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Date:2003-07-13 06:37
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Date:2003-07-12 16:27
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DAMN FUCKING EMAIL! Im STUCK ON FRITZ! GET OUT, OUT I TELL YOU!!! *Cries* I want him gone...

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Date:2003-07-11 15:37
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Mood: loved

Well than, Joe? I didn't want to leave either! And you know what...somehow. Hearing him those last few minutes and knowing he did not want me to go at all. That was the best part of the day. Knowing that you're wanted is ALWAYZ a good feeling. And I want him equally as much, he's a great guy and so much more. Thanks Joe, I Love You.

Well than, church. We have decided on Strong Tall Towers, with Mike playing bass guitar - But DO NOT, I repeat DO NOT! Tell anyone else. It's going to be a nice little surprise. mhm....what else. Well yes, I've got two more to show you.

Brian (3:31:19 PM): yea
Brian (3:31:23 PM): people like seeing you
Brian (3:31:29 PM): well at least i know i do

::and::

Lisa (3:32:19 PM): hey-i'm gald you came to youth

WHY? That's my question - WHY? I Love You Guys too though, it's nice to see you once in a while I guess. Damn my heart of Gold!

Well than, Guess what? I've got idea after idea zomming in my head about Joe and I think I have enough to write a poem. And I will. I like doing such. I Love You.

mhm...I don't know if im supposed to know or not, but guess what? This is the second time when Ash has had a problem and/or "stood up" for me. He's prtective. I seriously thought he hated me, than at Joe's party it was like we were best friends going out again. And during my whole "fritz" phase, (which i may still be in, im not sure) I was told that Ask said he didn't like that Fritz might go out with his ex-gf. Now, with Joe, someone made a joke about me and whips and Ash got defesive and said - hey that's my ex-gf you're talking about. Hello, can someone clue me in? Am I supposed to be picking up a hint or is Ash really trying to be a good friend. Ash can be a great guy, a real romantic guy too - ive seen it, I went out with him, but we aren't going out anymore. So why on the defense? Don't ask him, don't tell him, i don't think he read this - hopefully not. I Love Him To Death, and I will Never Regret the time we had together. I'm just curious, why? Another mystery of Ash, we'll never know.

btw - i got a live journal account - seems most ppl would prefer i use that one, so i have one of those now. I'll get it to ya once it's all set up. Thanks Joe, I Love You!

his voice, that's what got to me the most. His voice, it was so child-like, yet seemed adultish...it was...i don't know. But I Liked it.

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Date:2003-07-11 07:16
Subject:Top and Bottom are the Voices in My Head
Security:Public
Mood: shocked
Music:Cars wizzing past on the street

wow...I never thought...Wolfie...I don't know what to say...I'll do anything I can...I Love You. *hugs*

Well than, should I continur my post...I will, Don't know why - really don't want to. My house hs now become a construction zone - we have now started ripping apart our carpet and vinayls so that they ppl we r gonna pay can come and put it all in. They are nails all over and it's all wood and matted down carpte - you gotta wear shoes in my house now. mhm.

Becca (8:23:42 PM): it was good to see you at church last night
Becca (8:24:49 PM): :-)
romotewild (8:25:22 PM): lol - THANKS! hehe - lots of pplz said that.
romotewild (8:25:32 PM): it's like i turned into this scarce devil person - it'
romotewild (8:25:34 PM): s funny
Becca (8:25:47 PM): lol
Becca (8:25:51 PM): well we like seeing you there
Becca (8:26:01 PM): yea you're opinionated, but then again so am i
Becca (8:26:02 PM): lol
romotewild (8:26:56 PM): i know - is that what everyone want? this opinated know it all bitch to argue? that's what ppl want? wow - you guys r despret for entertainment lol.
romotewild (8:27:11 PM): naw - jk, but it is amussing to dissappear and reappear
Becca (8:27:17 PM): lol
romotewild (8:27:30 PM): it's like im a mystery,d escovered over and over never getting old
romotewild (8:27:33 PM): lol
Becca (8:27:42 PM): lol
Becca (8:27:43 PM): yea...
romotewild (8:27:45 PM): yes well - you give me support - so i need you bitch.
Becca (8:28:04 PM): lol i know
Becca (8:28:13 PM): if i wasn't there you would have no competition
Becca (8:28:14 PM): lol
Becca (8:28:18 PM): that is when we disagree
Becca (8:29:39 PM): lol

Im Atheist okay? No two ways about it, yet I show up cause I Love these people. And than it makes them all happy to have me, the opinated bitch arguing the very exsistance of the lord there. Yet they LOVE seeing me. I get it from everyone. Not just Becca, Not just Mike - It's everyone - they all say that. *sigh* I'll never understand you ppl. But, I do appreciate the appreciation and once and while it is needed. Thanks.

So, there's a b-day party this Saterday Im attending. The conversation started as such...

Matt: Bring Friends, Lots of Friends.
Sam: Friends? mmm...
Matt: Um...Actually only two.
Sam: lol, alrighty - what can I get away with?
Matt: Nothing illeagle, and my parents will be there.
Sam: Nothing Ileagle heh? We'll figure something out, easily.

I LOVE goofing with this kid, he thinks my friends and I are like this bad ass gang who shouldn't be trusted! WITHOUT MY HELP!!! This is the best part, WITHOUT MY HELP! He is basing this off of a rumor he heard about me, that had nothing to do with friends at all! I LOVE goofing with this kids mind...its so easily entertained. lol. Well, since it appears that everyone is going to be busy, I invited Tim to come - haven't seen him all summer and wanted to. i am welcom to bring two. so anybody else? Actually, no - that'll be bad. I'll se what time says and get back to pplz kay? Luv Ya'll. But you know what else? this is actually gonna be a really wierd party for me...adult supervision. Im used to hanging with pplz and not having the supervision. So, I know the ppl so it'll be okay. for a little while, than ill be stressed thinking "i remember why i do not hang out with these ppl." Which is the purpose of inviting someone sane. Yes, i just called you all sane, don't you feel special? lol - jking around. ttys.

Good thing today? I get to go see Joe! YAY!

wow...that's just...i don't know what...I Love You.

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Date:2003-07-10 18:28
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Date:2003-07-10 13:38
Subject:
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Mood: happy

Well than, babysitting went well. 'cept when I talked to Lea - we were watching Peter Pan the musical - OMFG, you know what she said to me? This sweet, innocent 4 year old? "you know how I know that's a girl? Her stomachs showing, that's how i know it's a girl." FUCK NO! Society - WTF. Little 4 year olds thinking girls need to show their stomach? How corrupt is that!

Brian is so fucking sweet - we're gonna do a duet! For convo! I LOVE YOU BRIAN!!! Yes! Alright - here's the question to people of the church: God's Work or We Will Stand As Strong Tall Towers? Pick - Brian and I can't decide. Which one is more powerful and more of a - "OMG, *silence* That is so powerful - we get the message" type songs. I think both - you decide.

On the subject of church - I actually might start showing up again. IF this band thing starts up. That's the only way Im comming back - But it looks good. Ppl are intersted, and those intersted are serious. And so am I, so bring it on - Me and Everyoen else is going to ROCK that christian stage! BTW - I LOVE Amber or was it Amanda? W/E.

Well than, Mike! First of all - He was surprised. "woh, sam's here?" than he compliments me! He's so sweet. I ask, "can i get a hug?" He goes, "yep, and you get a cpmliment too - you've slimed down." Have I? :-D It's great if I have - he's so sweet! Gots lots to catch up with him though!

Well than, what else? Oh, the beging of yesterday lol. I think Im going over to lincoln to babysit. No - Im going ot 22nd street! LMAO - I was like "FUCK!" Than I had to run around getting there. Than, when I calculated how much the Smalings pay me...they uped my price! From 2.50 an hour to 4 bucks an hour! Without me saying anythign! Man do I Love Them! They're girls are so sweet too! I wa sittting there teasing one, nicly, and I said "You Love Me" To kayla, than Lea says, "I Love You Too!" I was all up and saying "awwwwwwwwww" She's so cute! And they built a tent in they're house out of play things and rugs - I FIT IN IT!!! IT's SO BIG! It's so cool too - and they slept in it, and they're soooooooo cuuuute!

Well than, that's my update. I have to figure out when I can see Joe later this week hopefully. I Love You All! have fun okay? *muah*

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Date:2003-07-10 13:27
Subject:Music
Security:Public
Mood: grateful

Depressed To Fritz Music - Damn Contry Made me think of it:


I Can Love You Better by Dixie Chicks
Doo n doo Ooh ooh ooh
Yeah ee yeah
She's got you wrapped up in her satin and lace
Tied around her little finger
She's got you thinking you never can escape
Don't you know your heart's in danger
There's a devil in that angel face
If you could only see the love that you're wasting.
I can love you better than that
I know how to make you forget her
All I'm asking is for one little chance
'Cause baby, I can love you
Baby, I can love you better
I'm gonna break the spell she's got on you
You're gonna wake up to find
I'm your desire
My intentions are true
Hey babe, I know in time
You're gonna see what you mean to me
So open up your eyes cause seeing is believing
I can love you better than that
I know how to make you forget her
All I'm asking is for one little chance
'Cause baby, I can love you
Baby, I can love you better
Oh-n-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh
Yeah-ee-yeah-eah-eah-eah
Ooh-ooh, yeah
I can love you better than that
I know how to make you forget her
All I'm asking is for one little chance
'Cause baby, I can love you
I can love you better than that
I know how to make you forget her
All I'm asking is for one little chance
'Cause baby, I can love you
Baby, I can love you
I can love you better than that
I can love you better
I can love you better than that
Baby, I can love you
Baby, I can love you better

I Would've Loved You Anyway
If I'd've known the way that this would end
If I'd've read the last page first
If I'd've had the strength to walk away
If I'd've known how this would hurt

I would've loved you anyway
I'd do it all the same
Not a second I would change
Not a touch that I would trade
Had I known my heart would break
I'd've loved you anyway

It's bittersweet to look back now
At memories withered on a vine
Just to hold you close to me
For a moment in time

I would've loved you anyway
I'd do it all the same
Not a second I would change
Not a touch that I would trade
Had I known my heart would break
I'd've loved you anyway

Even if I'd seen it comin'
You'd still have seen me runnin'
Straight into your arms

I would've loved you anyway
I'd do it all the same
Not a second I would change
Not a touch that I would trade
Had I known my heart would break
I would've loved you anyway
I would've loved you anyway


Happy To Joe Music, Good Country:

99.9% Sure, I've Never Been Here Before:
You don't know what you do to me. You changed around the scenery.
And now everything is new to me,
But it looks just right, yeah: it looks just right.
Whoa, it's strange but it's beautiful.
Yeah, and I know where I am.
Oh, I've never been here before.
I've never been loved like this.
Never been tumblin', stumblin' over the words that get tangled inside of me.
I've never been moved this way.
Nobody's ever made me say.
I'm ninety-nine point nine per cent sure I've never been here before.

I'm walkin' in a wonderland,
Gone ever since it all began.
And I don't even want to understand,
'Cause it feels that good, yeah: it feels that good.
It's a state that ain't on a map,
Yet I know where I'm at.

Oh, I've never been here before.
I've never been loved like this.
Never been tumblin', stumblin' over the words that get tangled inside of me.
I've never been moved this way.
Nobody's ever made me say.
Ninety-nine point nine per cent sure I've never been here before.
Ninety-nine point, ninety-nine point,
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na.
Ninety-nine point, ninety-nine point,
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na.

Instrumental Break.

It's a state that ain't on a map,
Yet I know where I'm at.

Oh, I've never been here before.
I've never been loved like this.
Never been tumblin', stumblin' over the words that get tangled inside of me.
I've never been moved this way.
Nobody's ever made me say.
I'm ninety-nine point nine per cent sure I've never been here before.

I've never been here before.
I've never been loved like this.
Never been tumblin', stumblin' over the words that get tangled inside of me.
I've never been moved this way.
Nobody's ever made me say.
Ninety-nine point nine per cent sure I've never been here before.

No, I've never been here before.
I've never been here before. (I've never been moved this way.)
I've never been here before.
Ninety-nine point nine per cent sure I've never been here before.

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Date:2003-07-09 06:55
Subject:
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Mood: content

Hey everyone, so my mother is starting the day off by yelling at me and telling me i look like shit. Yeah well, she's right, but she doesn't have to say it. Christ Sake, Joe looks better in my clothes than I do...damn. Anywayz, pulling a double shifter today. Babysitting till noon - starting bout and hour n half from now. Than from bout 10pm till midnight gonna be babysitting again. And I have to get over to Regency to find out the status of my job application. Full Day, likly hood of my being on? Not. I am taking care of two 6-8 year old boys. No, too much energy - ill be wiped. The other thing? She can't pay me till Sunday - which is fine to me! But my mother's throwing a fit about it. Geez, although, I think her high blood pressure is getting up there again - although she is taking medicine. mmm....I dunno, Im not doing any of this on purpose. But hey, the money would be nice - I just spent all of mine at summerfest and still owe joe for paying jon for me. and I owe jon for car ride. So yeah...we'll see how much this gets me - I am actually realtivly cheap. between 2 - 3 bucks and hour. *shrugs* This is through my church too, what more can I say? People like me...arg, well, time to get moving for my jobs today. Im sure I'll have fun though, I almost always do - kids like me, don't know why, but they like me. Tata!

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Date:2003-07-08 08:45
Subject:
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Mood: tired

So, did all my trading music with Jon last night. Oh - and just to make things worse. I took double pills last night so Im really really tired, and my mother decided not to tell me that ppl for carpet and vinal estimates were comming today. She woke me up at 7 and told me to go downstairs if i didn't want to be seen. Well, I personelly don't give a fuck. So I stayed, than she bitches and me and hits me. She gave me a choice - fucking tell me if you're too damn emabarrassed for others to see me, cause im not. She's a bitch, and frankly, the sooner im out the better. I want away from this family and away from this state. The only ppl worth it r friends. Everyone else can fucking die. Im tired and cant get to sleep now, wish Joe was here, than I could sleep.

So, my plans for the day? Since I took double pills and it looks like rain - staying it. Im gonna goof with the computer to piss ppl off. Tommrrow - mass reconstruction of my music shit in this computer and going to visit wolfie - though don't tell him that. It's a random surprise stop by on your friends lunch break sorta thing.

I was thinking last night. Bout Joe. You know this is the first time I have not been so obssessed with a guy to be calling them nonstop and just wait around for them? I actually feel like I can live my own life and have a boyfriend that I Love at the same time. It feels good actually. That's what's different. That and I think Joe and I - we're more relaxed, well at least I am than I have been before - which is nice. I trust him, I don't feel threatened by anyone either. It's nice, and it's going very well, at least I think so. I hope Joe isn't taking any offence to any of this. *smiles* I dunno, it just feels right. Ya know? I Love You.

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Date:2003-07-07 15:03
Subject:
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Mood:Pleaserably Annoyed

Okay, ya know how you want to just kill someone because of all the pleasure you feel? I WANT TO KILL ANY BOY WHOS EVER BITTEN MY NECK IN THE PAST TWO DAYZ! I swear, my neck hurts like hell! But never stop, hehe - I LOVE IT! Im addicted to it - it's my sweet spot, and it feel sooooooooo good, but after you stop than my neck gets sore cuase you bite so hard yet it feels so good! Im so confused!!!!!! Naw - Im not, keep on doing it, Im just bitch out of pure spit - and I need something to say. :-D I Love You!

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Date:2003-07-07 14:08
Subject:
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Mood:Wishing
Music:Fields of Innocence - Evanescence

1) Has trouble Sleeping

2) Has Trouble Sleeping with People

3) Is Hyper-Sensitive

4) Can't Stand to See Friends Hurt or at an Dissadvantage in Any Way

5) Fails at Love Continualy

6) Sucks in Bed

Think of whom Im discribing...guess what? I know what you're thinking and you're worng.

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Date:2003-07-07 12:47
Subject:
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Mood: loved

For the record, YES - I want to join game. But no, i will not. My feelings for Fritz are still there - people saw that at webs. I was out of it, because of hearing his name out of Jon's mouth. Even that sent me into lala land. Fritz has no fucking clue, never will he. The other thing that bothers me? For some reason - Dave and I aren't really on the best of terms to my knowledge. I think it's becuase both of us know that he will never be able to settle down again. Just that simple, with him and Niki. Im sorry, but for once something he did wasn't my fault. That one was not my fault. He made a discion - and he messed up big time. I don't think he'll ever forgive himself. Cause that's what it's gonna take to get him back to what he was. *sigh* This is depresseing shit.

Well, three dayz and Joe says he's went farther with me in the first hour than he ever did with his last gf. lol. Joe's great, we had a great time last night hanging and such. What made it even better to me, is that he understands that I've maybe only been with three/four other guys but shit has happend - and it's current. I can talk about that with him without him getting jelous or even romotely upset that it's about another guy. I admire that in him and give him the same respect back. I don't know, but something about this is different. And I like it a lot.

Gen, what is there to say about Gen? She's great, excellent, my savior. I Love Her To Death. She let me sleep over and allowed things to happen with couples that prolly hurt her a whole fucking lot. Im sorry we ran off, both of us, even Joe. We're really, truthfully sorry. But 4 more dayz right? 3 n half now - you'll get there. I know you will. I Love You!

Jon, Jon put up with a lot of bull shit last night and that I apprciate. He's truly one of a kind and a great friend. I do think one thing though, Joe? You were out of line, I think, with asking to move the bottels. It's Jon's car, it's a privilage to even be driving in it. Im sorry if your taking offence, but it's just how I feel. But Jon? I Love You, you're great.

Bex, Bex is Bex, and I like her. Thanks.

Well, now on to Summerfest. Nick is really nice, he's a great guy. Joe and I switched clothes!!! Than we got another guy to wear Gen's Bra!!!!! It was great.

ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR - The most FUCKING annoying and HEAVENLY thing in the world. Biting my neck and/or ear. Here's the scoop: Dave found it first, than Fritz - Than both of them got after me bout it. Than Jon found the PERFECT place. And it just.......ERRRRRRRR - I Like it so much, I swear it feels sooooooooo gooooooood. But the way, oh - I could be so easily taken advantage of by that way. Now Joe's got it. ARG! I LOVE IT! I DO! But yeah, it's so annoying and it's just so easy to do and taken advantage of and stuff.

Saw Emily, Saw Bish, Saw Zuko - WAS KICK ASS. Im sorry for anything I did that botherd anyone, but I also want to say - THANK YOU TO EVERYONE!

KICK ASS AT GAME!

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Date:2003-07-06 08:38
Subject:
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Mood: hopeful

You are Peace
You are Peace.

You are at peace with your self and the world
around you. You have balance in your life and
exude tranquility from every pore of your body.
People are constantly asking you "what is
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So, while Im waiting for ya'll to get up, im writing this. *thinks* *smiles* Yeah, last night was fun - thanks for the congrats Gen. mhm...get to sleep over today and hang with a huge group of all my friends. As of now, my only hope is I won't go into my whole - "too many people, I go now" when I leave the group in my head and start going other places. Pychologically, not physically. I sometimes think that's what Gen does, but I do agree with her - Too many people gets too many problems. Hopefully,e veryone today will get along. As far as I know, as I always do, Im leaving my shit at the door. I hope everyone else does too - it would help. There are only a couple Im worried about who maybe won't do it. Eh....we'll see right? Anywayz, I think the only thing that could posibly make this day any better would be if Gen's Paul were here, than she would have someone and everyone would be happy to the fullest extent. Well, there's alwayz next year right? All I know is that as of now, I've got Joe. And that I like, a lot. See you all at Summerfest!

I Love You.

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Date:2003-07-05 19:38
Subject:
Security:Public
Mood: happy
Music:Kenny Chesney - HELL YES!

Guess where I am? And guess what? Im having a blast! But Im really confused...*smiles* I've got Joe - I think everyone knows, yet problems with Fritz still remain and Im still bothered by even the mention of his name. Yet Im capable of caring for another. mmm...well, *smiles* I like it with Joe, even if it's only been here at summerfest, it's been nice and Im not gonna let others get to me on this one. He's great, we'll see what goes on. All I know is that I like hanging with him a lot, and summerfest fun has been more than quadrpuled cause of him. Guess what else? I saw a Gen! THANKS GEN, I LOVE YOU!!! Been having fun hanging with her - she only made this day better! Hope everyone is having fun. Oh - and one more thing. Im at summerfest now, we're all on computers. Hehe. *smilies* Me happy, me have fun!

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Date:2003-07-05 10:27
Subject:
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Mood: okay

Im fine, in fact I was right to begin with - I did not cry. You know what - ill be fine, no two way about it. My obessesion does need to be layed to rest so this will be good. But with that said, I am still going to back off from him for a while. It still hurts.

ANYWAYZ, the party? Yeah, boring - and yes, I got an attidude during it - I have nothing to do! The adults won't let me in yet they treat me and brought me up to be an adult, and the kids - well they all love kaitlynn and Im just a person they love cause im their cousin. W/E.

Joe's trying to get ppl to go to summerfest. Wanna come? Talk to me if you do! Luv Ya'll

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Date:2003-07-04 13:55
Subject:
Security:Public
Mood:I refuse to cry, but gonna

I want to be a close friend of yours, this is true. I want to help you
with your problems and I care about you but right now I'm not looking
for a relationship with you. I'm not really looking for a relationship
right now I'm just playing my cards and seeing where everything lands
with everyone. I've given up conscious thought and pursuit of goals
right now in light of just trusting my instincts and letting my faith
in certain things guide me to where I need to be whenever it is that
I need to be there.


Guess I should've seen that one comming...if yu can't tell that's from Fritz. It doesn't help that everytime he's online or I hear or read his name I get depressed, now this, I can't...I just can't - he's taken things too far for me just to be friends or something...no, now it's too late and Im just going to have to be quite around him and leave him to hiself. I'll leave him alone, right now that's the only thing I can do.

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Date:2003-07-04 12:08
Subject:
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Mood: amused

Ask Jon

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Date:2003-07-04 08:46
Subject:
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Mood: happy

Never wear a ponytail to sleep - no matter how hot it is. M neak hurts like hell, im going to be sore all day. However, on the up side! (the very very very up side!) I went biking with Joe, but before taht I spent TWENTY minutes outside his house trying to get SOMEONE up - I thought Joe was the only one home. Sorry! Another thing? His brother's cute. So is he though - and they look almore the same. It's cool, we than got to Jon's house - found out everyone's bike needed fixin 'cept mine - hehehe. Im luckey! (no offence, im just joking around) Well, joe's bike was the worst - we needed a tool, so Jon and I went to go get the tool - we were supposed to go and bike to "hardwear/department" stor and get a spoke wrench. That's fine, it's what we did - with no luck. Um...we kinda ditched joe for bout a half hour after that. We went to Leons on our bikes. Joe was waiting at Jon's house for us to return. Oops! Lol - sorry Joe, if it helps any....I get ice cream ALL OVER my hand and arm. It was so hot - it mealted right away. Well, that, not looking to good...Yes, Jon starts in on having cum all over my hands and what was I doing, than he licks my arm! lol Good laughs, good laughs. Another thing that happend on our bikes was Jon finally got a clear answer of why I feel everythings my fault and I say sorry all the time. Not JON'S trying to fix it. *shakes head* It enver works - I've tried, everyone's tried I swear - there is yet to be someone succuessful. Good Luck Jon. Anywayz, We go back to Jon's - hang for a while, than go out in his car. Hang with Vicki - pick on her (I Love You!!!) Following all this? We're back at his house - making plans to go to the movie with someone. *shakes head* SOMETHING happend at Jon's - ask Jon - he has the pictures - get back to me. *shakes head* I don't know who was worse - Joe or Jon. lol. Well than we go to Debruin's!!! My frist time over - talked to Tim through IM - THANK GOD - I really needed to talk to him. In the end, good fun at a movie - very good movie. HOT, DRIPPING HOT GUYS!!!! And the clothes the chics were wearing? Pretty damn cool - and if i had a body like there's I'd wear 'em too. Found some tight shit at Hot Topic as well - need to get a job! PRONTO! During the movie, mh - was very comforting, calm, and good. Was a good atmosphere for friends and such. I think there was maybe 15 people there max. It was good. Good, VERY Good day. It was all too perfect, from start to finish - and it all started with talking to Jon. mhm - the day was too perfect.

And for today? A Part, family Party - the Problem. my little cousins will be with my sister all day, half of the family will tell me to go away, the other will want me in the conversation. The thing is, one half of the family, Im the second yougest grankid so everyone treats me like im five. The other half im the oldest, so im xpected to par-take in adult conversations with adult attidudes. that causes a clash when we got together. The solution? Back off enrtily, go into my room or sit silently. That way, there is no problem. But Ill be bored out of my mind so yeah....Arg, oh well - stuck here, I guess I'll just think of yesterday - that will keep my spirits up, not to mention my smile. ;-D

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Date:2003-07-03 06:58
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OMG - Jon is a sweety, a compelet sweety. Seriouly. I don't know what I'm going to do, between him and Gen - they are the two best friends you could ever want in the world! They're so nice, they're so sweet. I don't know what Im going to with them! I Love Them!!!! Aw...*smiles* im enjoying everything too much. And Gen's talking to Paul!!! So Gen can start the day off good - YAY!!! I sill have to meet this kid for more than 10 minutes. But I can already tell you - he is damn fine and he's one big sweety. Perfect for Gen!

I have to get going, going on a bike ride with Joe today! Maybe Jon - as it looks as of now.

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Date:2003-07-02 08:12
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Korine, if you read this - ill be calling you after I get home from hanging with Paul - which should be around 4 or so.

I want Fritz more than ever, and while Im not scared that he's going to cheat on me - got that whole thing strightened up. Im afraid because of my blow up pms bs he'll never want to be with me again, which i wouldn't blame him for. The other thing? I told him that I wanted him and if he wants me, he knows where I am. Basically said, I told him to contact me for once. Which with the way things are going, that was probably a big mistake and he'll proabaly never want to be with me again now....Great.

Joe, surprisingly Joe and I are becoming very good friends, he's nice and smart. He's waking up early tommarrow too - we're going to mayfair lol. How? BIKING!!! And mentioning that, my bike got me all oily! I had to fix it with my dad and all - and he spun the whell and added oil and got all over me!!!! ARG.

I hope everyone enjoys game today, i'd like to join, but yeah - until i hear from Fritz it's better that I don't. I don't want he thinks or what he knows. I kinda wish he'd read some of this cause im never gonna have the guts to tell him. Great, sam's procrastinating to the extrem. I never do that - there's a first time for everything right? If only it wasn't about Fritz!!!! My heart says give in, my brain says stick up for yourself a relationship is two people working together not one sided trying to get to him all the time. *sigh* But I want him so badly, it'd be so easy to give in. Im sure everyone is sick of hearing of him, especially Gen and Jon. They have heard the most. Sorry Guys, Im just....Fritz crazy.

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