wannabe87's Blurty

Time:	7:17 am.
Mood:	Vulnerable.

Im talking to Riyaz, he's acting really wierd. I dont know, i thought we were really great friends and we understood each other. Huh - he couldn't be one of the perverts or something that get girls into their house could he? I hope not, I really do want to go to California to see him and Mike, but he was just pushing it this morning. I don't know. So...geez, I just hope Im not screwing up here. He was acting really wierd today! Like he wasn't him...

Sorry that's kinda chopped up - im paying attention to a movie im whatching and writing this. Hey - it's got John Travolta in it - can't go worng. I LOVE John Travolta! She just pored coffe into the bottel!!! LOL - god! I Love John Travolta - he's so funny!!! He has made GREAT movies. So Ill talk to you guys later today hopefully.

Luv Ya Guys

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Time:	9:23 am.
Mood:	Used.

I was used...yet again. What has come out of this? I am shutting myself out. No one is allowed in.

GO AWAY

I have only a few exceptions, Jon, Gen, Chris, and Wolfie

The rest of you - GET LOST.

I tried Fritz, I stuck up for you. I was there - I told everyone else off, I told them to FUCK OFF cause i thought we could actually make a realtionship work. God Damn it I selpt with you! To know you used me hurts, and makes me realize i am in this world alone - no one else is here and im gone. No one will ever get inside me again, I let my cover down and tired to let someone in but you took that and you used it. No one will ever get in again, I will make sure of that. Im here for you Fritz, I Love You, I will aways beilive in you. But what you did was not fair to me, and it hurts.

If you need me, call me, I am here for life. But never again will my cover drop. Never again, will anyone know what is in my heart and mind. It's shut. All that has ever happened is injury, Im sick of it. Good Bye.

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Time:	8:55 pm.
Mood:	anxious.

Everyone's mad, everyone's upset. I just want them to be okay. They keep on telling me I can't do anything. Why? why can't I have more control so I can make them feel better? Please don't hurt yourselves, please, I will hurt myself if I ever find out any of you ever got hurt! I wish I could make them all feel better. I want them to smile and be happy!!! I Love You All, please be alright! Call me, vent to me, bitch at me! I want you all to feel better!!! I Love Yous!!!

*side note*
When I said slept, that's all that was meant - slept, NOT sex, just slept in the same bed - there's a differnce. And don't discuss it please, to ANYONE, even me. I'd appreciate it greatly. Thanks.
*end side note*

I Love You All! Please Take Care! I Love You!

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