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Sunday, September 5th, 2004

Subject:sandy vagina.
Time:1:05 pm.
Mood: horny.
Star Wars Monopoly. Mikes. Beach. Josh. Fallon. Good times.

I got cute clothes at Kohls.


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Saturday, September 4th, 2004

Subject:Why don't we do it in the road?
Time:12:37 am.
Mood: bouncy.
Music:Josh sucking on lollipop.
It's back to blurty now.

I just missed it...

I swear I have WAY to much time on my hands.


mmm no more livejournal.. for now.
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Wednesday, December 24th, 2003

Time:11:42 am.
i'm not even using the journal anymore. so get yourself a new hat and some brown shoes. and if you don't like my seemingly unimportant problems then don't read about. that's what i don't get about people, they're like 'WOW she doesn't have problems, they're dumb..' and then comment anonymously, and think 'yes! i proved a point... to her' .. well my journal isn't about people it's about me... sooo... if you read it.. enough to make the statement that my problems are lame, then you need some other activity, cause vicariously using my blurty.. is a little weird.
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Friday, December 12th, 2003

Subject:i know that i'm better, i'm better, i'm better off alone...
Time:7:28 am.
Mood: crazy.
^subject^ *Very True*

Alright here goes my school day/evening.
Spanish blah blah test. It was decent. Uhh.. then things. I don't remember. Then in health I said "an essential fucktion..." instead of function, when I was reading about the penis and vagina. It was rather silly. ANYWAY. Mal missed all of the penis and vagina chat. So sad for her. She was busy with having perfect attendance. In english we marched around the hallways being weird and recieting Shakespeare. Hmm.. and got in trouble for sneaking around... damn mal and i's weird sneakyness. Get's us in a lot of trouble.

After school I played Diablo II for many years. Then I called Carly but got her mom, and carly wasn't home, SO carly's mom was all cute and had me go online and look at what she's getting carly for christmas, and tell her if it would be ok or not. She's so cute. It all looked good to me. BUT CARLY MUST NEVER KNOW! Then Jason came and got me around 4:30ish. We attempted to bowl at ocean lanes.. damn leagues... so we ventured of to Howell Lanes. We were on lane 3. Three mi number de lucky.. or suerte... or whatever... any way. The lane got broken. So lady fixed it. THen we bowled. I did my usual yelling at the ball and hurling it as fast as I can at the pins. So much fun. But jason was all proper, cause he actually knows how to bowl. Thennnnnnnnnnnnnnn I road on the front of his car, just because I hide a m&m wrapper in his PATCHWORK hoodie. That was.... interesting. Hmm.. Then food. Then KARATE! KARATE! ... We did take downs. Oh so much fun. Then we had to get Jon from drum. HMM........... YES! And come home. I got home around 9. So overall, my evening was pretty good.

Oh junk son. I had the weirdest ass dream last night. It must have been caused by the chocolate milkshake and checkers fries, cause damn. Okay I don't remember exactly HOW or WHERE the dream begins but it does. So I'm in this house with these two guys, that I've never seen before *(in real life)* that I know of. But some how i'm familliar with them. They're brothers. And one is the FAT ONE. And the other one is the hot one. HA! Well apparently I was like 'DATING' but we really weren't. So like we did.. naughty things.. for some reason and his bed was in the kitchen. And the people were on spanish descent. So like... yeah. But then I had my period. And like ... the hot one took his dick off and black stuff came out of it. And all over his sheets. It was ...weird... AND THEN he changed his sheets. And like ... things... happened.... cause like the FAT ONE was in SPANDEX! And he sat on me when I was on the floor. And THE HOT ONE the beat him up. And I was like.. oh. KAY. THEN I did bad things. And THEN they're mom came home and we were making food. And we ate it. And it was all spanish. And good. MMM.....!!! THen we all went to the mall. And for some reason me and THE HOT ONE went in Delias. And like ... i don't know. The dream was weird. And I did VERY NAUGHTY THINGS. AND ALL I WANTED TO DO WAS PUT MY PANTS BACK ON!

Oh man.
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Thursday, December 11th, 2003

Subject:we all have no chance in this horrid romance.
Time:7:24 am.
Mood: calm.
Last night I got my 3rd holes done, and a cartilage piercing. Mmm..I haven't gotten new piercings in like THREE YEARS! It was so nice. But my mom also was like "BLAH BLAH I'M DUMB AND CLOSED MINDED, YOU CAN'T GET ANYMORE PIERCINGS TILL YOU'RE 18 AND CAN DO THEM WITHOUT ME BEING THERE" ... and I was like "yeah..." But she said that when I got my first cartilage and my 2nd holes done, so................. she's acting all CRAZY.

Haha just now in the stairwell, I was going up it, and talking to myself, but when I talk to myself... TO ME it's sounds like I'm barely whispering, and I can here it loud and clear in my head, but I found out from Erin, that it's really the exact oppisite. So anyway.. I was doing the whole talking to myself deal, cause usually no one is upstairs besides me, at this hour, and I open the door into the hallway and low and behold GIRLS, and they gave me that, "oh man, didn't mean so stumble upon you talking to yourself" look, and I probably only proved that I was talking to myself more because of the "oh shit, i thought you guys would be downstairs in the bathroom doing whatever girls do in the bathroom together in groups and not upstairs, where I'm talking to myself" look. So that was fun.

I had weird dreams again last night. VERY scary. The first dream (it's a series of connecting some how dreams... okay!) was like a my house, expect my house was on a major highway, and next to a HUGE ass lake, the lakes name was something like Rose Lake, because there were roses lining the whole thing, but some were plastic too, but we find that out later. So they're losts of people there, because we're supposed to get BOMBED apparently, by like someone who hates the america's ... i.e. france, russia, iraq.. all of the middle east, north korea.. Yeah my dream didn't say, All I know is that two planes were supposed to fly over us, and bomb the shit out of us. So we were "preparing" The first thing I remember is people kept saying that we need to make the lake covered with the rose dust so it doesn't look like a lake (probably cause the planes were using that as a land mark to drop la bombs) So the middle of the lake was coverd with this green dust already... So that was there. And I was in the a group of people that were inside my house expect it wasn't my house it was the "maryland house" (you would understand... if you travel) so I was getting a Drink and my friend Ryan was there. And I was talking to him, about I don't know. And then I went outside, and I was in the lake, and the rest of my group was standing on the dock right next to me, and our leader comes out and says, "Ryan, went into battle and was killed, I'm sorry..." So this black girls on the dock and says "NOOO!" and jumps into the lake to kill herself. And I was in the lake too and I just couldn't deal with that, so the leader jumped into to save her. And I climbed up this ladder and I was histarically crying. Then the leader grabbed me and we were like swimming around and we were pushing the roses out in the middle of the lake to make it more ... fake like.. or water... i don't know what the hell we were doing. But I was like picking roses off the shore and the leader goes NOT THOSE THAT'LL MAKE IT LOOK FAKE... cause the roses were plastic, So we got out of the water.. and went to clean out my garage, to fit all the people when we get bombed. Apparently. So I walked through my garage. And this is the gateway to the next dream. So like I was in my house and it was before the new room was added (i've been having dreams like that lately... without the new room) so yeah.. it was like that... there was going to be a HUGE FLOOD AND A HURRICANE, but I need the wheelburrow to get to the store.. but some jewish kid was washing it. So I went out and got it from the kid... and the kid was like "Let's hang out sometime" and I was like "uhh kay.." So I ran down the street but it was raining REALLY hard. So I came back in and my mom was like "i'm glad you came back i ran out looking for you" and that was it.

THe end.

Dreams are weird.
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Wednesday, December 10th, 2003

Subject:well today, i'm being a loser... i'm in school. UGH!
Time:7:29 am.
Mood: awake.
Music:the sound of me typing in the science LAB.
Actually it's not so bad. Well not really anyone else is here yet. So I can't really guage. But I'm thinking I'm going to have a good day. It's Renee's birtday and Mal made her a card last night and I got her a crown and a wand... for magical fun stuff. You know how it is. I started laughing a lot for no reason, probably has something to do with the insomnia.

I was up till crazy hours last night, trying to get my internet to work, being inspired to write, folding clothes, going to wawa, playing with/feeding/chasing cats, making a hemp necklace, organizing my clothes for tomorrow and so on. And this all begun after 11:30.

So ... wow... I'm SO awake right now. It's scary. And I can't smelly anything AT ALL. Because I was putting on my deodorant this morning and i like the smell so I put it up to my nose, for a good morning WIFFFF (or however it's spelled) but I just couldn't smell it. hmm... i hope that comes back soon... i need it.. for ass sniffing.

-this is my sundown.-
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Tuesday, December 9th, 2003

Subject:haha.. school is for losers.
Time:6:04 pm.
Mood: devious.
Music:carly talking to me through the tin can phone..
I didn't want to go to school. So as a result I didn't. I slept time about 10:30. And decided to be productive. And I was. I cleaned the whole house. Made 27 dollars. But I can't go anywhere, cause I stayed home and my mom is like BLAH BLAH NO. So yeah. I was all looking foward to bowling. And it was cute. Not really. Uhh.. I watched Punch Drunk Love again. I love that movie. Sooo amazing. And brilliantly filmed. Then I ate dinner. Not I'm waiting for my mom to get home to do that thing. OH YES Karate.

don't you dare.
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Monday, December 8th, 2003

Subject:if you're leaving just let me know...
Time:8:20 pm.
Mood: weird.
well i wrote things today. cause i'm so cool. uhh.. yeah tomorrow gotta recite a monologue for class... well for more of a quiz verbatem style... very fun. I mean I'm really good at lines, I mean alls I have to do is be in a scene and I know everyone elses lines, as well as mine. And like monologues.. psh... they're simple. But i'm so fucking intimated by the people I'm up against. I mean... fist off they're JUNIORS so yeah.. of course they're better than me. But I feel this is my big chance to be like HEY LOOK I CAN SORTA MAYBE ACT TOO... and I'm hoping for the part... we'll see... wish me luck
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Subject:i need you like water in my lungs.
Time:7:41 am.
Mood: tired.
Music:no music..
Carly cut my hair, muy short yesterday. I trimmed hers, because if I did dramatic changes her mom would FREAK. I didn't watch the fun thing. I just watched Digrassi ALL NIGHT. I had to take a sleeping pill to actually sleep and I was strangly inspired all night. So I have to write today. But I didn't memorize my monologue so I'm screwed. Tonight I have to get my prescription. Or else I'm out of LEXAPRO. OMG!

Dan sings "Hey ya!" A LOT. And says my hair looks like IM A LESBIAN! *GASP!*
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Sunday, December 7th, 2003

Subject:you always walk right through my ears, presuming i like what i hear.
Time:4:32 pm.
Mood: creative.
Well friday I didn't go anywhere. I just stayed at home. Took my braids out. And that was it. Damn Snow. Saturday I got up... went to Costco, met Carly there, and brought her back to my house from fun. Last night we did weird things. And saw weird things. And took weird pictures. Eh... good stuff. And went in the hot tub often.

Today we showered. Watched ALICE IN WONDERLAND HELL YEAH! No one came over or whatever. Eh... they're weird. So instead we went Christmas shopping. I got gifts. Certian things for certian people. How hot. Then Carly and I ... wrappped things. Tonight at 7.... omg.... omg.... Wizard Of Oz on WB 11. Oh yes. So great watching.

But now my stomach is icky and Carly is sticky. So we're getting REAL food.

The End.
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Friday, December 5th, 2003

Subject:unplugged the ocean.
Time:7:40 am.
Mood: bored.
Music:dan smelling his own scrotum?.
MMM Danny is a SICKO! He likes dead bodies. Dan is a Necro. Remind me not to die near him. EWW! EXCEPT if I spell except correctly.

Hmm... Well NAZIS, Are Russian? Yes they are. OH MY GOD! GERMAN ARMY IS HERE. IN MY ROOM!

Oh man. Some problems need fixing and I'M NOT GONNA FIX UM!

...tisk tisk...

I'm eating pudding. For breakfast.

hmm... Mrs. O.


go to if you want a good time.

Shannon just arrived.

NO. Dan is dumb sometimes. I don't get why he even talks. <7:51????> Mrs. O agrees!



shaunica just walked in! AH!

The mother land.

i need to shaunica a present.

my bad.


I like boys with strong convictions. And convicts with perfect diction. - kimya!

I hope it snows. Don't you?

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Thursday, December 4th, 2003

Subject:i can't believe life's so complex when i just wanna sit here and watch you undress.
Time:7:25 am.
Mood: bored.
Music:the soundtrack in my head.
WELL WELL! I don't really have anything interesting to type about. Expect... wait. No I don't. I'm not sure I even know why I'm updating right now. I'll probably just end up deleting this one and pretending like it never happened. I guess it's cause this is homeroom and I'm here like 3 years early and have nothing better to do. HMM... I got really inspired yesterday and last night. I wrote down what I thought have yesterday but have yet to elaborate. And I can't really remember what I was thinking last night. I think it had something to do with herion. OH drugs... YES... and putting them in my arm (not for real). The like feeling good and crying afterwards. But that's very cliched, I believe. HMM! We will see if I get inspired to write during spanish, that usually happens. But I don't know!

Oh man. In the middle of the night I felt something at my feet and somehow my cat came in my room and was sleeping at the end of my bed. Then in the morning like 10 minutes before my alarm went off my cat decided she wanted to leave, and she's like CLAWING at the bottom of my door. Very annoying. She can't just want till my alarm went off and I was officially awake.


-watch the stars tonight, as they, as they dissapear.-
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Wednesday, December 3rd, 2003

Subject:Web Comic
Time:6:05 pm.
Mood: happy.

that's what I do when people piss me off. SO WATCH OUT!!!!!
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Subject:never gonna get it right, you're never gonna get it.
Time:11:06 am.
Mood: enthralled.
hmmm hmmm hmmm... WELL this morning in Spanish we had a fire drill. Hace Mucho Frio. Mrs. Lyons-Mayer got all pissy cause Mal, and others were late, cause they were at MRs. Grobbers and MR. D's. And she's dumb. She's might right them up. I think that's dumb.

Uhhh I kicked the shit out of the CAUTION WET SIGNS cause they mad me ANGERED. Katie is right next to me being on drugs.

We got our scenes in acting today. I got a scene from STREET CAR NAMED DESIRE, Blanche and Stella, Ashley and I are performing it together. She's Blanche. So that makes me Stella. I'm pleased with it. Also Either Jordan, Ashley or I get picked to do this King Mitus Monologue. I don't know whose gonna get it but probably Ashley, cause she's outragous and a junior.

Mal just touched my BREAST.

Okay so I walk in to the room and say "HEY MR. QUISTICLES!" I was thinking about icecles... but others were thinking and TESTES. So uhh... I realized and stated laughing a lot.

Oh man.

Mr. D fixed the MAL PROBLEM NO WRITING UP!!!! Good good.

Time for other things.
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Tuesday, December 2nd, 2003

Subject:and any talk of working at this leave you running for the door.
Time:7:26 am.
Mood: sore.
Music:mrs. o typing next to me.

Okay. It had Connor in it right. But Connor was deranged. I mean like REALLY deranged. He captured me and made me stay in the room that had like weird paintings of santa on the walls and a sofa foor me to sleep and a window that was covered with plastic. And kept me in there, but I still had my alarm clock, so it went off in the morning and he came in and checked my room and in my covers to make sure i didn't try ANY FUNNY STUFF! And then took me out of the room into another room where I would eat. But it wasn't just Connor he had this big body guard guy. Very creepy. SO ... I was in the room at night, but I couldn't sleep so I found a key and started cutting at the wall, and I made a huge hole, and then there was some space - like a closet was once there - and then another wall but there was a hole in the one too, so i went to go get out, but the was eletrical things stopping me, like I got eletricuted a little bit so I stopped. But through the hole I could see like a fireplace with creepy dead bodies on it. THEN I had to get back into my bed cause it was almost time for Connor to come in a check on me. So he came in and then lyed on the couch with me, but he's tall as hell so his feet kept kicking mine, so I got all mad and was like I'M LYING ON THE FLOOR! and Connor was all like OKAY! MORE FEET ROOM! and his legs got extra long to cover up the whole freakin couch. WEIRD. Then I was looking at a magazine in the room and the body guarde comes in, and he wants to see what i was looking at, then me and him start discussing like floral patterns for our curtians in the bathroom, or some shit. SO that was weird. Then Connor decided to take me out of the room, but only for lunch. So we went to A and P and I saw my mom there i gave her a hug, and she goes "You have to bite this one" and COnnor grabs me from behind and starts bitting me. Then we got back to a longue area in the back of A and P. Danny was there and some other kid, oh yeah Carly was there too. And so ... We get to the table and Connor grabs a knife and trys to cut me, So I slam his hand on the table and start karate chopping his knuckles till he drops the knife and starts crying. So then he turned back into regular Connor and was crying and stuff and I gave him a hug and told him not to do it again and to take medicine. So then I went to shop rite and my mom was there and asked me if i had the video camera. and I was like "oh man i forgot it" and she was like "Go back to a and p and GET IT"


I have period. It blows, a lot. It's all like BBBBBBBLLLLOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDD!
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Monday, December 1st, 2003

Time:1:30 pm.
Mood: amused.
Music:no doubt, and mallory....
NAZI'S- You can wear your yellow suite, have your crazy meetings just DON'T KILL ANYONE!

KKK (us)- You can wear your white costumes just DON'T KILL ANYONE!

Jews - You can wear your little hats and curls and have meetings just DON'T KILL ANYONE!

You can be a person with the NAZI sign or JEW star or whatever.. but killing is illegal. Remember that.

that's what mal, renee and I realized about the world today in study hall.
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Subject:don't hold your breath cause you'll only make it worse.
Time:7:24 am.
Mood: tired.
I had a FREAKY dream this morning aka last night. hmm... here it goes.

Okay the dream begins with my dream was I was in bed, and Erin comes in and says... "Aren't you going to school?!?!?!?!?!?!?!" I was like, "Well... I have to go right now because my bus is right outside." Because there was a bus outside, but Erin goes, "Oh that's the other kids bus." And I looked out and some little black kid got in the bus and drove away. And I was like "Oh..." and then I looked at my clock and it was 8:30 am and I was like "YES! I MISSED THE BUS!!!" So, I slept more. Then my mom came into my room and was like "Aren't you coming to breakfast??" So I got up and went down stairs, and Parker, and Jon were at the table eating hardboiled eggs from a bag. And then their was a bucket on the stove full of snakes, and lettuce, and I thought it was spaghetti, so I put some in my bowl, and I realize it was snakes, and then tried to put them back, but two got in my mouth and their heads were down my troat, and I was trying to pull them out but I kept swallowing them more, and I was gagging. And then I must have spit them out or died, because I woke up.

OKAY now out of fantasy and back to my fantastic reality. I woke up from my dream and it looked over next to my bed and it looked like Harriet Tubman. So I closed my eyes and opened them again and THERE IT WAS AGAIN! So I closed my eyes and was like "That looks like Harriet Tubman except not fat, so it must be her in younger years." So I reopened my eyes and realized it was a weird pattern on my wall.

dan's next to me, being.... ..... intriguged.
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Sunday, November 30th, 2003

Subject:this is why i have no friends.
Time:9:41 pm.
Mood: angry.
Went to church.

Then Carly and I got food and went to Connors. Then George came. Walked to Dan's but stopped at 7-11. Mmm... food. Then went to Dan's, and another kid, uhhh.... James, was there. Then they paintballed. And Carly and I made a fire. Cops came. We hide (we meaning connor, george, carly, me). Dan got all pissy. We got scared. Left Dan's. Used Connor's Grandpa boat and went out on water. (george, carly, connor, i). Then we went home. Oh yeah.. Connor's little brother has a hamster.

that's all.
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Saturday, November 29th, 2003

Time:11:13 am.
Mood: hopeful.
Music:the ringing in my ears..

oh man.... On the drive there we were rocking some old school blink and sublime to get us in a show mood. Then we hooked ourselves up with some Domino's and had little SEX talks, hehe, we're both so KINKY! Anyway... we got to the show and it was some lameass punk band, and the singer really needed lessons, SO bad... he sounds like every other punk band trying to be cool. ANYHOW... so we just stood on the side for that and were falling asleep. NEXT ... New Direction came on... and they actually got the crowd started. So we headed toward the front, which was not hard, cause even kid there (excluding a few big ass guys who were like 30 in trench coats) were fucking 11 year old pushovers. So yeah... New Direction got me in the mood to MOSH AND KILL. So I got in the pit, and DESTROYED these kids. I mean... the were hoping around in circles skanking, it was one silly looking pit. So I jumped in and dominated. Then Billy Talent came on... and <3 C <3 A <3 N <3 A <3 N <3 D <3 A <3!! ... ... THEN they put DINO'S ON THE STAGE and and and PALMS TREES and and and... CATCH 22 CAME OUT!! And played an amazing SET! And the first time they ended with... Keasby Nights. Then they came back out and played a song off their new album.. and ended with... THE PERFECT SONG 12341234. I was throughly pleased. THEN we ended the night with ... afi on the way home...

but there was only ONE hot kid, well two.. but one REALLY hot one. He had sexual hair and I started feeling it in the pit, and he started feeling my hair. And then at the end of the show, I saw him and started feeling his hair again. It was kinkylicious.

good times.
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Thursday, November 27th, 2003

Subject:unpluge the ocean.
Time:3:25 pm.
Mood: peaceful.
Music:six year old talking to me about my doggie.
Our group got picked for the thing.... UH MOVIN' OUT! That's all I know. yeah.

Last night we got ready for company. I set up beds and made beds and silly things like that.

Around 7 Grandma and Brian arrived. At 8 Laura called saying they were just leaving, so they got in around 2:30 am. But I had their beds all ready for them.

Bessie-Marie and I coloured and played this morning. She's great. We celebrated her sixth birthday just now. I got her a hat and a soccer ball. We're going to the park soon to try out the soccer ball. Bessie went to a salon and got cornrows yesterday with pink and clear beads. SO CUTE! =)

That's all for now.

Happy Turkey Day everybody!
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