| Jor~ |
[30 Nov 2004|12:57pm] |
I remember the first feelings
Of a need for you.
On a night to warm
For covers,
But absolutely perfect
For skin.
Thighs touching
On the bench by the
Overwhelming fire.
Completely satisfied
In my discovery of
The existence of
A passionate evening.
Completely satisfied
Knowing your last night
Was mine to hold onto
Until your homecoming.
Now you have returned,
But this time
Requires covers.
And there is a need
More than appearance
For the fire by the lake.
For it’s grown as bitter cold
As the distance made your heart.
The awful distance which made
Body warmth impossible
And created a winter between us
That tainted a scene of perfection.
Rest assured that
Summer’s heat will return.
But, regardless,
You can have that night back
Because I’m done with the waiting
And the responsibility of its safekeeping.
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| Jor~ |
[22 Nov 2004|11:17am] |
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Cauterize - Still Breathing |
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Tear me open at the seams.
Take everything you need.
Take my heart if you like the beat,
take my lungs if it's hard to breathe, to breathe.
"I'm not cold," she said,
but she's shaking as she's lying next to me naked.
Pulled the hair back from her face to let that smile heat this place.
And this feels so far from real.
I'm lost and I love it.
I can't take it, if you're waiting.
I am ready to tell the world about a girl
who showed me love again for the first time.
And it's everything I dreamed of.
Tell me what you thought about when you were breathing oh so loud,
screaming oh so loud.
Tell me if this is real.
I need to know before I get too close.
So here we lie in this beautiful mess of tangled sheets and beads of sweat.
With my heart in your hand and my neck in the other,
should I be scared or should I come closer?
But it's still beating and I'm still breathing.
You haven't hurt me yet.
Morning always comes too quick when you're around, when you're around.
You leave me lying here so they don't find us out, they'll find us out.
Tear me open at the seams, take everything you need.
Take my heart if you like the beat,
take my lungs if it's hard to breathe.
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| Jor~ |
[17 Nov 2004|11:35am] |
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the spill canvas of course |
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hey girls... I miss ya...
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| gi |
[09 Nov 2004|09:16am] |
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brand new- ohk i believe you but my tommy gun don't |
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it's good- i'll send you mine
(it never lets me use enter, so it starts after this line)
i can't see the wind, though i know it's there
filling my lungs- this life giving air.
embracing my skin, with gentle a breeze.
with open arms, i fall to my knees.
just for a moment, my souls's swept away.
reminds me how grateful i am for each day.
the wind, how it whispers, we're one as i hear it,
carried away by the wings of a spirit.
at times in the breeze, my life takes a pause.
my ears hear the trees and resounding applause.
it's breath stirred me deep- and breaking me free,
do you only believe what your two eyes can see?
when will you come and take me? i cry
awaiting the day i'm brough to the sky.
like wind... faith is real, the truth, the serene,
it's funny how some things so great can't be seen...
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| Jor~ |
[08 Nov 2004|09:53am] |
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that last line isnt apart of it... lol that was my comment
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| Jor~ |
[08 Nov 2004|09:27am] |
Bitter is my new favorite
because you taught me
how to use it.
"Let's just be friends."
You forgot to mention
with benefits.
Well I forgot to mention
this happens to benefit only you,
because I'm in need of so much more.
But I'll just settle for your couch
after those long nights
ending with me.
Too tired to drive:
My overused excuse
disguising me need to be near you.
Cling to your pillows
in dreams that you're there.
Cling to you when
you're already gone.
ok I don't like it anymore....
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| gi |
[03 Nov 2004|01:24pm] |
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me.. b/c i'm just suuuuch a good singer?? |
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heyy.. it's cool. & yeah, shelby is a dyke.. i don't care what anyone says. i don't know if i'm going to dance on thursday.. i might be, but i'm not positive yet. hahaha there's a kid next to me talking to me about angela being the biggest alcoholic & drug addict in their grade. hahaha woww woowww. ohk, this is hilarious, i have to go. witchcraft or something.. that's his last name.
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| Jor~ |
[03 Nov 2004|10:23am] |
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boys night out - The Fine Art Of Making It Out Alive |
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Yea I doubt I can get off anyway cuz it's not really enough notice for Mr. Dave. And u know how irritable Miss Shelby can get about that stuff. Please I think I am supposed to be doing a stupid birthday party on Sunday. I'm gonna go eat cuz I'm starving as usual.
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| Jor~ |
[03 Nov 2004|10:23am] |
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boys night out - The Fine Art Of Making It Out Alive |
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Yea I doubt I can get off anyway cuz it's not really enough notice for Mr. Dave. And u know how irritable Miss Shelby can get about that stuff. Plus I think I am supposed to be doing a stupid birthday party on Sunday. I'm gonna go eat cuz I'm starving as usual.
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| gi |
[03 Nov 2004|10:04am] |
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hmm.. comp still broken.. no music for now |
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jor- i will know today after school what's going on with boston. i think it's just me going up there & she's driving me. but i'm not sure yet. i'll have to let you know later today. my phone is at home b/c i needed to charge it
byeeee
angela, if you played that cd for the whole class.. i will seriously kick the shit out of you
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| Jor~ |
[02 Nov 2004|09:44am] |
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I have dance till 9:15 so yea I guess we'll see. But I'm confused about Boston now and I need to know so I can take off work or not....
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| Jor~ |
[02 Nov 2004|09:40am] |
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the spill canvas- the tide |
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And she cant understand
how everyone goes on breathing
when true love ends...
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| gi |
[02 Nov 2004|09:23am] |
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nothing, b/c the fucking sound on my computer is broken |
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" let me no when your ready to start acting our age.. " -- angela, that is why we can't be friends. b/c i've fucking had it with your goddamn comments. i'm not taking shit from you anymore. you act like we're best friends & all this bullshit, but you treat me like shit. so i'm not doing it anymore. & stop blaming mom & telling her it's her fault i hate you. no it's not. YOU'RE THE REASON I HATE YOU. b/c you say i'm immature.. but you are. after today, i was thinking about changing my mind.. but you just ruined it for real with that comment. so fuck you.
jor- i've got work tonight, if i have time, we'll talk to tonight, but i can't guaruntee it.
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| gi |
[02 Nov 2004|09:23am] |
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nothing, b/c the fucking sound on my computer is broken |
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" let me no when your ready to start acting our age.. " -- angela, that is why we can't be friends. b/c i've fucking had it with your goddamn comments. i'm not taking shit from you anymore. you act like we're best friends & all this bullshit, but you treat me like shit. so i'm not doing it anymore. & stop blaming mom & telling her it's her fault i hate you. no it's not. YOU'RE THE REASON I HATE YOU. b/c you say i'm immature.. but you are. after today, i was thinking about changing my mind.. but you just ruined it for real with that comment. so fuck you.
jor- i've got work tonight, if i have time, we'll talk to tonight, but i can't guaruntee it.
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| gi |
[02 Nov 2004|09:23am] |
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nothing, b/c the fucking sound on my computer is broken |
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" let me no when your ready to start acting our age.. " -- angela, that is why we can't be friends. b/c i've fucking had it with your goddamn comments. i'm not taking shit from you anymore. you act like we're best friends & all this bullshit, but you treat me like shit. so i'm not doing it anymore. & stop blaming mom & telling her it's her fault i hate you. no it's not. YOU'RE THE REASON I HATE YOU. b/c you say i'm immature.. but you are. after today, i was thinking about changing my mind.. but you just ruined it for real with that comment. so fuck you.
jor- i've got work tonight, if i have time, we'll talk to tonight, but i can't guaruntee it.
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| ang |
[31 Oct 2004|09:33pm] |
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..gi.. im not exactly sure what i did that made you not wanna be friends anymore.. and the way your actin i cant change how you feel.. but weve been through things alot worse than this and i cant understand how somethin as small as you havin nicole over and me stickin up for jor can make you hate me.. but i cant control you.. and i cant control what happens cause i dotn have a problem with you so i guess its up to you.. if you dont wanna hang out anymore and you want things to change.. well i cant stop that.. but i really want you to give me a good reason why.. cause you might say that im the reason we got in trouble.. and stop and think why i would get us in trouble.. cause i wouldnt give up what i had with harry for nothin.. its obviously cause i cared.. and you no thats the reason and you just dont like showin emotion.. but whatever.. im not gonna lie.. i do wanna be friends.. but hey i cant change that you wanna be this way right now.. let me no when your ready to start acting our age..
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| Jor~ |
[28 Oct 2004|11:41am] |
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gi, if u would have paid attention you would have seen i said you (gi) AND ME!!!! so now since u texted vin hes pissed at me for saying that he said only u when I specifically included myself. It doesnt matter anyway. Sea Isle is done... for good. He wants to be with Erin so w/e. I'm just gonna go to Tom's with Jesse and if it's no fun I'll go home.
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| gi |
[28 Oct 2004|10:18am] |
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the bell just rung |
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you posted three times. haha i find it so funny how he doesn't want me there b/c of what happened last weekend.. but you did the same fucking thing & it's ohk for you to go? what a fucking faggot! & it's totally cool if we take a night off b/c i didn't want to go anyway.. so that's a relief. i was going to tell you girlies to go without me & i'd just stay home or something. i know who tom mitchel is & that could be fun.. even though i'm not invited. haha. i'm looking forward to the drama at dance tonight with me pulling angela out of shelby's class. i have to airbrush your hoodies tonight. i forgot i was going to the mall, but i'll be able to get them done :). don't you worry. alright, the bell is going to ring in like .5 seconds & i really need to pack up my shit. love you. bye.
ps) now i'm in a shit mood b/c of vince. eew.
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| Jor |
[28 Oct 2004|09:38am] |
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Well no offense but I'm not going at all if we can't sleep there cuz I don't want to make that drive twice in one day. Especially since I have to work so there goes half of the day. I don't care if I am ALLOWED to sleep there cuz I would go regardless. My bro said he thinks my mom will say yes anyway. But that depends now... cuz Tom Mitchell said I'm "adorable" and he wants me to go to his party on Saturday. buuuut I can't remember who he is. hahaha And Vin wants to be with Erin and he doesnt want u (gi) and me there cuz of what happened last saturdayso this weekend might be off. I gotta get some stuff done but I'll see u girls at dance tonight.
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| Jor~ |
[28 Oct 2004|09:24am] |
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Nelly and Tim McGraw haha Vin sweats this song |
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Well no offense but I'm not going at all if we can't sleep there cuz I don't want to make that drive twice in one day. Especially since I have to work so there goes half of the day. I don't care if I am ALLOWED to sleep there cuz I would go regardless. My bro said he thinks my mom will say yes anyway. But that depends now... cuz Tom Mitchell said I'm "adorable" and he wants me to go to his party on Saturday. buuuut I can't remember who he is. hahaha And Vin wants to be with Erin and he doesnt want u (gi) and me there cuz of what happened last saturdayso this weekend might be off. I gotta get some stuff done but I'll see u girls at dance tonight.
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