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| 10:19am 21/06/2003 |
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mood:  flirty music: Marilyn Manson - mOBSCENE
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| somebody ripped out my heart |
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| 09:32pm 11/06/2003 |
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mood:  drained music: White Stripes
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New background, and Icon. Manson Yay. Not a lot to write about today, Im just having a convo with Ben about superficial ppl,and stuff like that. Hi Ben if ur reading! Hes a great person. Didnt really get2know him properly till now. I love our lil late nite chats..lol. School was funny. Put my mind off things for a while,at least. Went out with Ash tonite, which was so much fun. It was kinda laid back, like i cud talk about anything. He bought me lunch, which hasnt been done for a long time, and made me feel like ..well.. me. It cheered me up a bit. He's opened my eyes a little,how i can be myself,and still be accepted for who i am. He's also got me wondering about Long Term Relationships. I say no more,as i want this to be public,not private. My eyes are sore. I keep staring out the window, wondering, wishing Jamie was there. If i cud write good poetry, id be onto a best seller now,the way i feel. I feel like im detatched from everything again. Im exhausted, emotionally drained. Life isnt dealing me a good hand.. I just hope it gets better soon. Thank you Ash for a great day. Thanks everyone at skool for a wikkid day too. Even tho i dont wanna be here. Thanks. |
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| goodbye.nice to know you |
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| 12:13pm 09/06/2003 |
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mood:  working music: Incubus - Just a Phase
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Just got back from Mich's, had to come home early coz i got stacks of homework **sigh** Ive so far learnt **counts** 47 out of the 97 questions ive got to know for my oral. Wish me luck. Ive got a long way to go. Plus ive got italian to learn,which is double that. Shit. Thats all i can come to. fucking SHIT Jayne just rang. Seems Pye tried it on. She sounded so damn upset. She was crying down the fone. I told her to get her dad to go along his house and threaten him (thats the advantage of having a really rough looking dad) and she was like,"no. i cant. it'll make it worse." So ill be having a little chat with Mr Daniel Pye on tuesday. he always makes jayne upset. hes so fucked in the head. freak. Hes the kinda guy u'll see in the paper for killing 5yr olds, or for indecent assault. fucker. It's Nick's birthday today!! Yup. The little guy's finally 15 :) Meh, I better get stuck into this load of fuckin' homework **sigh**
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| 04:43am 09/06/2003 |
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mood:  geeky music: watever mich is listening to! {Qotd Soundtrack}
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My names Alana. Alana Smoel. Remember it, coz ull be screaming it later. lol eym yah this is my new diary. am at my mate michs house now and yeah. ill do a quiz so u can no a bit bout me!
**The Random Quiz**
What's the last thing you bought?: Eym, Dr Pepper yesturday...yummy
Do you have a job?: No. I want one tho. I wanna get money so I dont have to rely on my mum all the time
When is the last time you stayed up all night?: Good fucking question.. probably with Mich. I think so. Couple of weeks ago..
What is your favorite song?: I dont have one favourite song. I have quite a few, but they chop and change all the damned time. Atm its probably Marilyn manson Mobscene
Have you ever cut yourself?: No,i cant stand knives
Who has changed your life the most for the better?: Probably my friends, all of them. They're always there when I need advice. Thanks guys.
What's your favorite movie(s)?: eym, queen of the damned, american pie, scary movie, american beauty atm..
What are your favorite pizza toppings?: Chicken with sweetcorn, tomato and bacon...yummy...
Have you ever been in the hospital for more than a day?: nope.
how long has it been since you were at the mall?: hmmm.. I the last time I went was with Mich Rhys and Andy, so that was Saturday
What's the last movie you saw in a theater?: 2 fast 2 furious
What's the last movie you rented?: Ali G Indahouse at Michs....oh and 40 days 40 nights..good films
If you suffocate a smurf, what color does he turn?: lol...eym, purple? or maybe pink...
Would you ever name your kid True?: lmao NAR! Thats a gay name. Thats asking for ur kid to be bullied... True Wiseman? LOL
Would you make fun of someone if you knew their name was True?: if they were called True Wiseman I wud!
What color is your computer?: like this weird beige colour....doesnt go with the comp room *blurgh*
What is your favorite color of ink to write in?: red gel pen ink...yay
Would you rather write in pen or pencil?: pen,pencils are annoying
How tall are you? around 5'5
What's your name again?: Alana... hallao, told you to remember it!
Do you believe in God?: no. Never have really. I dont get the concept of a big dude in the sky where when everyone prays for him to forgive them etcetc and stop wars when really its their own damned fault. Hes just some figment of a doped up guys imagination so that everyone can lay all their blame and guilt into so they dont feel so bad.
Do you pray often?: now really
What's your biggest fear?: im not telling coz someone will probably make it come true! Nah,probably some killer dude coming to my house and killing my mum infront of me. Thats my sick imagination for ya.
Do you believe in love at first sight?: Not particularly. I cant define what it is. I cant decide for myself.
Have you ever been in a car accident?: Yes. With my mam when i was 10ish. And yes,i cried
What is your lucky number?: I dont have one. eym.... 667
Have you ever been on the radio?: Nope. Never really wanted to.
Do you have a cellphone?: Nah. Don’t rub it in!
Do you have a pager?: No. Don’t want one
What is your favorite day of the week?: Friday
What is your least favorite day of the week?: Monday. First day back after the weekend, a whole week of school. Sucks.
Do you like rain?: Nope. Rains a bitch. It messes up ur hair. It makes ur make-up run, and it pisses me off
Do you think lightning is awesome?: Yep. I love storms
When you were young what did you want to be when you grew up?: a dustbin lady. No shit. I really did
What do you want to be now?: Im not sure. something to do with languages..that wud be cool
Do you have any pennies sitting on your computer desk?: no.
Do you have a black light?: nope.
Do you have glow-in-the-dark stars?: used to when i was little,but they scared me
Do you have anything that glows in the dark?: nope
Do you like Pepsi or Coke better?: Coke. Pepsi. Same thing
Can you tell a difference?: Nope. Not really. Except cokes a tad sweeter
What are you thinking about right now?: I wanna buy a bottle of coke now lol
What is your favorite song to listen to when you are mad?: Marilyn Manson - any song of theirs. They all rock.
How many times have you had the chicken pox?: Once. I thought it was only possible to have it once?
When was the last time you brushed your teeth?: This morning
What is your middle name?: Louise.I hate that name
-Other Stuff-
Do you have a girl/boyfriend?: nah
How long was your longest crush?: around *counts*5 months
What was their name?: **shifty glance** why you wanna know
Who do you have a crush on now?: I love someone. I dont have a crush
What is your favorite emotion?: Being in love and knowing they love you back
What is your favorite TV show?: dont really have one. Probably Buffy or Jackass
When you go to the movies do you throw stuff at people?: did once. got chucked out
Do you know any fake people?: fake? yep. quite a few. and they piss me off so damn much
What school do you go to?: Parkwood
What grade are you in?: Year 9
What grade are you supposed to be in?: Year 9
Would you rather have friendship or love?: friendship. Loves great. but friends are more secure
Describe your friends in five words: trustworthy,crazy,bitchy,funny,reliable
If you knew the truth was gonna hurt you would you still wanna hear it?: I think so. I dont wanna live in a fantasy world
Would you change yourself to make someone else happy?: no, never. Id change myself if i wasnt happy,but not for someone else
What one thing makes you happy?: Mich
What phrase or saying do you use the most?: oh wikkid!!!
What's your favorite scary movie?: dont have one. the ones ive seen are quite cool
If your house was burning down and you could only take one thing with you, what would it be?: probably my cds. |
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