Something bad happened on Gen adn Pual's date...the worse thing? I was imaging it while I was trying to go to sleep last night. Why? I always do, for a bit fo adventure and possiblilty - I blow things up - way out of porportion, it's fun. But none of them have ever come true! And this one might...Errrrrrr - Damn Me and My DayDreams! It's my fault too, I gave Gena negative Picture, Paul can be a GREAT guy. Not just some all-I-want-is-pussy guy. That's my fault....this is all my fault. But Gen found that out not from me, on her own, she simply asked for confirmation - and I said, he CAN be at times, but he also CAN be a really sweet guy! ARG! *voice goes from high to low* Why do I have to be such a bitch! On top of this, Brian and Becca got back together - I knew they would, I mean comon. Both of them have kept on comming to me and Mike for endless ages now wondering should I ask him back out, there's so much we didn't do. Know I have to see this thorugh again, which is NOT a bad thing - I mean I want them to be happy and enjoy being with each other! It's just, I don't know, I might still have a thing for Brian, but I don't know anymore, I really don't. I just want a guy...someone. But that'll never happen. Why? I'm Samantha Zeman - I don't get a guy, I just help others with they're problems. Errrrrrr - I should be like ask Dr. Ruth or someone, and NOT have a guy. I hate the world really I do.
*sigh*
I'm giving up on this rant - it will always exsit but frankly, no one cares, and im sure they're all getting sick of it as am I. Depressed, shut-out Sam. That's what I was, that's what I am. And always will be. Arg, I hate life.
(I find this humorous at times - one group of people have no fucking clue what i am saying, and who the fuck I am. Another group of people know exactly what I am saying and do JACK SHIT to care or make a difference.)
Screw the World, Fuck Off
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