wannabe87's Blurty

Time:	12:15 pm.
Mood:	UnWanted/Grounded.

I'm home again, sick, but oh well! Riyaz emailed me back! He's my friend from Cali! Riyaz and I would get married if it weren't for the fact that he's 30....arg, stupid age differences. I Love Riyaz, I'm so happy he emailed me! Alright, just for the record. I am single. I am on the market - and frankly, for long term purposes only! *sigh* Never will I find someone, so I am back! For those of you who knew me before the boy empic (Brian, Mike, Matt, Rose) I am Back. Sam, the one you complained to, the one you talked to, the one you asked advice from? I'm back. Come to me, I share no information on me, only about you. The Sam that knows all, hears all, tells a little? Yeah, she's back - reluctantly...Im here for all of yas. Im sane again, I hat being sane, but no one else will be. Errrrrrrrrrr - Im here, need me? Yeah you know how to get a hold of me.

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Time:	1:56 pm.
Mood:	Helpless/Satisfied.

Talked to Jon, so depressed he is. I wish I could make him smile. Wish I could make him happy! He's so depressed, can he not see what a great guy he is? We were talking about looks...he's changed yes, but have I? Have I changed in appearence so much that I am not reconizable? Apparently so...well another one will be added. I'm gettting new glasses, they came in today - and they're black. Score! You know what be the bst score though? Seeing Jon smile? This opens up a topic I don't have time to elaborate on right now. Jon, he smiled, he was happy, I saw desire and hope in his eyes. I Loved It. I wish it would've stayed. When you may ask? Kendell. All Kendell. *closes eyes and pictures face* I don't lie when I say this. I pick one face a person gives me, the one face I wish to remember them by, and I keep it. I will always remember Jon by the face he had at Model UN. I wish that face could stay forever, that he could feel happy and smile the rest of his life. Hmmm....I hope his dream come true and at the same time, I hope Gen's come true too.

(Don't ask if you don't understand)

muah

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Time:	7:09 pm.
Mood:	happy.

This 23-year-old guy, who I don't know where he lives cares weather I Live or Die. Mm. *smiles* That's more than I can say for some of you, not all of you, but some of you...I'm thankful for that too...*smiles*

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