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Monday, May 3rd, 2004

Time:8:09 pm.
Mood:delighted.
chimchimbub (7:56:15 PM): whach your mouth
chimchimbub (7:56:20 PM): in the mirror
vness828 (7:56:28 PM): hahahahaah
vness828 (7:56:41 PM): oh man
vness828 (7:56:48 PM): like seriouslt watch it?
chimchimbub (7:57:01 PM): yep just star
chimchimbub (7:57:10 PM): stare
vness828 (7:57:23 PM): at it in the mirror
chimchimbub (7:57:54 PM): yeah real hard
vness828 (7:58:39 PM): why
vness828 (7:58:44 PM): what happens
chimchimbub (7:59:32 PM): you see yourself
vness828 (7:59:49 PM): in your mouth?
chimchimbub (8:00:39 PM): yeah then you nite down and you can feel that too
vness828 (8:01:12 PM): bite down
vness828 (8:01:15 PM): so like..
vness828 (8:01:24 PM): you're in your mouth and you're biting yourself
vness828 (8:01:30 PM): and you feel that
vness828 (8:01:33 PM): does it hurt?
chimchimbub (8:01:37 PM): yep
chimchimbub (8:01:41 PM): yep
chimchimbub (8:01:46 PM): that would be cool
chimchimbub (8:01:48 PM): no
chimchimbub (8:01:52 PM): you are numb
vness828 (8:02:18 PM): wait im num or you're numb when who's biting who?

i love bub so so so verr much. eeeehehe. ahh if it werent for her i dont know, i just dont fucking know..
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Subject:i was so high i did not recognize the fire buring in your [her] your eyes
Time:7:33 pm.
Mood: crazy.
Music:apartment 26 - track #26 (i dont know what its called).
oh more wise words from my muthah:
she said "we're going for a stroll around the block and possibly find a nice cliff to throw your sister off of "

sounds like fun

im confused. let me go cry now and listen to my sad sad music like an emo asswipe! no really im am actually confused. but i shall try not to trouble myself or anyone else with the silly little details..
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Thursday, April 29th, 2004

Subject:"The Shirt" by Jane Kenyon
Time:8:10 pm.
Mood: giddy.
Music:my own little tune to which i whistle to.
The shirt touches his neck
and smooths over his back.
It slides down his sides.
It even goes down below his belt-
down into his pants.

Lucky shirt.
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Wednesday, April 28th, 2004

Time:3:55 pm.
my mom says to tell everyone to go eat at the mexican restaurant down here cause they gave her free torillas cause smith's didnt have any. (can you say run-on sentence?)
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Friday, April 16th, 2004

Time:6:02 pm.
My lj and I had this mutual feeling that it was being a bit neglected. So hop on over there if choo fools wanna know what's up.
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Monday, April 12th, 2004

Subject:back to life. i'm fucking things up.
Time:6:43 pm.
Music:dave matthews band - two step.
ready... steady... go.....

ok I gotta rant cause i've got my little head all worried about some shit. I certainly need to work on my vocabulary since i've caught myself using the words like, fuck, shit, ohmahgawd to construct a sentence. I'm not actually worried about that per se (yeah i think its spelled like that sam... i think??). That has just got me pondering how im getting careless in every level of my life. I've aggravated and lost respect from some "respectable" persons. And this doesnt worry me so much either, I just see it as a reflection of my character and how extremely disrepected I may become by people I care about. in the future or even right now.

Which leads me to my next agenda. I have this friend that i love to peices, I would do so much for that girl if it need be. But now she really needs someone/something and I dont now how to provide. I just want her to be happy. Am I doing all that I can do? I feel that I'm not, and it's bumming me out.

I know that I'm definetely not doing all that i can in school, hell, im sitting here spilling my life to the computer instead of trying to fix it. Isn't that tragic? *emo tear* haha.

Oh sweet lord my chest hurts so much, but I shouldn't be complaing cause I did it to myself. Be smart and have a nice eveing kids. im out.
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Sunday, April 11th, 2004

Subject:ain't that nice
Time:7:53 pm.
Mood: pleased.
Music:U2 - with or without you.

*drool*(-- mostly because its just a darn good photo)

saw that in an exhibit among many other photos. very nice.

spring break was excellent, more about that later...maybe..
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Wednesday, March 31st, 2004

Time:8:42 pm.
Mood:feeling groovy.
Music:zeppelin - d'yer maker.
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Tuesday, March 30th, 2004

Subject:but life is one big question when you're staring at the clock
Time:10:03 pm.
Mood: loved.
Music:sublime - krs1.
there's a new toy in town, and her name is bitch-slap barbie!

hell yes look who's passing chem right now! go team vans!

eeeeee

!!!!!too much exclamation!!!!
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Wednesday, March 24th, 2004

Subject:i use too many adjectives
Time:10:50 pm.
Mood: working.
Music:none of that.
Well I thought that I would take a breather here and do something unproductive for once today. Doesn't that sound so amazingly odd coming from me? Yes its very weird, I already can detect your mental response. And my response is that it is odd and also very tiring. I spent half - HALF! of my day at school, about 12 hours at the least.

A whole quarter of my day was spent working on yearbook junk since every last one of our pages are due by 2:00 tomorrow morning. I was so fortunate as to not have to stay that late but i did get home... hmmm... was it... a couple hours ago? Well gee I'm not so sure, cause my brain is so shot. Having spent so long working on that today and pile on top of that what Brittany and I believe as us fallling into a spell of narcolepsy really wares on my mental awareness. It can't do much for my sanity cause that was lost so long ago I don't remember when.

So besides having a brain that can produce about as much as hydrated cat litter (what the hell does that mean?) all is not too bad on the Vanessa front, and the future looks promising. I wish my parents would agree because they're beginning to beleive that things are going downhill for me. Oh well, at least I'm happy.

Let me take a moment to explain this narcoleptic phase thing: I spent almost all of my vacation last weekend staring at the back of my eyelids. And in the weeks preceeeding that I had begun falling and umm... not really knowing that I was falling asleep? But thing thing that I find ever so troublesome is that no matter how much sleep I get this continues to happen. So I plan to not sleep at all tonight. Which sure as a cow pissin' on a flat rock in a hail storm sounds like a great plan. This is a great plan, you see, because I need to write a paper for english and a formal lab for chem and do whatever else I can to help bring my grades up. My parents are calling my teacher(s) to see how I'm doing (since the last report card came home) before they decide whether or not I can go out this weekend. Isn't that fucking great? Oh yes, I know the idea sounds great to you too doesn't it?

Well I must depart and get to work.
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Tuesday, March 23rd, 2004

Subject:quick. dont look.
Time:9:18 pm.
Mood:i really dont want to work.


aww aint i cute when i eat?
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Time:6:18 pm.
Mood: happy.
Music:mazzy star- fade into you.
i am updating upon request (actually demand) of a very special someone. so here you go

but you see i have nothing to share that isnt crude or un-needed hence, why i did not update out of my own will

sorry
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Monday, March 22nd, 2004

Time:7:10 pm.
Mood:asleep.
Music:sublime - april 26, 1992.
everyone who has ever said i have a nice complexion has cursed me and i hate you all

my relatives + an open bar = hours of entertainment for all. i attended a wedding reception in california this weekend. i was sick and very allergic to something out there so i spent most of my time sleeping. oh well it wasnt a complete waste cause i got some of my family to convince my mom that she should let me go and let me decide whether or not to leave here, afterall, it was my decision to begin with.

ok wow i'm talking out of my ass. jesus fucking christ i am tired.
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Wednesday, March 17th, 2004

Subject:boom shakalaka
Time:8:14 pm.
Mood:heartburn, mad heartburn.
Music:natalie merchant - seven years.
my parents are rediculous

i get to go away tomorrow

and my dad just called to tell me that one of the coolest people I know has cancer.

one out of three things good... it aint so bad

...i guess
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Tuesday, March 16th, 2004

Time:6:33 pm.
db31559 (6:30:48 PM): Madeline and Alicia both said you were beautiful
db31559 (6:31:08 PM): I said yeah, looks like her dad
vness828 (6:31:15 PM): hahaha
db31559 (6:32:05 PM): gotts go kick it. I'll call you before your trip
vness828 (6:32:12 PM): ok
vness828 (6:32:13 PM): bye
db31559 (6:32:25 PM): kick it like relax, not abuse the cat

oh geeze i love my dad
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Subject:they dance like its the end of the world
Time:6:21 pm.
Mood: hot.
Music:kill hannah - race the dream.
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Extreme
Level 7 (Violent)Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)High

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

it is getting so gawdamn hot
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Thursday, March 11th, 2004

Time:6:13 pm.
Music:killswitch engage - life to lifeless.
I haven't had official access to my computer in quite some time due to the fact that I was grounded from it for ditching. But I found that I really didnt miss it that much and that most of the time that I usually spend sitting at it is a complete waste. Yea, some punishment, eh?

So for those of you who feel like they've been missing out on my life (ha!...right) here's a quick update:
-My dad has a job, a real job!
-My brother has been offered a contract to go professional with his boxing
-today is my sis' 3rd birthday so I have to stay home tonight
-my wondrous chest pains have returned (stronger), but now I have found a friend who is getting the same thing and i don't feel so lonely in my misery.
-i got myself a dartboard, it's a great stress releaser and the noise of it drives my mother insane
-i only have to attend school for a few/three days next week
-i have this patch of godknowswhat on the side of my face that just wont go away
-well much else has been done but i think i have exceded the limits of your boredom with my silly little recent life detailsso i will stop.
now.
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Monday, March 1st, 2004

Subject:do a little dance
Time:6:43 pm.
Mood: excited.
gotta say this.. again: life is goooood

might be grounded, but eh whatever

it's just been a "why im thuper thanks for asking" kind-of-month
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Wednesday, February 25th, 2004

Subject:don't waste your touch, you won't feel anything
Time:6:45 pm.
Mood:hmm.
Music:afi - dancing through sunday.
Somebody I dont know died.

I was unlucky enough to be the one to answer the phone, and handled the whole situation so awfully. so insensitive.

All I know about this woman is that she had a daughter my age. That is terribly sad. And its times like these that confirm my disbelief in god (no i didnt capitalize it).

Feel free to comment and tell me how rediculous I am.
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Tuesday, February 24th, 2004

Time:4:27 pm.
Mood: groggy.
Music:duh.
I was beginning to mock mtv's latest attempt at showing "music videos" , cause afterall, it is "MUSIC" television. All I was seeing though, was Sean Paul and some other rediculous video that Jamie Foxx does with some other dude. Aaaanyways today I saw a Yeah Yeah Yeahs video, people are finally catching on. And maps is such a beautiful song, if you dont have fever to tell, go buy it, it's been out for almost a year now (totally worth the money).

I'm so happy, it almost makes me want to stop hating mtv for claiming to be a music channel.

Yea that was my afternoon cause i came home and felt as though i needed to carve out my chest and my eyes with a rusty garden trowel, I'm still not sure why. So I planted my sorry ass in fron of the tv.

oh yea, and trash bag sleds kick ass! don't they? ;)
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