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[31 Oct 2003|06:46pm] |
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Happy Halloween!
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[24 Oct 2003|02:50am] |
Have you ever had one of those friends that you love to death but don't have the energy to expend on them? Okay, let me elaborate.
I have this friend Ashley. We're really close. I've been through a lot with her, and she's helped me through some very heartbreaking situations. I love her like my own sister, but the way I feel about her has always been different than how she feels for me. Get my drift?
Anyway, that's not important. I just feel like I spend so much of my time and energy trying to make her happy to no avail. She calls me nonstop for support because there is always something wrong. She always has something going on where she feels the need to call me right away. I don't know if she expects me to come to her rescue everytime, but I don't know how to tell her that I can't be that person. It's emotionally exhausting. I would go out of my way, and bend over backwards for Ashley any given day or time, I just find it hard to always help her out of her situations when I've got problems of my own. Then, there have been times that I've told her that I need space, and I've felt like a real ass.
Our conversations revolve around her problems, and I hate hearing her crying and frustrated. You know...the whole nine yards. I try to be what I think she needs from me, and I end up compromising myself. I don't know what to do. I almost find myself getting angry with her sometimes for not realizing all that I do for her, but I know she can't help it.
I guess my real question is...How do I preserve my sanity without breaking her heart?
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[22 Oct 2003|09:13pm] |
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Ew! This old guy at Lonestar complimented me on my ass today and winked. I wanted to die. That was just beyond sketchy. But, there was nothing I could do except smile and walk away quickly. Anyone want my Texas pride pin? I'll take a picture of it. It feels sacrilegious for me to wear it...and I don't particularly care for that state anyway. bah.
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[20 Oct 2003|11:00am] |
I work at Lonestar now so if any of you feel like steak (erika i'll save you a salad) come visit me. Except, don't make fun of me cause I have to wear this bright neon pin that says "Texas Pride" *gags*
I'll even flirt with you if you leave a nice tip ;) You know...if you drop a spoon, I'll bend over for you. And perhaps if you manage to drop a tiny morsel of steak in your lap...I'll be so kind as to go down and get it off for you. ;)
LMAO
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[17 Oct 2003|09:26pm] |
More on this later, as I am about to go out. But, does anyone know how one can manage to get an excess of protein in their body? Like, what causes that? I had to get a lot of bloodwork done and everything was fine except for that. I don't know if I should be concerned or not while I'm playing basketball.
I should know the answer being that I'm studying pre-med. *shakes head* oh well...
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[12 Oct 2003|11:13pm] |
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Prince- If I Was Your Girlfriend |
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I love to love to be loved to give love. If that makes sense to anyone but whom it's intended for. *smiles*
Anyway, I was listening to Prince, and I decided the best way to explain how I feel right now is through his song "If I Was Your Girlfriend". A more in depth entry will come tomorrow. I'll be back in Bumfuck MD by then :(
( Read more... )
Yeah...this song give me chills.
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[11 Oct 2003|03:42am] |
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do you feel what i'm feeling? i can take you places like never before.... it's indefinable.
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[03 Oct 2003|08:13pm] |
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Jess is on her way and she's bringing her friend, Matt. Mike isn't coming anymore, but the mission is to find Matt a girl! OMG I'm so nervous!
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[01 Oct 2003|05:11pm] |
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Amendments to my userinfo
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[29 Sep 2003|08:36pm] |
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My ex, Jess, is coming to visit me this Friday!!! And since we've never officially met, this impromtu visit is most certainly welcomed!
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