I think my least favourite part of life is when you meet a bunch of AMAZING people, they waltz into your life and then in a blink of an eye they're gone. All of them affect your life in different ways, maybe you shared a few laughs with them, maybe a few storys, maybe they we're your best friend.

I just got home from a staff party alot of them are leaving for college and university.
i don't think i hit me till i got home because i started crying.



'I'm going to miss them ALL so much, sure everyone that didn't work there would say it's just a job, they're just co-workers, but no they wern't they we're my friends, and my Encore Family, We shared laughs together, and we shared grumpy days, we shared dissgusting and outragous jobs, and we shared our different ideas for a new mix drink. Even if things did get a little sticky when Tom came around, we stuck together. The truth is i don't think Encore will ever be as good, Encore will NOT be the same with out you.

Thank you for making Encore amazing.

Victoria.'


Thats the e-mail i'm gonna send them.
i hope they all have amazing lives, i hope they find everything they want out of life.
every last one of them desirve it.

maybe it's selfish but i don't want them to leave, i don't want it to be over.
i want one more hug, then after that i'll say just one more.
i want to keep them here forever.
but thats impossible, so i guess i'll have to live with a goodbye and a hug.

i am victoria.
i am not new to blurty,
i had one about a year ago, then i got a live journal.
i now have this blurty.
Do not judge me, until you walk a mile in my shoes.
I have a boyfriend at the moment, his name is Liam.
I really like him.
I like my friends too.
I live my life for myself, if i choose to do something it's not to impress anyone or to prove anything.
I do things for myself.
If i fall i usually don't drag anyone down with me,
don't get me wrong it would be a lie to say i never have, but i try my best not to.
I've been through alot more than people thing, and just like everyone else i've set myself up for a few of those situations.
I'm just your average girl in many ways but in ways i'm unique i guess you'd say.
90% of my friends are boys.
i don't live or feed off drama, so don't drag me into your shit.
i very selective about who i show my emotions too.
Usually i trust someone way to much at first then they lie or talk about me about the stupidest thing and i find it very hard to trust them agian.
The internet gives me the creeps, i don't keep internet friends too long, whats the point in getting attached right?
I've made alot of mistakes and i regret them alot.
I constantly think i need to loose weight[typical girl right?]
I have low self esteem and zero self confidence.
I can relate to animals more than humans.
I believe in karma, re-incarnation, and other things.
I do not believe in religion.



I've learned alot of lessons this year...
i've learned that love is nothing until you love yourself.
I've learned that it's easier to hear than it is to lissen, and alot of people take the easier way out.
I've learned that no matter how shitty things seem you can always look forward to how good it's going to feel when things get better.
I've learned that in the world me live in there are few places you can go and you wont be judge by the people around you, and when you find one don't give it up without a fight.
I've also learned that 'forever' in the eyes of a teenager, is a very short time.
I've learned that the word love is not a feeling it's a lesson, and i've misused the word in the past but i've decided no matter what i will not use that word until i am ready.
I've also learned that everyone desirves a first chance at the very least.
I've also learned that with every action there is a reaction, and that the way you treat people affects them, and you.
I've also learned you shouldn't care what people think.
And
I've learned that you shouldn't compaire yourself to other people physically or mentally.