation song..ew 041. Savage Garden? My grandma just bought a few of there Cds 042. Papa Roach? lol.. "Broken Stove!" it was a joke by Kandi and I 044. Toni Braxton? um? 045. 98 Degrees? the Show on MTV about Nick and Jessica.. shes a bitch 046. Our Lady Peace? meeh,.. their ok i guess 047. The Verve Pipe? meh, idk hmm thats all?!? that didnt take enough time.. Im off to search for more. |
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 You Are Practical With Clothes: You buy things only when you need them and are responsible. You aren't addicted, but your wardrobe might need a boost here and there  "If you can't leave it be...Might as well make it bleed"  Truely Broken |
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I really have to work on my sleeping habits. I really felt like napping yesterday, I am always at this constant tiredness and along with it comes those feelings of guilt and insignificance. I hate how I feel. I act happy so as not to worry my mom and dad. The whole talk we had about cutting was enought to hide everything. I do think it has helped me bring my habits to an end, but I still have that urge to draw blood every once in a while. I have noted that drawing little black hearts on or around the area that u want to hurt helps. I have also been thinking of reasons that I may have began doing that to my self. I used to (and still do) get the urge to hurt myself when I am let down, or angry at some one else. I thought that since I am not exactly one to stand up and take care of things that upset me, that mostly others bring on, I take out my anger towards them, on to my self. I have often lost it, and blew up on those people. but then it bothers me for the next few days; the things I said, gestures that I may have made to them, things that were rude... its things like that I think I keep everything in. Also, I think my lack of being able to open up to others. With the new school that I am attending, I try desperatly to talk with new people. but I dont trust any one of them. I think with the occurings that happened because of David, also didnt help matters. I get frusterated with my self, not being able to trust these new people, not saying things, and including my self in more conversations. Then I used to come home and cut, burn, and scratch until enough pain and damage was done, that I felt relieved. I honestly dont know why I have to question, and figure out every ill minded thing I have done.. but I do. and it bothers me. If I try to push it out of my head, It leaves me to think about it when I am trying to sleep. I dont even cry any more. I used to cry all the time, it was like thearapy. It felt better. But I cant do it anymore.. like I ran out of things to cry about and everything seems so Clichéd. Mom starts work today. she got a job at K mart. Its only part time, but I think after the holidays they are going to put her on full time. It sort of bothers me that she is going to working again. With Sign-A-Rama, where she used to work, she could just tell them she was leaving and go. Now she wont be as free as she used to me. They are working around her schedule for now, until I can talk with Pete and move my guitar lessons, but then she wont be taking me. I have to move to a later time, so Dad can take me. I dont want Dad to take me. Things are aweward with him..I always sit and think of what I am going to say to him. I ama terrified of saying something wrong and him catching on to it and throwing it back in my face. He has never hurt me or anything, I just..Dont know to be honest. My dad is the type that says what he thinks, The way I used to be until I began choking one my words and learned to swallow my thoughts. And I think, for him to say something to me, his opinions, it would lead to me downfall... *look at me ramble... I almost brought on the tears again thinking about all of this shit.* I get so irritated. I drive me self nuts with the little things that bother me. For instance, I will be watching something on TV and Dad will up and take the remote and turn the channel.. Same program to watch, but only a diffrent channel.. whats the use of that. Or when my mom gets that Motherly ugre to fix my shirt or something in public... it drives me nuts. Its the simple things. I was talking with Alyx about the whole David thing that happened.. and she said that she has seen me on the brings of loosing it... For the last month and a half I have been walking on a fucking tight rope trying not to loose it.. and then people tell me that they admire me for how strong I am.. Ha! People dont know shit do they? Im sorry... I really am.. And thats another thing that I have been doing alot lately.. I am so fucking remorseful. If something really small happens I am giving you the "im sorry" line. Even if I didnt do anything, and something happens that its your own dame fault, Im sorry. Things that I can not control... yes I am sorry. To be Honest, I am sorry. I am sorry that I was put here and I have to take up space on this earth. I just dont know anymore.... |
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| Sunday, October 19th, 2003 |
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Ok, so another sleepless night, and I was actually free of thought. I think half of my problem is I have nothing to do, so I just sleep when Im not exactly tired. Leavinf to be restless at the comming of night. I dunno. Something like that.. The last few night I thought about so much, but last night, I do believe that I was pretty wired for hte most part. Excuses. Oh well. Mom and I went to the parade yesterday.. it was nice, I felt a bit childish sitting on the curb but whatever, I enjoyed watching the people, and I really hope we get a chance to go to the festival later on today. But since it looks a bit like Rain, I doubt that we will be going. mom Went to here orintation yesterday, I got bored and Called Micheal when she wasa gone, I was really hoping to talk to Grandma, but she and Rick werent there at the moment, I guess the whole thing WIth Tasha and her kids has gotten to be a huge problem. Gram is gettting really sick again, and keeps breaking out in to hives from her nerves, she said that it hurts really bad too. Poor Grandma. But ne ways, I talked to micheal for a while, she said that Tasha got another AFI cd. I asked what one, and she couldnt recall but later said what it was. Micheal also said that they had Air Hockey tables on sale up there.. heehee.. (I am going to be sooo uset if I dont get it!) Chrismas is going to be on the tight end this year, we have always gotten for EVERYone and this year, its mainly the kids, and my Grandparents. Not all the Aunts and Uncles, Not all the other kids.. No one has the $ this year. Everyone has been doing work on there houses and work is really slow in PA, and alot of ppl dont have Jobs. Gram wants me to move there after High School, but why would I want to do that?!? If they are having all of those issues, Why would I want to fuck my self over and go thru all of that?! Not having a good Job that pays, not being able to find a nice place to live. Plus I personally think that the taxes in PA are out ragous. I would never be able to afford a house, with the interest rates that are being asked up there. We have our House on a 6% and in PA the lowest they are going in that area is 17% I cannot see paying that much! If I would pay 700 in a house payment (ballpark guess) with the 17% woo!! I would have no money left over for my other bills. Not many kids go straight from High School, and get a Great paying Job. Yes I do agree that some are luckier and more talented than others, but I dont think that I am part of that luckier crew. ok thats enought ramble about things I shouldnt be worring about at the tender age of 16.. but eh, gotta think of it some time or another.. right?! I gotta make some breakfast and then get dressed and help Daddy out side in the yard. tootles. |
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| Saturday, October 18th, 2003 |
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Don’t worry about me I’m gonna make it alright Got my enemies cross haired and in my sight I take a bad situation gonna make it right In the shadows of darkness I stand in the light Ya see it’s my style and I’ll keep true I had a bad year but I got through I’ve been knocked out, beat down, black and blue... If I fall back down You’re gonna help me back up again If I fall back down You’re gonna be my friend Rancid-fall back down (I picked this one from what Alyx posted... and it reminded me of this song... so I pulled some lyrics) Casey was never caught up, like the rest of the rats in a fucking maze “Check me out” she said, “I’m in a concrete jungle, I’m an individual and you’re stuck in my waste” Oh hell no, she knows what the truth is. Because she said so She knows who her friends are so fuck you, don’t get no closer, it’ll only make her run far away {Red Hot Moon} ( I just love that song... too Bad Casey Dies at the end) Listen up all you skaghead, sewer rats, gangsters, Villains and whores, the dark figures from the shadows, Crept up from behind, where they brandished a gun, Pointed directly at his face, And they shuddered at the sight when the words were spoken, "Go ahead, son, but you're making a big mistake," As the clueless of the night reflected off the cobblestone roads, And silence took over, he said: "Do you know who the fuck I am?" {David Courtney} ( Posted that one, just b/c if some one walked up behind me I think I would have a heart attack... *remember the Elbow is the stongest poin on you body* heehee) I'm not looking for a fight now, And I don't care who's wrong or right now, So release the dove into flight now, So we can start right now.. {Start Right Now} Get one thing clear, first you live in fear, then you disappear, and that unity Shift gear, and i, try to stear, i see a tear, you're so fuckin insincere... You drag your coffin around You drag your coffin around You drag your coffin around Django, You drag your coffin around All around town, just like a dead man does Just like a dead man does Just like a dead man does Just like a dead man Dead man Dead man Dead man Dead man {Django{ (I posted this one.. I will not drag my coffin around.. ) Yeah? They were sure I was guilty, but I committed no crime They said: confessions bring lenience, so that put me on the line So I, protest the massacres at the Talliman Square My friends say yo, stay away man, you better not go fucking back there Oh. Watch this One night I might write about my opinions about the state And the freedom of expression they would never tolerate And the, military secrets that I never did steal I didn’t start no violence, no, and there was nobody that I killed No. So I had a clear account of all abusers of power And the memories of homeland all gone sour And I only got one weapon, it’s so plain for me to see My only weapon I call, poetry And I don’t even know why The truth seems like a lie In my cell there is no sky When I was arrested in Shanghai Now, in a world of privilege I was not born But, the devotion of freedom and liberty I was sworn So, every emotion is studied, watched their control Who gets paid, who gets disciplined, who gets born So, transmitting beams my coordinates, anywhere on Earth And, as radio waves, surveillance, satellite bursts Open up your skull and let some knowledge come in Ya, crack open the cranium and let awareness begin Oh. And I don’t even know why The truth seems like a lie In my cell there is no sky When I was arrested in Shanghai When I was arrested in Shanghai When I was arrested in Shanghai Woo! {Arrested in Shanghai} (posted the whole song... I just love this one...People do really need to open up and "let some knowledge come in") He was back, causing trouble, Time's they're a comin' round, Oh no, let me go to another round, Tuesday night is when the storm's gonna settle down, Had a glance, circumstance, Don't cause, trouble bound, She's the one, all alone, I come lookin', Smoke and mirrors as I watch, Aw, that girl was trippin', It's no fun, lost again, To have your heart broken, Greed is from a world that is built on hustling. {Memphis} (hmm.. something about that one... I like) If you lose me, you lose a good thing, that's one thing I know for sure. {tropical London} (indeed) Go to work, go to school, get a fucking job, Sit at home like a fucking slob, I prowl the street like I'm the fucking law, All too crazy, tripped and crawl, Depression can't cut me out of the music, So I choose it, I use it, I won't fucking lose it! {roadBlock} (yeah.. thats it exactly) Hold your head up high, Cuz tomorrow you may die, Cuz no one's safe around here, No one's safe around here. Stand your ground, Til you're the last one in town. {stand ur ground} I was an atheist, You wore the crucifix, We put our differences to the side, This time a lesson learned, You told me not to mourn, Your heart is bigger every night I'm alive {otherside} Indeed that concludes just about the whole Indestructible CD... I advise every one to get it.. Its fucking awesome.. |
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ecstatic.
tired.
happy.
bored.
calm.
accomplished.
depressed.
drained.
indescribable.