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Thursday, December 8th, 2005
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5:54 pm
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| Monday, September 19th, 2005
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12:15 am
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| Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
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6:50 pm
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thanx guys... ive been here at his place since saturday and he still hasnt mentioned what i did... its hard waiting for him to say somthing.. i dunno i guess have to wait for him to be ready to talk.. but this is driving me nuts.... not to mention that i cant sleep because of flashbacks and i dont know how to even begin to tell him about that. how do you tell your boyfriend that you went through somthing like that?
current mood: bouncy
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| Thursday, April 7th, 2005
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12:50 am
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I am still not sure what to do. My heart is still breaking and I still feel like I cannot breathe. It hurts so much that I hurt him like this. I know that life comes with pain, but why does it have to hurt so damn much. Not to mention that our one year annaversey is comming up on May 1st. Im not sure what to do. I don't even think he remembers..... or cares at all about it. I hope he does. I just wish all this pain would go away...I dont know how to make it stop. I dont know what to do......Do you?
current mood: blank
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| Tuesday, April 5th, 2005
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2:30 am
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Please understand
I'll never
Leave your side
No matter what happens
I'll stick right by.
Please know
When the tears
Fall softly
I'll gently wipe
Them away.
Please let me see
The hurt your hiding
Inside so I
Can chase away
The demons that are
Killing
You inside.
Please lean on
Me if you need a
Hug or just
A good cry.
Please smile
Every once in a while.
Please call
If you need
Anything I'll
Listen and
Comfort just let
Me know.
Please give me
Your hand
And hold on tight
We'll make it
Together.
Please let me
Catch you when
You fall.
Please remember
That wherever
I go or whatever I do
My soul will always be
There to protect you.
Please keep
Promises and don't
Let me
Down, your
Special to me
And to
Everyone else.
Please let the
Sunshine on you, it
Will make you
Happy...even
Laugh once
Or twice.
Please look up
At the blue sky.
It writes your
Whole life story
All at one time.
Please let
Me be your
Best friend, I'll
Help you through
Good and even bad.
Please trust me, it's
All I ask, I'll make
You happy and give
You love that'll
Never end.
Please let me tell you
I'm stuck to you like
A stamp to a letter,
Like paper to glue.
I'm
Here
Forever.
current mood: crushed
current music: Foolish Games/Jewel
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| Monday, April 4th, 2005
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3:46 am - I love him with all my heart and its killing me........
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I dont know what to do...any advice would be appreciated..I cant make much sense of all of this so I am hoping that maybe you can. Last weekend I went downtown, got drunk and ended up cheating on my boyfriend. I told him about it and we are trying to work things out. He told me that I had to cheer up and that it wasnt the end of the world, but I cant...I love him with all my heart and its killing me that I hurt him like this. This is a guy I can see myself spending the rest of my life together... I found out that he was going to ask me to move in with him (hes not sure now).. I tried to explain to him as best as I know why I did it.......................................The problem is I dont know what to do..right now he is away in Halifax and wont be back for another 10 days. I know he doesnt trust me right now, but Im trying to explain my actions as clearly as I can and without trust he is just ignoring whats going on. I dont know how to cheer up and move on when we havent even dealt with whats happened...I cant sleep, I cant eat, it hurts to breathe....Im dying inside and I dont know what to do.
current mood: depressed
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