Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in Robin's Blurty:

Tuesday, May 13th, 2003
1:11 am	...wow, that was months ago... Looks as though my last entry was when my life was complete chaos...it still is, but not in the same ways. Things worked out with ArmyBoy and I. We still have our probs with all that has happened, but still, I'm very happy with him and things get better and better everyday. It's funny to look back and see how stupid I was...casual sex was the worst decision I could have made (for several reasons) but mostly because I worry waaaaaay too much. Ever since the *encounter* I have been convinced that I have some sort of weird disease. I have been tested for almost anything and everything that is sexually transmitted, and everything has been negative, but damn...I can't stop worrying... and we used a condom, so why can't I be normal and just stop obsessing. *sigh* On a different note, THIRD EYE BLIND, my favorite band in the entire world is FINALLY releasing their much awaited third album and it's gonna blow the hinges off everything out there right now...can't wait to buy it tomorrow. The first single is amazing and everything they played in concert rocked. Can't wait to see them again in June...General admission on the floor...SWEET! :-D Anyhoooo, this is all I feel like catching up on right now...soooo, soooo much more has taken place, but it's all gravy. Goodnight! Current Mood: chipper Current Music: Third Eye Blind ~ "Blinded (when i see you)" (Comment on this)
Friday, November 22nd, 2002
4:55 pm	BORED... Just after I finished my entry last night, ArmyBoy called me. He is in processing to come home, and I absolutely cannot wait to see him. He says he is catching a flight straight here to see me, and I have the highest hopes that we can get past our problems. I KNOW that he loves me, I've never doubted that, I just doubted how much...and I kinda still do, but if he is here with me to show me, and to build on that, then I think there may be hope for us after all. *sigh* I think only slept with PunkBoy in a desperate attempt to make me feel better about myself. For the first time in a long time I felt desirable and wanted and sexy, and at that moment it was what I needed...but that doesn't change the fact that I shouldn't have done it. Anyway, Johnny knows, and seems very willing to forgive and forget because he knows it would NEVER have happened had he not made the mistakes that he did first. So, I'm not going home this weekend because I have to finish painting my window mural at the assisted-living facility where I am volunteering...it's part of my requirement for a service-learning class that I STUPIDLY decided to take...volunteering with the elderly and painting for them *sigh* just isn't my thing. I wish I could have volunteered somewhere else, but nooooooooooooooo, I'm an art major so they leave me with the leftover BS...figures...maybe one day artists will be regarded with respect by more than just their peers...I hope... I didn't go out this week, and now that I've kinda gotten used to going out to the club, I feel like a loser cuz I didn't, lol. It's pretty sad when one or two trips to the club in a week makes you feel like you have a life, isn't it?! I'm waiting on my mom to get here right now...we are gonna go out to eat, and she is gonna bring me this week's episode of Dawson's...*sigh* I hate not having the WB. She also will be bringing my letters from ArmyBoy that have arrived this week. I am anxious to see what they say...I miss him so much, and I almost hate reading his "groveling." I've always wanted a boy to be groveling at my feet, but now, under the circumstances and all, it's just kind of sad...Everyone else tells me to enjoy, but it's hard for me to find bliss in his misery...all I ever wanted was for us to be happy together....okay, so, yeah, I am a complete and utter cheeseball, but I can't help it......... ...wonder where mom is gonna take me to eat?... Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Third Eye Blind ~ "I Want You" (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 21st, 2002
3:59 am	BLAH! So, I just typed up my first journal entry...It was incredibly long and detailed and fun and beautiful.........THEN my dorm had a power surge as I was about to submit it, and I lost the whole thing...fucking shit. Anyway, I'm tired and I'm going to bed. Guess I will fill you all in on my world of chaos sometime tomorrow. *sigh* g'night! Current Mood: mellow Current Music: Kelly Osbourne ~ Shut Up! (Comment on this)