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Monday, January 5th, 2004
11:43 am	Departure is such sweet sorrow... Yes, even I am moving. To the Gray Ha... I mean to the Velgar's Lair. Are you ready, my friend? *Nods* That's good. Even he is coming with me. Well to the next! To the future! But never to the past! *Hurrays* Current Mood: moody Current Music: Europe - Final Countdown (Notes for my Shalafi)
Sunday, January 4th, 2004
10:18 pm	One cant always be happy Well as you have read from my couple entrys. I'm not very satisfied with my life. At time to time at least. Well I found an answer for it. As if you were born into a world of tears, you always tend to look at the darker things in life. Inside you crave attention yet push away society, and you're a hopeless romantic. Drawn to things like the occult and mysteries, you spend your time daydreaming of What Type of Soul Do You Have ? brought to you by Quizilla Don't know from what I daily daydream about, but I think from the usual things, love, wealth, health or such. It doesn't say. *Laughs* Like it would know that. Had made this one already long ago, didn't want to believe it then and partly don't want to even yet. But it's kinda true. *Nods* So you are here too, thought already, that you wouldn't show up. *Talks* Reading what? How did you get to read "the story"? *Talks again and points* What? *Walks where was pointed* Hole? How do you get to know these things? *Talks once more* Yea, right. I forgot. You are here 24-7. Oh, well. How have liked the story, this far? *Talks* Well thats nice to hear. Keep on reading. *Nods* Current Mood: amused Current Music: Yölintu - Kulku Soittajan (Notes for my Shalafi)
1:06 am	This took some time to make Advanced Big Five Personality Test Results Sociability |||||||||||||| 58% Gregariousness |||||||||| 38% Assertiveness |||||| 26% Activity Level |||||| 26% Excitement-Seeking |||||||||||||||| 66% Cheerfulness |||||||||||||||| 70% Extroversion |||||||||||| 47% Trust |||||||||| 38% Morality |||||||||||||||| 62% Altruism |||||||||| 38% Cooperation |||| 14% Modesty |||||||||||| 46% Sympathy |||||||||||||||| 70% Friendliness |||||||||||| 44% Self-Efficacy |||||||||||||||| 62% Neatness |||||| 26% Dutifulness |||||||||||||| 54% Achievement |||||| 26% Self-Discipline |||||| 30% Cautiousness |||||||||| 34% Orderliness |||||||||| 38% Anxiety |||||||||| 34% Anger |||||||||||| 50% Depression |||||||||||||||||| 74% Self-Consciousness |||||||||||| 42% Immoderation |||||||||||| 42% Vulnerability |||||| 30% Emotional Stability |||||||||||||| 55% Imagination |||||||||||||||||||| 82% Artistic Interests |||||||||||||||||| 74% Emotionality |||||||||||||||| 62% Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 66% Intellect |||||||||||||||||| 74% Liberalism |||||||||||||| 58% Openmindedness |||||||||||||||| 69% Take Free Advanced Big 5 Personality Test Yes, a true personality test. Only 150 questions. This shall be first time I use same music twice. It is a simple tribute for the four ladys of my life: Luck, Weather, Mystery and last shall not be named. *Taunts* SHE'S NOT MY GOD, YOU FUCKING IDIOT!! *Meeps* Even as I wont bow for my God, I shall not mock Him by any means. HIM! Note that! *Hides* *Laughter* Nameless is only "real" lady, the rest are just my guides. But truly this song is tribute for them. You know why, if you have heard it. Current Mood: lonely Current Music: Marc Anthony - When I Dream At Night (Notes for my Shalafi)
Saturday, January 3rd, 2004
10:45 pm	Wars are for writers, sayings are for generals First of all I'd like to present my maybe most favorite movie comment: Cold be heart, hand and bone cold be travellers far from home they do not see what lies ahead when sun has failed and moon is dead. It has the something that catched my senses at the moment it was said. Yes, it is the same thing Gollum said. I don't know what it was, mysterious of it, the rare rhyming, at these days it is or just the fact that Gollum said it. *Thinks* I think that it's the mysterious of it. I love mysterys, especially when they are made by yours truly. The next happy thing for the world is, that the wars are over. *Cheers* *Fanfares* *Cheering* *Whistling* *You know, the usual stuff* One of them still remains, as a story, that shall continue until the end of time. Oor until we get fed up with it. Current Mood: amused Current Music: Dr. Bombay - Indy Dancing (Notes for my Shalafi)
Friday, January 2nd, 2004
5:20 pm	Friends, friends, where are thee? It's getting really lonely, even as there is only couple days, befor school starts again and I get to see my pals once again. It is just that when I get out of that place. All my former pals and buddys just dissapear, it's always like that. Some stay in contact with me for, let say, year or that. Then they are drawn to another groups, alcohol some might even start taking drugs, don't know, don't hear from them. If I had not starten the four comment-waste-of-time-war-call-whatever-you-want-things, I wouldn't hear anythin from Phamby either, like I would hear anything from her now either. Call them a bunch of friends. For this reason I found myself linked on Raistlin, from Wheel of Time, whose face is decorating my juornal. He wasn't just mean old bastard, who shout for power, no matter the prize. One fragment from one Margaret's, the true creator of Raistlin, book has perhaps foreverly been burned in to my mind, it of course might go a bit different in the books, especially in non-finnish ones. Wont even use the dot-thingys, for the fear of mockery. ...When the soldiers were wounded in battle, Raistlin helped them with herbs and salves. He healed the wounded, eased the pain of the dying and restlessly made medicine for them. And the soldiers grew the trust him, because when they looked in his eyes, they saw that he truly understood the pain they had. But when the soldiers were healed, they noticed that they liked Raistlin as less as they had befor, they were just ready to punch everyone who dared to say it... It wasn't even nearly as that, but it lets you to get the image. For me... I'm no healer, I know no herbs, nor salves. But for me it has been the joy, that the mere appearance of me leaves behind me, the jokes I tell, stand-up comedy. I'm quite liked, in school, there is only some, who don't know my name, even less of those, who don't know me by some way. The jokes I tell gives laughter and joy and when someone has bad time, he only needs to look at me and he sees, how things could be worse and thus feels the hope. But unlike Raistlin, who had Caramon, a simple counter-part of himself to fulfill the lacks he had, I have none. You cant even begin to think how annoying that is... Still there are many thoughts to give, but I lack the words to tell it... Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: Stratovarius - Forever (2 delivered notes | Notes for my Shalafi)
2:07 am	Nightraven flys again I always liked ravens, they so strange birds. Here still isn't nothing fun to do, I'm just drinking sider, playing with lighter, not being drunk, listening music, thinking and of course the most important... DOING QUIZES!! *Deep silence* What! *Looks around* Oh there he is. *Walks behind a corner* *Kicks* You lazy piece of meat. I said quizes. *Hastly grabs pipe* *Fanfare* Thank you, now go back to... *Snores* Sometimes that guy surprises even me... You are the mysterious Gideon. You are very mysterious (like i just said.) and just like Jack, you are into long-term relationships. Sometimes to express yourself you talk in riddles. Just for fun though, you love to mess around with peoples heads. Try to cut down on that. If something gets you mad, people tend to stay away from you. But hey, lots of girls like the mysterious type, but you believe that you will stay with your current girlfriend. What Hot guy faery are you? (guys only) brought to you by Quizilla That is so right! I just luv to mess up with peoples thoughts. And about that cutting out part, NEVER! *Evil laughter* So if you see someone suddenly laughing, just without any kind of reason, come to say hi for me. Nothing makes people more confused, than laughing and not letting them know for what you are laughing. But there is couple of more parts of Jacky, that I might add. Jack's fun-loving nature and his hatred for himself. Yes I truly hate myself and nothing beats the laughs, that fill the air after I have told joke about myself. And before you think I just live to do quizes, I give you this. Online quizzes have absolutely no hold over you. You think they are a waste of time, especially since you've got so many better things to do. You probably think I'm pathetic for even coming up with this quiz. Well, good for you, you're entitled to your opinion. So why'd you take this one in the firsts place? Are you addicted to online quizzes? brought to you by Quizilla To speak the truth, the questions were only such, that I could not answer yes. Current Mood: happy Current Music: Matti ja Teppo - Sanaton Rakkaus (Notes for my Shalafi)
Thursday, January 1st, 2004
7:03 pm	This is starting to be quite old already Did a quiz, again. Another elemental quiz. Didn't get earth this time, but here is another proof of the you-know-what and if you don't know, well, soon you will. Air. You think before you act, you look before you leap. You are very direct, which sometimes can hurt others. You are always looking for the truth behind things. Of all the elements, you're the wisest. What is your element? brought to you by Quizilla There's a bit truth in that you know. To give example: One of my friends had new hair style, which I didn't like, I liked the old one better. And guess what I did. I went and told it to him straight. You should have seen the others eyes. I can be terrible rude, when I get to it. Gladly he was just testing this style, so he took my comment quite lightly. For me it took couple hours to realize, what I had said. Of course I went to apologize, what I had said. He understood me, guess I had been around enough for him to get to know me. Current Mood: blank Current Music: Neljä Ruusua - Kuka Näkee (Notes for my Shalafi)
1:34 am	Happy New Year all you crazy people And no, I'm not drunk. And even yet no, I haven't got any love-letters, not such to make me cheery. It's just that new year, new worries and for now I have none. Except maybe the tin-thing, got two crosses, which both resemble death for the resiever. But I wont let that take me done, I mean if I have to go, then it's at least something I wanted and how many people gets to die twice? *Nods* Okay, okay. I believe they resemble more like mental deaths and I dont mean brain-deaths, more like emotional or... well I think you got the picture. *Nods again* Well what can I say more than HAPPY NEW YEAR!! *Yells the same* Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Itsevaltiaat - Oi Seppo, Seppo (Notes for my Shalafi)
Wednesday, December 31st, 2003
2:34 pm	I'm the God's entertainer To brighten the subject, I must go through with something. For me it has been quite simple with gods. They all are, because we believe in them and now the belief is the key. You can believe whatever you want and it will be real, but just for you. Now you ask: Why cant I fly then. Why do I keep falling down from the roof. And I ask: Do you really believe you can do that. And I get the answer: Not really... So anyway. The second part of this is that I believe in The Creator and that Hi's/She's/It's... perfect, and perfect is all and at the same time it is nothing. Get the picture? No? I didn't expect it either. But lets carry on. So we, humans, animal, etc. aren't perfect, we could not even dream from anything perfect, so Creator has a problem, how to show Him/Her/It...self to us? Well, this is fixed with gods. You've seen how many of them are there, haven't you? Well, I say they're all the same. They are just something by what Creator has managed to show His, in most of the religions, will to us. Not like He/She/It... can do it anymore, I mean how many of us believe any more? And with those are dealed, we arrive in to the main subject. The God's entertainer. So, it comes from my belief, which sadly happens to be quite powerfull, but only to me as I said earlier. I believe, that my God is a funny-loving bearded fellow atop of cloud, quite easy to create for someone perfect, as you can see. And He likes to play jokes on me. But one thing He doesn't like, is to see me sad, deadly sad. That is truly one thing He doesn't like. It's not anyway entertaining, you see. If you read the entry below, you can see that I was quite dead already. And yet again my God didn't like it and when I shouted for strength to control my life and someone who I could trust to keep me up when life hits me down. It's not as easy being me as it would seem to my friends at school. Well, the God answered with a way, that only my God could come up. Through horoscope, well, through two of them really. I woke up this morn... day, at 13:50, near that time anyway, went to have brea... well, something to eat and I noticed Seura, a finnish magazine, on the table and there are always horoscope in it, this time two, a weekly- and a fullyear-horoscope. I don't believe in them much, but they are kinda entertaining. I read first the weekly, didn't know first that there were fullyear-one. Well, what do you know. It started immediately telling, how I will be in a big project and most of the time I will be leading it and etc. And then I read the fullyear. It told me that I would be full of energy and stuff for the whole first half of the year and the whole year would be so full of romance, that at summer both "nut-planet" Venus and the "screw-planet" Mars would be over the Gemini and you know what those two resemble and if you don't, then get out from Blurty, it's only for 18 and over. And as you have read, my God has yet again had His jolly time with me and it's so ironic that I cant do anything else than laugh with Him. Picked this music, just to honor my God and again if you have heard it or better yet seen the music-vid, you'll understand why... Current Mood: amused Current Music: Haddaway - What Is In Love (Notes for my Shalafi)
3:00 am	As you see, never trust, what you first believe I feel a bit better now... It's just the night. It is the true time for me. The time for the shadow to live... *Nods* *Warm laughter* Yes, the true time for the mere corpses of human beings, just like me. I have dwelled in self-pity, loathing, misunderstandment and in the darkness of night for so long, that I have became like the Názgul. Only armor above the very air. Only the will of Sauron kept them intact, like for me the fear of God keeps me from the suicide. My friends maybe thought that I only for fun had thought how to end my life, well now you know that I have been quite serious from it... *Tired smile* And the worst part of this all is that my speech echos to deaf ears... hopefully... It is just this helpless feeling that takes over me after certain times and I can say, that if I could be sure it will be gone after I die, I would kill myself, but I'm not sure... Cant even say if it's good or bad thing. I know there can be much for me to give, but if I use my time as I have for now, I could be as well dead. But I must stop again... Just to begin again another time... Luckily I found this quiz to keep me entertained in this world for a moment. I Am A: Chaotic Good Elf Mage Fighter Alignment: Chaotic Good characters are independent types with a strong belief in the value of goodness. They have little use for governments and other forces of order, and will generally do their own things, without heed to such groups. Race: Elves are the eldest of all races, although they are generally a bit smaller than humans. They are generally well-cultured, artistic, easy-going, and because of their long lives, unconcerned with day-to-day activities that other races frequently concern themselves with. Elves are, effectively, immortal, although they can be killed. After a thousand years or so, they simply pass on to the next plane of existance. Primary Class: Mages harness the magical energies for their own use. Spells, spell books, and long hours in the library are their loves. While often not physically strong, their mental talents can make up for this. Secondary Class: Fighters are the warriors. They use weapons to accomplish their goals. This isn't to say that they aren't intelligent, but that they do, in fact, believe that violence is frequently the answer. Deity: Find out What D&D Character Are You?, courtesy ofNeppyMan (e-mail) Let us see again tomorrow, if God grants that. I can say, I will feel better then. *Laughs* Found again a good one. Note the music. If you have heard it, you'll understand... Current Mood: sad Current Music: Marc Anthony - When I Dream At Night (Notes for my Shalafi)
Tuesday, December 30th, 2003
8:55 pm	Now I know... Now I have seen all the three movies. I feel so hobb... I mean... something. Anyhow. It was fantastic movie. And it seems, yet again, that Pete-boy knew what he was creating. Tomorrow is the New Years Eve, so be prepared to read something very crappy, made by yours truly. I already feel like shit, but thought to keep a happy mask, just because the Tolk-three. *Smiles sadly* And I fail even in that... ...I just hope that... ...next year shall be better... ...or better yet... ...that I would never have... ...to face it. *Tired look* *Looks sad* *Gets idea and says something* Well al least you are here. *Sad laugh* Lets give them another quiz, shall we? *Nods* Ghost or spirit: You are a lost soul. Very calm and sweet, you are often the one who asks: What if? With a clever mind, you want to explore the world on a different level. Without the answers, you aren't ready to move on. You are most likely very creative and find yourself thinking things through on a different level. **Where will you go when you die?** brought to you by Quizilla Like that would cheer me. *Talks* Well yes, I guess you're right. At least I have time. But if I use it the same way as befor. *Talks again* New Years Eve is truly full of power. Let us just hope then that He will listen us. *Warm laughter* As long as there is life, there is hope, as we like to say. *Nods* Current Mood: tired Current Music: Vangelis - West Across the Ocean Sea (Notes for my Shalafi)
1:45 am	Night is truly time of living Hey! Me again hanging around after the time for others to go sleep. Yea, right. Like someone would anymore go to sleep befor 3:00am. *Snoring* Okay, he goes. I should go too, have to go and see Mighty Tolkien Three at 12:30. Then I can again torment my fellow people with my knowledge. What brings me to the second reason, why I made this entry. Yes! You know it! You like it! It is always in your mind! At least in mine... A QUIZ!! Seer The ULTIMATE personality test brought to you by Quizilla Not really, that quizes would be always on my mind, just most of the time. I usually aren't very fond of personality test on Quizilla, but this I happen to like. Well, should get to bed now, long day ahead of me. Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: Sting & The Police - Englishman In New York (Notes for my Shalafi)
Monday, December 29th, 2003
4:43 pm	When war is over, no-one really stands as victor Yes. The war rages on four sides, north, east, west and south... *Talking* What? Surrounded? No, no, my dear friend. It isn't like that. Just wanted to show how bored I am. First it was fun and all, but now my eyes have been opened and it is just a matter of principle: She won't give up and I wont be the first one either. *Warm laughter* That girl is just so incredible forbearing, when she has sat her mind on something she wont give up if it's about principle. In that she's kind of like me. Sadly. *Talking* You didn't listen to me at all, did you? As I said, we both will keep up until the end of time and just for principle. Ha! There wasn't even any quiz to cheer me up. Those same-as-me-kind of people just draw my strength and still I don't even lose the power. It just floats away from my reach. It is just so hard to see the living mirrors. Oh well, let us all just carry on. Current Mood: calm Current Music: Rasmus - Last Waltz (Notes for my Shalafi)
Sunday, December 28th, 2003
8:51 pm	Funny, boring, funny, boring... It was fun as long as it lasted, the war-thingie, not like it's end, but now it's just something boring, when I found out that my opponent was just another crappy show-off person. Who just don't like to lose... *Taunting* Yea, right, like you would have told me she was like that. You had your mouth as shut as you shouldn't. But still, now it is too late. For her, I mean. Didn't even have time to make any funny quizes, had to visit our relatives, once again. Well this time the 42th entry stays this short, can't make up much to say. It isn't like I didn't have anything, it's just that I don't care. World is just full of crappy people and I cannot get any kind of challenge from anyone. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Lumo - Riisu Pois (66 delivered notes | Notes for my Shalafi)
Saturday, December 27th, 2003
7:49 pm	Over 40 entrys Hurray! 40 entrys are now history. *Hurrays* Even my little war is going well. Two out of three are over, for my victory, expect now they will rise in full blaze again. *Smiles* Nearly all dvds have been watched and I have learned much of making the Two Towers. It wasn't that easy, some good movies are made in 12-16 weeks and this, they said, took them 14 months and the banging-thing, that uruks do befor attacking, was created when one of the stunts started hitting his spear on the ground and everyone else were so bored that they came along and then someone started even sing some sort of battle song and soon they all sang it, that however wasn't in the movie. The uruk-actors even once started taunting the elf-actors, who were on the wall, soon the elves were so frustated that they started to give back, readied their bows and all. The funniest part was that when the elves started calling uruks mothers you-now-whats, there was a yell: Cut! They didn't know they were filmed. Both uruks and elves were quite silent after that one. *Is dying on laughter* By the way, about that Gollum-statue. It is nice and all, but it's not that unique. The reason, why there was a ordering card, was that there is another statue made from Gollum. A bit different and hand-numbered. Only change is, that in this one-of-7500-statue Gollum is angry, but the rest is same. Oh well, errarum est humanum. Made also an old quiz. And noticed how stupidly I had made it. But now it's made correctly. My friends just wont believe it. They probably still see me as an idiot, amusing one, but idiot nonetheless. *Sob* You are Form 5, Dragon: The Weaver. "And The Dragon seperated the virtuous from the sinful. He tore his eyes from his sockets and used them to peer into the souls of those on trial to make a judgement. He knew that with endless knowledge came endless responsibility." Some examples of the Dragon Form are Athena (Greek), St. Peter (Christian), and Surya (Indian). The Dragon is associated with the concept of intelligence, the number 5, and the element of wood. His sign is the crescent moon. As a member of Form 5, you are an intelligent and wise individual. You weigh options by looking at how logical they are and you know that while there may not always be a right or wrong choice, there is always a logical one. People may say you are too indecisive, but it's only because you want to do what's right. Dragons are the best friends to have because they're willing to learn. Which Mythological Form Are You? brought to you by Quizilla And the other one is just a misc. quiz that I made, just to entertain myself. Your: Mysterious eyes. All in the title. Your independant secretive and myseterious. You appear cold and distant, but hey, at leats no one messes with you. What type of eyes do you have? brought to you by Quizilla Well, I think this is good enough for the 41th entry, don't you think? *Nods* Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Stratovarius - Phoenix (Notes for my Shalafi)
1:54 pm	And the fight goes on First it was on one entry, then two, three and soon it will be on even more, hopefully. Yes, it is quite fun, but it seems that we both are losing ammo and fast. Soon it will be, like I said from an argue at mother tongue lesson: "Just two blind guys dueling with swords, they both yell: Thouche, thouche. But neither is hitting the other". *Silent whispering* Yes, it already might be like that, but it's still quite fun, even though my fair lady Phantom asked if we were breaking records yet, translated: can we stop now? Luckily her mind changed after one of my comments. Aren't I just so evil? Well now it's back to the war for me. *Puts the helmet on, grabs the rifle and walks away* Current Mood: amused Current Music: Led Zeppelin - Stairway to Heaven (Notes for my Shalafi)
Friday, December 26th, 2003
12:55 pm	Good morning world Not really, that I'd have woke up just now. I did it almost an hour ago... Anyhow, the battle rages on and it would seem, that my dear opponent is starting to lack ammo already, how sad, isn't it? *Angry talking* Hey! It's not my fault she started this... *More angry talking* So! Just because I said: "We both want the last word" doesn't mean she has to take it. It was her own decision, just ask her and you get the same answer, like she would say anything else... Still life goes on as long as the bullets keep away from your head. This time it wasn't quizilla, but quiz it is: Take the "How Do You Use Magic?" test! Written by Brimo I don't know should I be happy or sad, I love music and singing, but I hate the thing that bards have with their constitution, poke them and they die. In most of rgps anyway, but I have created couple of strong bards so I guess it's all right to be bard. Current Mood: confused Current Music: The Bard's Song - In the Forest (Notes for my Shalafi)
Thursday, December 25th, 2003
7:36 pm	Women, so simple, yet so unbelievable I have been in two human warfare for past three days and I like it! *Teleporting sound* It is so fun playing with words, when the opponent is female. They are so unforseen. *Teleporting sound* Also I have enjoyed my five dvds and I'm still doing it. "If you like to watch three hours straight press Play all" No thank you. *Teleporting sound* WOULD YOU STOP THAT FOR A MINUTE! *Silence* And I've been eating ham and all those things and candy and such, so in all: Life is good. And that means, that I shall soon encounter a great number of miss-fortune. But it wont be soon so, I'll go enjoy myself. Ta ta... Current Mood: happy Current Music: Richard Wagner - Walkürenritt (Notes for my Shalafi)
Wednesday, December 24th, 2003
8:39 pm	Santa loves me I been extra good this year! Two Towers special box, wtih Gollum, only 7500 in the world or that it says in the ordering card, that came along. Like I would like to order it anymore. Over kg of candy, it's true, my friends mom works on Leaf and they get cheap candy from there. 60 Euros, just for spending. And a lottery ticket, I like those but I never win anything. And some clothes, like every year... Dunno, why I went trough all those, but heck. Wounded myself while tryed safely take the Gollum-statue from the box. It was made like someone would keep it there or one should destroy the whole box, but I managed to get it out with out breaking the whole thing. *Hurrays* *Hurrays* See you tomorrow evening. I have five Dvds to check... Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Christmas - Carols :) (Notes for my Shalafi)
12:06 pm	Merry Christmas to you all! It's finally Christmas, again. Wuhuu! Must still wait for the evening, until I can see what wacky stuff has been bought for me. *Looks at the clock* *Looks too at the clock* Yes, not more than seven to ten hours left. After that I'm so full of ham and stuff, so overjoyed by the gifts and so tired, that I just might go straight to the bed... *Looks shocked* *Looks back* WELL, HELL NO! Don't say you believed me? *Shakes head* A moment a go I nearly believed so and I still do. *Starts teleporting around* How can teleporting be that fun? Oh well, let us continue waiting. *Starts staring at the clock again* Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Kingdom Hearts - Theme Song (66 delivered notes | Notes for my Shalafi)